The last straw

[jsj0305]

I have absolutely had it with not being dedicated. I am soooooo tired of not feeling motivated. I had so much drive the other times, but I just feel like BLAH now. I HAVE to get back in the game, otherwise I'm going to stay Blah and get bigger. I'm feeling Blah, b/c I hate the way I look, and feel. I am bloated, and pissy. There is only one way out of this, and I know what I have to do.

I have to give this 100% and just do it. I have to trust in the process, and know that I will feel a million times better in a week. I bought all my stuff and I am ready to go. Money has been such an issue lately, but I don't care what I have to do. I will eat eggs, tuna, and salad until I'm 50 if I have to. I know what I have to do, it just REALLY helps to jot it down and have feedback.

I love you guys. Thanks for letting me piss and moan.

[cleochatra]

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Well, I know I've always loved your humor.

Oh, wait. You said "pissy", not "pithy".

I am bloated, and pissy.

[Chris]

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Hey, piss and moan all you want -- if that's what it takes to get you on track and motivated. It's sounds like you're pretty down on yourself, and that just ain't gonna work. You really are a special person, you know, and you've got to realize that -- realize that you are so special that you just have to do something great for you. And there's nothing nicer you could do than give yourself the gift of a healthy, happy body, and all the fulfillment and sheer joy of life that goes with it.

Sure you can do this. You know you can, because you know that you are WORTH doing it! Here's wishing you much -- so much -- success!

[wannabethintoo]

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Of course you can this! Weren't you the one who graduated with honors from boot camp? Eh?

[PrinceJeff]

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I know how you feel, jsj. Maybe next payday, I am busting butt to do this myself. I am 25 and almost 320 lbs and refuse to die at 45 from a stroke like my father did. Will I have to give up stuff I love like burritos and french fries? Yeah, but life is bigger than that stuff ya know?

[jsj0305]

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(((((Chris))))) Thank you so much, you surly made me smile!! I am hard on myself. When I do something, I either do it or I don't. I'll give it 100% or none at all. I know I can't do that b/c I will have days where I am struggling and I have to accept that and keep pushing.

(((((Cleo))))) You always make me laugh. I love ya!

(((((Wanna))))) Yes I was. It was b/c I felt motivated, so I gave it my all.
When I couldn't keep going like that, I fell off b/c I felt like a failure.

(((((PrinceJeff))))) You're right, life is bigger than that....and I'm tired of being larger than life! Life is about running around with my son, w/ out being short of breath, about enjoying it all. Don't wait, do it today. I am BROKE, and I am going to make this work. I know I can. It will be gross having not much variety, but I eat to live, not live to eay, ya know?

I hate feeling like a failure. I have to change it. I have to look at it like I am going to get through today, even if it's hard. Even if I have cravings, I will make it through, and then at the end of the day, I know that I have succeeded. I don't have to do it with the best attitude every single day, I just have to get through.

Thanks for the advise everyone, it is very much appreciated and I love you guys for it.

[wannabethintoo]

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I understand exactly what you mean about doing it 100% or nothing at all. That's how I am...or was. I now realize that as long as I'm TRYING to do it 100% then I am being successful. I still have bad days and good days but as long as I never give up and keep trying 100% then everything is ok. Never give up 'cause one day you will reach your goal. And join us in the vidiots challenge. That will keep you motivated and when you're working out you're more likely to stay on this WOE.

[jsj0305]

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I definately am joining you over there!!!! I have to get this weight off, and it's not going to come off by itself. Today is a fresh new day and I will succeed!!!!

[Brook]

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(((((jsj)))))

Progress, not perfectionism, is what it's gonna take to be successful.

You know we've got your back and are cheering you on all the way!

[wannabethintoo]

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I definately am joining you over there!!!! I have to get this weight off, and it's not going to come off by itself. Today is a fresh new day and I will succeed!!!!

Woo hoo! Another Vidiot! Misery loves company.....I mean....we love working out with Debbie.

[jsj0305]

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Jeeez, thanks guys!!! Of course, I messed up BIG time. I am so unprepaired. I just realized I let my tuna, my water, and my Si6 in my car!!!!!! Wouldn't have been a big deal if my hubby hadn't taken my car!!! I know myself and I have to be prepaired, otherwise I do TERRIBLE. Anyhow, I am getting a little bit of money so I can get some more foods! YEAH! I think I may start Monday when I can overload on my water, and have variety, that way I don't come off. I know myself and I do it every single time. Plus hubby will be home tomorrow and the weekend, and I don't want to work out in front of him.

ARRRRRRRR. That's okay, by the time Monday rolls around, I'll be soooo ready to start, It'll be great. I'll be sooooooo sick of food and just want to eat my eggies.

If it's not one thing it's another, right??

[Chris]

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Plus hubby will be home tomorrow and the weekend, and I don't want to work out in front of him.

So, what will you do in the future when he's home? Skip your exercise for the day? Remember, exercise takes many forms -- including brisk walking (yes, even in winter!).

Why does everyone think that a weightloss program has to begin on Monday? When it finally hit me that I HAD to get back on the program, it was already Monday night, so I started the next morning. That's why my weigh day is on Tuesday. I did the best I could with what I had until I could get to the store.

You have to do what is right for you, and if you really think you need until Monday to prepare yourself, then do so; but the way I see it, the sooner we start doing the right thing for ourselves, the better. This WOE is not torture -- anything but! I say, if you're ready to do something good for yourself, start now. Even if it means having to walk, however far, to the store to get what you need.

If it's not one thing it's another, right??

There will always be excuses for not eating the right foods, not exercising, or postponing until the future what we really should be doing now. They're only that, excuses, not reasons.

I'm sorry if the above words seem a bit harsh. Rest assured, I only say them because I honestly, TRULY, want to see you succeed, and become that thin, healthy person you're so longing to be!

Whatever you decide, I sincerely wish you success.

[jsj0305]

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They aren't harsh at all!!! You just seem like you care!!!!

I have tried to work with what I have, but it doesn't work for me. If I don't have everything together, I will fall, hard. I always do. The cravings kick in and then I have nothing to help myself, and I cave.

I hope you understand that I'm not trying to make excuses. I'm just telling the truth. I AM terrified to exercise infront of my hubby. I don't want to be laughed at. I don't mind being a closet exerciser for now, but it does make things more difficult. I hope one day I can feel confident enough about myself to jump around the house, with him right there, but for now, I have to do it this way. I have to build my self confidence up first.

I did however want to go for a walk. The sun is out and it looks so pretty, but an 8 month old in 22 degree weather don't mix well!! That and the nearest store is 20 miles away...I live in Maryland...Joey would have been pissed!

I actually HATE starting on Mondays for some reason. Ever other time I started it was on a Thursday or Friday. I do better with the challange of the weekend right there.

I DO make excuses..I don't have a lot of cheese, so I'll have a cookie...that was my favorite....I know, it doesn't make ANY sence! I just need to be prepaired so that I can't make any excuses.

Thank you so much for talking with me. You have helped me tremendously!!! I do hope I can succeed. I DO desire to be thin and healthy....and I know that I can do it with all of the motivation and encouragement you have given me!! XoXo

Love ya!! Stephanie

[Chris]

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Okay, Stephanie, we'll start on Monday. BUT, I want to hear that you're totally prepared, and have everything you need to deal with any cravings that may pop up. I may not be around for a few days next week (I'll probably be arguing with the hospital staff as to why I will NOT eat the cornflakes and toast, or the mashed potatoes and sugar sweetened Jello), but, as soon as I return, I hope to see some posts from you boasting about how motivated you are and how well you're doing!

As to the exercising in front of hubby (and yes, I'll admit, 20 miles is a bit far to go in this weather with an infant) do remember to look for other forms of exercise than the calesthenic type in front of the tv. Hey, if he's home, he can watch the baby while you go for that walk, right?

Where there's a will, there's a way -- and it looks like you have the will!



One more thing:

I do hope I can succeed.

You don't have to hope -- you CAN succeed!

[cleochatra]

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Where there's a will, there's a way -- and it looks like you have the will!



One more thing:



Quote:
I do hope I can succeed.

You don't have to hope -- you CAN succeed!

I'm betting on Will.

Hope rarely wins.