i am so pessimistic!

[unhappyang]

I don't know why, but i am SO darn pessimistic

i was ecstatic the other day when i stepped on the scale that now reads 154.5 to 156, it varies throughout the day. As of right now, after eating and drinking a liter of water i'm at 159, which im praying to god will vanish after it digest and i wake up in the morning

Regarless, i have now officially lost 30 pounds in just a little less than 3 months.

The problem is, do not FEEL 155. I know it's still "overweight" but i still FEEL 188! When i look in the mirror, i still SEE 188! I think to myself "how is this possible? i am only TWENTY pounds from my long-term goal of 135! 10 from my short term at 145!" and yet i still look and feel the same.

Dont get me wrong, i do FEEL better. Some parts of my i can "feel" the difference. Like when im sitting down, i no longer feel like a huge blob. I can feel the bone in my knees again.

Ugh, i guess this was just a vent. But i think if i see no difference, how can anyone else? but its THIRTY pounds, there HAS to be some difference

Ang
SW-188 CW-155 GW-135

[Richt]

Re: i am so pessimistic!

Hi

There is bound to be a difference. 30lbs is a significant amount of weight to lose. I wouldnt beat yourself up too much over it. 30lbs is 2 english stones (a british weight measurement). You have clearly done really well, and this will continue. Don't panic.

Rich

[sallyseachange]

Re: i am so pessimistic!

Many congratulations on your success so far! You're doing very well indeed.

I think it can take a while for us to really "see" ourselves as we are now; i.e. after weight loss. Takes time to peel those fat goggles off... but I'm sure that eventually, you'll take in the fact that you really are considerably lighter and smaller. Then, you'll see the new you.

As Rich says: Don't panic.

[LooseShoes]

Re: i am so pessimistic!

You may have a set of those "fat goggles" on. Compare pictures of yourself then and now and I bet you CAN see a difference. Look at yourself like you would a friend--you won't be near as hard on yourself. You're doing great--let yourself enjoy it!

[gonnabskinny]

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Also, you see yourself everyday and it is hard to see the gradual change from one day to the next! Just wait until somebody that hasn't seen you in awhile comes up to you and says, "Ang? Is that you? My gosh, you look great! What have you been doing?" Trust me. It will happen!

[IrishIrish]

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Do yourself a favor! Follow your plan and ignore the numbers for a while. We stand on a hunk of cold metal and plastic and expect warm hugs and a pat on the back! It isn't going to happen. The cold metal scale and plastic doesn't know whether you are pre-menstrual, post-menopausal, whether you overdid the salt, whether all digestive systems are "go", whether you are drinking enough water, whether you have just reached a plateau, whether winter and fall clothes weigh more than spring or summer clothing, whether you hair is wet or dry or any number of reasons real or imagined! Let's be kind to ourselves. If your scale "talks" to you and tells you ... "You are going to have a rotten day!" or "Aren't you special? You lost a pound." ... just ignore the scale. Pick one day a month and weigh yourself. Don't look for immediate gratification in a hunk of plastic and metal. You are doing just fine!!!

[Forever_Autumn87]

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Yep, I know where you are coming from, I see myself the same as you do, and my eyes won't tell me the truth that I have truly lost weight. For me its 29 pounds now, and I still see myself as much the same and thought that I should be looking slimmer than I do, but hey! here is the part that matters! my clothes sure as **** tell me the truth as they are starting to fall of me.

Believe in it, believe in yourself, this diet works. Be proud and don't go bothering about what your eyes tell you, it takes time to realise a positive change.
SMILE AND THE WHOLE WORLD SMILES WITH YOU.

[D14965]

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Well done on your progress so far. THe problem with losing weight is that it doesnt always come off the places that we hate the most for a while. I hate my tummy and this is always the last place to disappear !!! No doubt you are dropping inches from all over your body but you are not "really seeing" it because it hasnt come off the places you want it to come off yet! Hang in there and it will happen for you.. It no doubt took you a while to put on the weight and it takes just as long to lose it!

[dreamof145]

Re: i am so pessimistic!

Wow, you had me upset just reading your post. My advice is stay off those scales. It sounds like you are jumping on and off constantly. Measure yourself every couple weeks and you'll SEE the inches that have dissolved. This was the biggest motivator for me. Listen to what everyone has said about water, menstrual cycles and fluctuations...the scale lies...the measure tape is your friend. It won't lie... Best wishes -- keep us posted on how you are doing!

[jimmyolsenblues]

Re: i am so pessimistic!

The problem is, do not FEEL 155. I know it's still "overweight" but i still FEEL 188! When i look in the mirror, i still SEE 188!

I have this exact problem.
No matter how much I lose. I feel like my fatest.
No matter how much I rollerblade, now I can do 6 miles without stopping.
I feel like my fatest.
Its like instead of me being my best coach, I am my biggest critic.
I don't acknowledge the positive. I only remember the mistakes.
But I remember what Tabekat said:

So if you cheat, be accountable, skip the guilt, and find empowerment by returning to induction with your very next bite.

And the thing that keeps me going simply is I am less hungery on atkins then in my life when I was off atkins.