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I'll be back.
Physically my body (weight wise, etc) is probably supposed to head to OWL...but mentally I'm really not ready for it. I'm not doing it right, I'm not following the rules, I'm not putting the effort in that I should be putting in so *I* can learn about *my* body - thats what this phase is all about right?? SO I can gain knowledge about how foods effect *me* and use it for the rest of my LIFE.
Since I went off induction I've been sliding on a slippery slope - not getting my veggies in, turning to nuts and frankenfoods - telling myself its because its almost that TOM and I'll get past it when thats over...the truth is I've been lazy and letting it happen - my self sabatoge mechanism kicking in - and yesterday was the last straw when I ate my low carb burger - PLUS a bag of fries :no I could say its the stress in my life right now and part of that would be true but its also true that I've got some emotional issue that as soon as I start feeling good and seeing results this self sabotage mode kicks in and I really need to work through that before I start working on the rungs. Thank God...I found out today that I got into boot camp - I'm hoping that self reflection, etc that I'm expecting to get in boot camp will help me find and vanquish these demons so I can progress in a HEALTHY way (physically and mentally).
SO....I won't be here.....but I'll be back :hug
Thanks for all the knowledge...I'll still be lurking to soak up more knowledge from all of you OWLers :hug
Physically my body (weight wise, etc) is probably supposed to head to OWL...but mentally I'm really not ready for it. I'm not doing it right, I'm not following the rules, I'm not putting the effort in that I should be putting in so *I* can learn about *my* body - thats what this phase is all about right?? SO I can gain knowledge about how foods effect *me* and use it for the rest of my LIFE.
Since I went off induction I've been sliding on a slippery slope - not getting my veggies in, turning to nuts and frankenfoods - telling myself its because its almost that TOM and I'll get past it when thats over...the truth is I've been lazy and letting it happen - my self sabatoge mechanism kicking in - and yesterday was the last straw when I ate my low carb burger - PLUS a bag of fries :no I could say its the stress in my life right now and part of that would be true but its also true that I've got some emotional issue that as soon as I start feeling good and seeing results this self sabotage mode kicks in and I really need to work through that before I start working on the rungs. Thank God...I found out today that I got into boot camp - I'm hoping that self reflection, etc that I'm expecting to get in boot camp will help me find and vanquish these demons so I can progress in a HEALTHY way (physically and mentally).
SO....I won't be here.....but I'll be back :hug
Thanks for all the knowledge...I'll still be lurking to soak up more knowledge from all of you OWLers :hug
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