I need help

[elke1007]

Hi,

I've been a member of this forum for ages , yet I have never been able to stick to the atkins wol for more than 3 days straight.
All this time I have received great tips and lots of support to choose a healthier lifestyle , yet I keep sabotaging my health and , well , my sanity.
It's about time that I allow you guys to know who I am and where I come from, maybe than you will understand better why sticking with this woe and wol is so d*mn hard for me.
I'm 27 now and have been chubby all my life. That changed when I was 21 , which was the year my granddad died. We had a really great band and losing him felt like I was dying myself. I compensated the loss by eating , all the time and everything in sight. It was then that I learned about the atkins plan and decided to try it. Even though I did read the book , I must have done something wrong back then as I got really sick after just 2 days and my doctor made me eat carbs again.
I kept putting weight on untill I weighed about 220lbs at age 23. That was the year my best friend had gastric bypass surgery. At 5'2 she weighed over 250lbs and no matter how big I was , she was allways bigger still. It is hard to admit this , but I hated it when she started losing weight. Part of me was really happy for her , but I had never felt more insecure about myself. It was then that I realised I had to change what I was doing. I became a vegan and started excersising like crazy. The pounds fell off and one year later , I had managed to reduce my weight to 168lbs. But I was stuck at that weight and I wanted to get down to 122lbs.
It was then that one of my co-workers told me to buy a bottle of stacker pills. I did the next evening and started taking them one day later , October 3rd 2003. I stopped eating all together and lived on meal replacement bars for every meal. In January 2004 I weighed myself at the gym and wearing clothes and shoes , my weight was 132lbs.
But this was also the time my problems really began. At one time I took an overdose of stacker pills (the recommended dosage had no effect on me anymore) that I had to throw up 9 times in three hours time. That was the moment that I knew I was killing myself. Luckily for me , stacker pills became illegal here in Europe ,so the ephedra based type is no longer available.
But I'm still a wreck. My weight is up to 155lbs , which is not dramatic as I'm 5'8, but it is higher than it should be for my very skinny frame. Every day I tell myself that I will start atkins , so that I can be healthy and lose the extra pounds that I have put on. But I can't. I want to but it seems like I really can not stick to it. Two days ago I ordered 3 bottles of the new stacker varieties and yesterday and today I have been taking zantrex 3 capsules.
In the past i have lost weight with the pills and meal replacements and it has convinced me that that is the only way that I can be the weight I want to be.
But I want to be healthy! I've been looking around and in my area there is no medical support to be found for the atkins wol , so you guys are the only ones I can turn to. I'm going on holiday June 25th and I would love to lose 10lbs before that time , but I don't know if that is possible. I want to break the cirlce of starvation , followed by binging.

I hope someone out there can help me

[omnimomma]

Re: I need help

Oh, Elle, I feel for you. I just want to reach out and give you a You came to the right place to get the support you need.

I've always been afraid of the pills of any kind. My doctor put me on Xenical for awhile, but I didn't stay on them very long. Healthy eating is so much better for you. Please throw the pills away.

Please stop comparing yourself to others. Remember, you are a child of God, and He loves you very much.

I was reading DANDR last night and it said in my version, page 190, "If you've looked through all the suggestions (in chapter 15) I've just offered and found precious few clues to explain why yur weight loss efforts are stalled, you may indeed be on a plateau. If you've been on many diets in your lifetime, you may be surprised to discover that you've plateaued at the same point in the past. These are the weights at which your body naturally starts to resist weight loss. It may be that your perception of what you shoudl weigh is inappropriate and unhealthy. It's unlikely that at 45 you can be quite as slim as you were at 18. It may be that if you are unable to love, it's because you are already where you should be."

According to fitday (www.fitday.com ), and according to Dr. Atkins' BMI index chart, your height and weight fall at a BMI of 24 (a very good number) you are a healthy weight for your height, so enjoy it. You are so worth enjoying life the way God made you. Sticking to the Atkins plan will keep you at a heathy weight for life.

I'll be praying for you, and would like to stay in touch.

[Iamscandalouslyglam]

Re: I need help

First off, I lost 10 pounds in my first two weeks. Some have a resistance, you might due to the heavy dieting you've done.

IMHO you should find a therapist to help you on your journey too or What about a DIETBUDDY. Someone IMPARTIAL who won't sabotage you, Listens and encourages.

I have found having a person to talk to...about my feelings about my body, eating and Cravings is a HUGE HELP!! My General Dr. was no help what-so-ever, ATKINS, is a NO NO. She handed me the American Diabetes Reccomended diet. Umm...thanks.


And sweetie, You have had such EXTREME dieting styles...I find it amazing you cannot stick to Atkins!! To eat only MR bars is far harder and yuckier than even eating on the induction level. I eat yummy quiches, steak tips, cesar salads w/Grilled Chicken, Cream Cheese, String Cheese, Pepperoni, Chicken and Tuna and Egg Salads, Shrimp w/butter...I could go on and on...that is MUCH more palatable then Bars.


Anyways...Atkins is FOREVER. That was scary to me at first. Now it's comforting. I hope you consider Induction.