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    I screwed up.

    I guess I'm feeling the need to confess as part of atonement for what I've done to myself. You could also say it is part of my healing process because I've really let myself down. This entire week, since last Sunday I cheated. I've been doing so well and I was only 3.5lbs from goal and I've cheated an entire week. I've gained 5.5lbs. I'm really disappointed and I feel like crap.

    It feels really good to get this off of my chest. I need a fresh start. I'm starting induction tomorrow, yeah, after over a year of doing well I'm starting over.
    Female 5'4" 26yrs
    SW 164.5/CW 152.5/GW 120
    Lowest weight: 123 (2006)
    MG 1: 150 MG 2: 140 MG 3: 135
    12 lbs lost!


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  • #2
    Re: I screwed up.

    welcome back to Atkins. remember to put the Ws in your food journl the who what when where why and How you felt before during and after eating and again an hour later so you can see if you got a triggerring food event or person in your life and you can take steps to avoid it in the future.

    happy low carbing.
    by the book atkinseer

    started 6/1/02 at 313
    goalie 5/04 at 167 with under 15% body fat ADBB Presidents exercise Challenge


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    • #3
      Re: I screwed up.

      Congrats on calling it quits and jumping back on the wagon. Just think of it this way - at least it's not a year and 35 pounds down the road.
      27/f/5'10"
      HW - 312, LW - 172 (Jul 2007), CW - 205, GW - 160

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      • #4
        Re: I screwed up.

        Good for you for jumping back on the wagon.
        Try to see why you fell by the wayside, so you can avoid the same pitfalls in the future.
        We're here for you. You can do this!
        Before and after:






        PLEDGING FLIGHTS
        Completed: 1st set of buildings and mountains (Everest,M.Blanc & Kilimanjaro, twice); Tower Masts & Chimneys; More virtual buildings; Challenger's Choice x 2 (volcanos and mountains on Mars). Currently climbing: Mount Snowdon again: 416/475

        Start 10 Jan 2005. Maintenance since Aug. 2005.
        F/56yrs/5'.4"
        SW:77.7 LW:56.5 CW:60.1 (kilos)

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        • #5
          Re: I screwed up.

          Thanks for the support everyone. I guess I'm going through a difficult time right now. I'm just going to have to be more careful because I can't medicate myself with food any longer. Food cannot be my enemy or my friend, it's just not that important.

          I fell off in a number of ways, not just in terms of food. I stopped writing in my journal and I stopped tallying my carb intake. I let everything slide.

          On the brightside, it feels good to be back on track! I don't post much but I love this board.
          Female 5'4" 26yrs
          SW 164.5/CW 152.5/GW 120
          Lowest weight: 123 (2006)
          MG 1: 150 MG 2: 140 MG 3: 135
          12 lbs lost!


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          • #6
            Re: I screwed up.

            Little update: after going back on induction yesterday, I dropped 2lbs of the 5.5lbs I had gained. Yippee!
            Female 5'4" 26yrs
            SW 164.5/CW 152.5/GW 120
            Lowest weight: 123 (2006)
            MG 1: 150 MG 2: 140 MG 3: 135
            12 lbs lost!


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            • #7
              Re: I screwed up.

              Great news!!!! That's awesome!!
              27/f/5'10"
              HW - 312, LW - 172 (Jul 2007), CW - 205, GW - 160

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              • #8
                Re: I screwed up.

                Hi Fatalblue - Maybe this is too philosophical, but you are so close to goal - and then you sabotaged yourself. I have done this to myself before too (not just in losing weight, but in school, in a project for work that is 'almost' completed, etc.). I'm not sure of the psychology behind it - but maybe something about the finishing, leaving it behind and moving on. Sometimes I have to grit my teeth to do the last 1 % of a project to get it complete. For me, I think this has to do with enjoying being in the middle of something that is familiar versus moving on to something new and unknown. (or having to make new goals, new objectives, etc.) Being in the rhythm gets to be easy - and it takes supreme effort (at least on my part) to start up a new project, set a new goal, find a new way of training/working/eating, etc.

                So for what its worth - maybe that is the 'reason' behind your sabotage - in which case (again, at least for me) that means once I get my mind around the next goal, write down how/why/where/or whatever I am going to do the next item, then it is easier (not easy though) to move on to complete the final 1%.

                Hope that helps!

                Kacey

                F/40/5'2"
                Start: 7/24/06


                Current: Lost 49.25 pounds & 49.4 inches
                For weekly stats: http://www.atkinsdietbulletinboard.c...ad.php?t=38056
                Mini Goal: 90 kg/198 lbs <= MET Wk 13 - Oct 23
                Mini Goal2: 83 kg/182 lbs<= MET Wk 19 - Dec 30
                Mini Goal3: 75 kg/165 lbs (drivers license weight from YEARS ago!)
                Long Term Goal: 20% body fat! THEN I've made it!

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                • #9
                  Re: I screwed up.

                  Great news about the quick drop of the temporary weight... The body is a wonderful thing sometimes as it wants to get back to weight it was. Keep up the great work, and you'll have the other pounds soon gone as well.
                  Kent - 35-M-6'4"
                  HW 429/SW 411/CW 229/GW 225
                  Started 3-31-04 - 211 Total pounds down (was 21

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                  • #10
                    Re: I screwed up.

                    Originally posted by kacey1
                    Hi Fatalblue - Maybe this is too philosophical, but you are so close to goal - and then you sabotaged yourself.
                    So for what its worth - maybe that is the 'reason' behind your sabotage - in which case (again, at least for me) that means once I get my mind around the next goal, write down how/why/where/or whatever I am going to do the next item, then it is easier (not easy though) to move on to complete the final 1%.
                    I couldn't agree more Kacey. Although I really want to reach goal, it is scary. I was getting very comfortable in pre-maintenance and I've been having doubts about my goal. I found out the other week that I am actually shorter than I thought I was and began considering a lower goal weight.

                    I think we do tend to sabotage ourselves at the most inopportune times and when we are not sure what we want. I never really thought of it until you brought it up. Makes sense.
                    Female 5'4" 26yrs
                    SW 164.5/CW 152.5/GW 120
                    Lowest weight: 123 (2006)
                    MG 1: 150 MG 2: 140 MG 3: 135
                    12 lbs lost!


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                    • #11
                      Re: I screwed up.

                      Originally posted by Kent
                      Great news about the quick drop of the temporary weight... The body is a wonderful thing sometimes as it wants to get back to weight it was. Keep up the great work, and you'll have the other pounds soon gone as well.
                      Thanks Kent! At the very least, I'm glad that I didn't fall off for long! It feels good to be back.
                      Female 5'4" 26yrs
                      SW 164.5/CW 152.5/GW 120
                      Lowest weight: 123 (2006)
                      MG 1: 150 MG 2: 140 MG 3: 135
                      12 lbs lost!


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                      • #12
                        Re: I screwed up.

                        Hey FatalBlue,
                        I think it's great that you were honest with yourself and instead of making things worse you decided to make things better. Instead of a week of cheating it could of been a month. You are still in control and your goal will be met, just don't be to hard on yourself and start with a clean slate.
                        Good Luck!
                        Sincerely,
                        DeeLite

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