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So.. It's like, 11:35 and I can't sleep. I'm stressed out since I'm interviewing for an internal position within our company in the regulatory department instead of clinical so I know I shouldn't be stressed, I don't dislike where I am, it's just a better opportunity, more money, more chance for advancement, everything like that. I've already left BF a message on his answering machine (no, he's not out sleeping with someone else, he works overnight) but I won't hear his voice 'til tomorrow, so I have like, at least 7 hours by myself to be stressed. I quit smoking 2 weeks ago. I quit weighing myself about a week ago. My clothes aren't even color coded hanging up this week since I didn't have the energy. I don't have a car since mine broke down and I refuse to spend more money getting it fixed so now I'm looking for a new one (donations of cash will be accepted). I'm sick of dealing with everyone else's relationship baggage (people in non-relationships who want them to be relationships so they're whining about the situation). Anyway, so I get to thinking about my day. I've officially decided that I'm sick of people who think that they're helping themselves by doing whatever "diet" is soooooo great, then looking to me for approval on it. This happens frequently. The latest story goes like this:
I go into the kitchen at work looking for coffee and water. I'm confronted by Cindy Lou Who (no, that's not her real last name). She's holding a bag of cheetos from the vending machine. She goes to me about how she started walking, like, totally out of the blue, the first words out of her mouth. How does a person respond to that? Gee, glad your legs are working, didn't know they were broken?! Then I realize, she's talking about walking for exercise, with someone in her department, at lunch, around the business center we work at. Ok, great. Then goes on and is talking about how she needs to lose all this weight and this and that and the other thing. So I give my standard response of how she should come over to the gym and do cardio there with me sometime (it's my usual motivational speech for people I'm not really close to). So she says to me, yeah, maybe I'll do that sometime when it's raining out so we can't go walking that day, it'd be a good change. I think to myself, hey, it's been raining all day today. WTF? So, the entire time we've been talking she's been trying to hide the bag of cheetos from me... then she sneaks out. Whatever, if you're going to cheat yourself and do whatever, I don't need to know, don't need it justified, I'm not going to tell you it's ok.
Now we move on to my friend Nancy. I use friend as a very loose term these days. Nancy is about 5'8" and was a size 8 last year after doing weight watchers. If you judge things, that's pretty close to Barbie, especially since she has the peroxide blonde hair, so even at 40 she looks pretty ok. She's apparently not been paying attention to her eating either. She used to come to the gym and work out with us (me and my friend Rich - not used as a loose term) except we do weights and she thought she'd look better if she focused on the scale, not inches, so she did, she got smaller, we didn't notice an improvement though. Anyway. So she wears the same size clothing as she did last year. The problem with this is that she's not the same size. There are some things you can get away with, some things you shouldn't be allowed to leave your house wearing... especially into a business world. So she goes on about how she needs to lose weight and she's letting herself go and all this stuff, and she's waiting for the whole "you look so great you don't need to lose any weight" response, which honestly, isn't what I'm going to give, she's putting on weight, I won't lie to her. And then she goes and eats pizza and cookies and potato chips and is justifying it by saying that she's going to start WW next week so she needs to get it all in now. LIKE I CARE, LIKE YOU NEED TO JUSTIFY YOURSELF TO ME, people just do not understand that they're hurting themselves, not me, when they're doing this.
I'm swearing off people like this. People who know how you lose weight, they know you cut carbs, they can see it works, they've commented on it working, yet when it comes to them, they don't understand it could work for them too... but when it comes to approval, they go looking to the neurotic queen of the gym who exercises for 2 hours a day and is scared of starch. I think these people are looking at it like I do nothing, and it just happens so they want me to say they can do nothing and majickally lose weight.
Does anybody else have this issue or is it just me? It can't possibly just be me, right?
I'm sorry this is so long, it probably wouldn't be if I wasn't so freaked about everything going on, but I am, so I'm sorry. I understand that people need support, why do you think I come on this board? But when you constantly do things you know aren't going to help you, isn't there a limit to it?
I go into the kitchen at work looking for coffee and water. I'm confronted by Cindy Lou Who (no, that's not her real last name). She's holding a bag of cheetos from the vending machine. She goes to me about how she started walking, like, totally out of the blue, the first words out of her mouth. How does a person respond to that? Gee, glad your legs are working, didn't know they were broken?! Then I realize, she's talking about walking for exercise, with someone in her department, at lunch, around the business center we work at. Ok, great. Then goes on and is talking about how she needs to lose all this weight and this and that and the other thing. So I give my standard response of how she should come over to the gym and do cardio there with me sometime (it's my usual motivational speech for people I'm not really close to). So she says to me, yeah, maybe I'll do that sometime when it's raining out so we can't go walking that day, it'd be a good change. I think to myself, hey, it's been raining all day today. WTF? So, the entire time we've been talking she's been trying to hide the bag of cheetos from me... then she sneaks out. Whatever, if you're going to cheat yourself and do whatever, I don't need to know, don't need it justified, I'm not going to tell you it's ok.
Now we move on to my friend Nancy. I use friend as a very loose term these days. Nancy is about 5'8" and was a size 8 last year after doing weight watchers. If you judge things, that's pretty close to Barbie, especially since she has the peroxide blonde hair, so even at 40 she looks pretty ok. She's apparently not been paying attention to her eating either. She used to come to the gym and work out with us (me and my friend Rich - not used as a loose term) except we do weights and she thought she'd look better if she focused on the scale, not inches, so she did, she got smaller, we didn't notice an improvement though. Anyway. So she wears the same size clothing as she did last year. The problem with this is that she's not the same size. There are some things you can get away with, some things you shouldn't be allowed to leave your house wearing... especially into a business world. So she goes on about how she needs to lose weight and she's letting herself go and all this stuff, and she's waiting for the whole "you look so great you don't need to lose any weight" response, which honestly, isn't what I'm going to give, she's putting on weight, I won't lie to her. And then she goes and eats pizza and cookies and potato chips and is justifying it by saying that she's going to start WW next week so she needs to get it all in now. LIKE I CARE, LIKE YOU NEED TO JUSTIFY YOURSELF TO ME, people just do not understand that they're hurting themselves, not me, when they're doing this.
I'm swearing off people like this. People who know how you lose weight, they know you cut carbs, they can see it works, they've commented on it working, yet when it comes to them, they don't understand it could work for them too... but when it comes to approval, they go looking to the neurotic queen of the gym who exercises for 2 hours a day and is scared of starch. I think these people are looking at it like I do nothing, and it just happens so they want me to say they can do nothing and majickally lose weight.
Does anybody else have this issue or is it just me? It can't possibly just be me, right?
I'm sorry this is so long, it probably wouldn't be if I wasn't so freaked about everything going on, but I am, so I'm sorry. I understand that people need support, why do you think I come on this board? But when you constantly do things you know aren't going to help you, isn't there a limit to it?
I have never understood that mentality. One of my family members used to work out with her friend...then right after every workout they'd go and have a banana split sundae 
She said they "earned" it. 
(look hurt)
...Was in HEAVEN -got to 150, for awhile, then got too busy, and gave in too much... and... OK holding pattern "keep it together..." 
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