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[Desihue]

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You've done a great job with Atkins...I wish you continued success.

[Hoping]

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Great job on your accomplishment

[UnlikelyAngel]

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Good work I am so proud of you. love...Mommy

[DesertRain]

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Absolutely Gorgeous. You look fantastic. Now, may I ask, when you say "falling from the horse" you meant as a figure of speech right? Metaphorically? Because I saw the picture of you and the horse and I was in complete awe and concern that you had "fallen off a horse" and were still able to continue strong. Either way, I'm glad you're okay now and looking wonderful!

[Razzle39]

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Wow, you look awesome. You are beautiful and an inspiration to me. Thanks so much for posting those pictures.

[Blue_Butterfly]

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Wow! Thanks for all the support! I didn't really Fall from the horse LOL, I meant that I have messed up, given up, cheated myself!!! In Dec I had one LOOOONNNNG cheat day LOL...I kept telling myself I will start again tomorrow. BUT tomorrow never came, it was always tomorrow, until I realised I had waisted MONTHS!!! I tried to justify myself by saying I was happy with my weight. I was at 200Lbs all that time and I hated myself for every bite I took. I knew If I could just stick to the diet, that I would have, could have been so much smaller by now.

Then I got to a point where my sister, who is a HUGE Atkins Success story, and my inspiration to lose weight, came to me and gave me that SO BADLY needed wake up call. She reminded me what I wanted and that I was not happy with my weight at 200Lbs and nore was I healthy. She reminded me that I am the only person who can change my life. That without the strength to say NO I could end up right back where I started.

It is easy to put on the weight... Taking it off is hard... and it takes work. Every single day..I have to remind myself, that I want to be thin more then I want that bite of whatever. Many people are not supportive of my diet, they are missinformed, and think it is bad...I am very lucky to have my mom and sisters as my main support...But even my partner doesnt really support my diet..he sais he does, but..then he will offer me crap I cant have....and push me...but I dont give in.

Everyone around me eats all kinds of stuff I cant have, and I have to cook for my family, healthy foods and well balanced meals, full of stuff I LOVE but can`t have...and sometimes the whole time I am cooking them all I can think is how bad I just want to have some... But I fight myself over it and remind myself that I am just hungry, and I will make something approved right after I'm done.. it gets hard. and some days, I mess up. and then I mentally punish myself..LOL.. I feel guilty and mad and disappointed in myself...

The important thing I try to remember, is that if I do mess up one day, that's fine. No one is perfect, and one mistake, can be fixed by just going back on the next day...but when one day, turns into two, three ...a week...then, I have let food win, and I have to fight hard to find the strength to get on my feet again and start over.

I will be thin one day. ALL my life, even when i was thinner, at the thinnest point of my life, I have always been `The fat sister`` the fat friend..the chubby one.... well I don't want to be that anymore...

I don`t want us to be judged by who is fatter, I dont want to be recognised because I am the fat one in the group. I want to be remembered for other things I can do. One thing that I have never forgotten is my dad telling me that although I love to sing, I wouldn`t be able to go anywhere with that because I was to fat..

I have never forgotten that...and when Canadian Idol came around and everyone wanted me to go...I didn`t...I couldn`t...because I couldn`t handle failing because of my size....I could handle failing because the next person could sing better then me...but not because i wasnt as thin as her.. I felt like again people would see my weight and not be able to look past that. So...I missed my chance... the chance I had waited for my whole life...

I have let my weight stop me from doing so many things I have wanted to do.

and I wont let myself hate myself into despair again thinking there is no hope for me. Because there is. No one is going to stand in my way or stop me...and I CAN DO THIS! This is my chance to change my life and I will do it today.

[sugarsack]

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you are soo pretty.. have you ever been told you look like Cameran Manhiem ?? great job, i hope to look that good when i am at that weight

[Blue_Butterfly]

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No actually I have never been told that. LOL, thank you

[Blue_Butterfly]

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found a couple more older pics of me...I had already lost some weight by then, so not at my biggest... I dont have many pics of me at my biggest cus I never let people take pics the LOL.






and here is a couple taken early August again

[LadyBethny]

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oh my fraking god - you look amazing! Soooooo beautiful. Well done. Gives me such hope!

I have to say I thought you were v.beautiful before Atkins - however, your face has so much more definition now - truly amazing!

[FLdoodette]

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Sarah, you have the most amazing eyes!

[Asclepius]

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Hot D@MN! You are absolutely stunning. I am so impressed and inspired.

[Blue_Butterfly]

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LOL Thank you guys... Thats very flattering. I still have a long way to go however to get to my goal. I am not happy with myself yet.

I am stuck again at 184 and wish id go down... hopefully soon.. I usually have waves of weight loss, ill have nothing for a few days then 5 will go...so hopefully thats what is up.. I am in ketosis I checked yesterday but Only a small amount of Keytones... I think it was like two shades darker then the starting color... any ideas what i can do to kickstart myself during these times?
Thanks for all the support guys!

[Bloomoon]

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Sarah~ You are an inspiration and motivation to all of us. Congrats!! Keep it up, you'll reach that goal!
I originally posted before I saw all of your pics. You look a lot younger in your more recent pics. You are beautifull. Is that your sis in the pic with you?

[Blue_Butterfly]

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Sarah~ You are an inspiration and motivation to all of us. Congrats!! Keep it up, you'll reach that goal!
I originally posted before I saw all of your pics. You look a lot younger in your more recent pics. You are beautifull. Is that your sis in the pic with you?

Thanks so much! Yes my sister kelly is in one pic the top one, and my sister Shawna (with the nose ring) is in the other. My sister Shawna is the one who got me on atkins, she has lost a LOT of weight with Atkins. She is a great success story!