Irrational Fears

[Yoly1001]

A lot of these have been coming up for me lately. The one that I am dealing with right now, is that someone is going to wake me up and tell me that it is impossible, that I can't lose weight this way, in fact that I haven't lost anything at all, and then I look down and I'm still 240.

It is a horrible thing, everytime I start thinking about it I get scared inside. I know it is irrational, that this isn't just some wonderful dream that I'm having but still it is scary.

Maybe it's also because I am releasing the toxins stored in my fat cells at a very fast rate lately. I beleive that our cells can store memeories, body memories that maybe our mind doesn't remember. Well my cells remember and as I am getting rid of the fat I know the feelings are going with them and so lately I am having intense fear. I hate it!

Does anyone else have something like this?

[floydgirl]

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Yes, I have feelings like this too! I also know it is an irrational fear.

Just because our bodies are morphing into lean, mean fat-burning machines, sometimes we still have those "fat goggles" on. We still are the same person inside, but our bodies change so fast. Its difficult to realize that even though we feel the same inside, our bodies are shrinking and we look differently.

Yoly, have you ever looked in the mirror and can't believe its you staring back? Sometimes I'm surprised when I see my reflection. Sometimes I expect to see the "old me" staring back.

Yoly, you have done so well and I am so very proud of you. You know what to do, you've been doing it and you are so successful.

[Yoly1001]

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Thanks FG, you have done so great too, you are beautiful!

I have had those moments, it's pretty scary. Losing weight affects every aspect of your life, how you see yourself, how others see you. It's even got me questioning my relationship. At times I love the thinner me and then at others I hate it. I wish things could be as simple as they were when I was fat. But I guess that is the mission and purpose of life. We struggle, we learn, and develop into the people that God wants us to be, that's what challenges are all about. By the way, I hate personal growth!

[divaindubai]

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That is interesting how you worded it Yoly. I never thought about the toxins that are being released along with the depletion of fat cells into your bloodstream, etc...

I think it does make sense what you were saying... but I had never really thought of it like that!

[2big4mysize]

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mine aren't like yours exactly. mine is that that 300+ pounder will take control of my eating again and make me back into her.

[californiacasey]

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Wow Yoly what an interesting way to think about this....that our bodies hold memories (and not just out minds) I know some people feel a strange blast TO the past-kindof feeling when they get back down to certain weights (the weight they were in highschool, the weight they were when they married, etc, etc)

So your body is currently re-visiting old memories as you shed that weight....well you've lost 68 lbs and YOU can lose the rest of it.

Enjoy your "morphing" process, whatever form it takes, you are doing great!!!

[iyamamaschke]

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Every Single Day I fear waking up and being fat again. I feat losing control. That is a huge one for me if I lose control will I be able to pick myself back up and do it again. I don't wanna be a statistic I wanna do it all the way. That's another reason why I just can't chance one thing it scares me to Death if I have say one Bite I will fall off and lose everything I ahve been working so hard for.

I totally Belive in you Yoly, this is not a dream you, are doing amazing, you are changing your life, you are special, you are wonderful, and yes you are scared but, you know that's why I am here and so is everyone elese to help support you through your fears to hold your hand and to get you through. The only one that will sabotage you is you so you just keep with it and all this is yours FOREVER.

You are amazing and I Love you girl.

(((HUGS)))

Sarah

[Yoly1001]

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thanks you sarah, i got tears in my eyes reading your post. It's nice to know that I have people who believe in me. (hugs)

I love you too, you are a wonderful friend. I am so lucky to have found you and that you are a part of my life. I treasure our bond.

[Unleashed]

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Yoly,

That is your temptation-riddled subconscious trying to talk you back into your old WOE. Ignore such negativity, and keep on keeping on!

[dreamof145]

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I think we all suffer from fears like this or similar. I believe it is from being told so much as we grew up that we can't do this or that. What I've learned is that we definitely won't know if we can do something if we don't try. And...the people who succeed in life keep trying regardless of how many people tell them something won't work.

I'm sure the changes in our body chemistry has a lot to do with our anxiety levels. The secret is to keep going and believe in yourself. You are doing great and will succeed. You've already lost over 60 pounds, so you are definitely a winner and achiever. Best wishes!!!