I let myself down

[ladyinred]

I was watching the Biggest Loser last night and this is what one of the men said when he found out how much he weighed at the beginning of the show. He was crying and said he felt like he'd let himself down, his whole life he'd let himself down.

Which made me think. I think for the most part I've been a good wife and mom. I'm a good friend. I'd do anything for the people I love. I listen and try to help. I offer advice when it's asked for and comfort when it's not. And everyone in my universe is so good to me. They do for me what I do for them. The only person in my world who is mean to me, who doesn't respect me, who isn't kind and who treats me with such blatant disregard for my health and happiness....is me.

How many times have I put myself in the path of temptation? How many times have I deliberately endangered myself? I would go out of my way to pass the bakery - and not pass it without going inside first. How many times did I find excuses to run into the convenience store. I could have made better choices at parties and restaurants. I am my own worst enemy. If I heard of someone being treated like this by someone who supposedly loved them I would be furious on their behalf. I would want to smack that mean person.

Well, that mean person was me. I say was because from today onwards I will try very hard to be as good a person to myself as I am to others. I will be kinder. I will treat myself with respect. I will stay away from things that threaten my woe. Starting today I will be my own best friend.

Everyone here is so wonderful. I hope you all are, or will be, your own best friend too.

[Rick]

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I watched that show last night too. Can't you just feel what they felt like when they got off the scales after those two weeks!!! To see that one guy lose 30 lbs was awesome! Of course they have their own personal trainers and tons of exercise equipment, and they are in that environment 24/7, but still, it was incredible!

And, I know what you mean, I've been my own worst enemy too. Too many chips, even though I knew they were bad for me, too much beer...(every friday night with friends), no exercise...yada yada yada...

But, for the last 13 days while on Induction I've been my best friend too, and that makes me feel good.

So, I hear where you're coming from!

Rick

[Gknight]

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Ive been there too and to be honest I have piccys of my grandbabies on my fridge to stop me from cheating! (They are 3 and 4 years old) Ive made the be nicer to me pledge too, after sitting on the couch after xmas dinner I went to go upstairs and I collapsed spent the nest 6 hours in ER with a nurse preaching to me on the dangers of being fat! sad part is I knew she was right that all the pains in my legs,chest and arms will go away if I lose this weight only I can heal myself but its so hard doing the things I know should be done. My husband and my daughter are now behind me which is great in itsself but like you red I promise I will take care of myself, Thank you for sharing this with us it makes me feel not so alone knowing im not the only one who does things like this.

[FLLOWCARBER]

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Very well said LadyinRed...it really hit home, why do we treat ourselves worse that we would our child, husband, friend...

I am going to remember your words the next time I feel "like having something that is not on this WOL"

Thank you and Good Luck

[Moochiecat]

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Ladyinred...what an awesome post!
And how true it is that if we saw someone treating a friend of ours that way, we'd be just livid, wouldn't we?

Isn't it amazing what you learn about yourself when you deal with all your emotional attachments to food? It just blows me away.

[2big4mysize]

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great post and we can all use that mean bigger person as a motivation to not allow them back in control of our bodies. run ADBBers run toward goal and flee the meanie.

[wannabethintoo]

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Great post Lady.

[Jasmain]

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Lady, you are beautiful and wonderful, just thought I'd mention that I really think you are GREAT.

[ladyinred]

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Thanks Jas. I think you're great too. Thanks everyone for responding to my post. Everyone here is so nice to everyone. I just wanted to remind people (and myself) that we should treat ourselves as well as we treat each other. And starting today we will, right?

[californiacasey]

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You're right. I think a lot of us don't spend enough time and attention on ourselves and let ourselves down before we would let someone else down.

I watched a few episodes of that show and it is pretty inspiring, and I read that they each spend hours a day exercising!!! Hours! I spend 1-2 hours tops, but I'm imagining that they spend like 4 hours exercising!

If I had that much time to devote to exercise, I wonder where I would be?

I actually downloaded TBL application and started filling it out....I would love to have a few months to devote to a healthier me!!!!! And a chance at winning $

BUT I didn't send it in, and do you want to know why......this is embarrassing to admit, but I didn't want people who I hadn't seen in a long time to know how heavy I've gotten. Isn't that sad?

Anyway, I'm doing my own "Biggest Loser" and I'm doing a pretty good job! : )

[biogeek]

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Loved your post, Lady! I can really relate to what you wrote. Seems like we are always quick to please those we love, but not give any back to ourselves. I will add this to my rules of living!

[kkat55]

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This is an excellent post! It really hits home how we treat everyone else better than we treat ourselves.

I am going to try and keep this in mind as I go through Induction.

Thanks for sharing a part of yourself with all of us!!

[Roshen]

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you are so right with your post Lady....
it made me think and that's always a good thing. Thank you!!

[presidentholmes]

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Well done and well said my lovely.
If you don't love yourself it's harder for someone else to love you.
We're only here once and life isn't a rehearsal, so love yourself, and love your body, the most unique, beautiful and wondrous thing that you own.

[G-Mom]

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This is so true! We need to remember that we are trying to improve our appearance but should never neglect our emotions because they are tied to food (for most of us anyway) and our general well-being.

Hug yourself, Lady, you are awesome!