here is the truth... ( I need to confess)

[dimar97]

I have really been struggling with a realization that I am not so proud of. I have been following this woe for 2 months now – made marginal progress and complained a lot along the way. I admit it. Some days are better than others in terms of my dedication, optimism and belief that I can even make this work for myself. But here is the truth. I have not tried – 100% - at all. I gave up diet pop – except for the 2 or 3 I “treat” myself to each week. I gave up coffee – except for the 2 or 3 (or 3 or 4) that I have each week (with two cream 2 Splenda). Mind you, it’s a LOT less diet pop and coffee than I used to drink but none the less, I can’t say I’ve GIVEN IT UP if I am still drinking it! I am drinking alot more water (I probably drink about 67 ozs. now) and I did actually give up the Crystal Light and Water Sensations - that much I did accomplish. But I’ve been drinking Michaleob Ultras or cocktails made with diet pop right from the start. I don’t keep a food diary, I guess-timate. I have even been known to eat a chocolate Atkins bar (technically I buy them for my DH as nothing “forbidden” seems to halt his progress but I often find myself eating one on the way home from the grocery store…) I’ve also been known to eat my natural peanut butter out of the jar with no concern for portion control. I convinced myself that I was doing everything that was suggested on this forum but I was only doing it half-way. This weekend I had a big birthday party for my daughter and was good during the party (if you aren’t counting the Michaleob Ultras) - no cake, no chips or pizza but later that night when everyone had left I dove head first in to a chocolate mocha cheesecake my friend had brought over. It was fabulous and I did not feel sick afterwards – I actually contemplated eating another piece but I fell asleep! The next morning I gave it to my neighbor and felt virtuous. But then I HAD to taste the left over birthday cake – the one I was so good about NOT eating the day before – just to be sure I didn’t want it (nice logic, huh?). Well, it wasn’t that good and really I didn’t want it but now I have a lot of sugar in my system and I am a mess. I never cheated like this before - so blatantly - but all my little cheats certainly must add up... So I decided last night (after eating a chocolate Atkins bar bc my sugar cravings are so out of control again) that I will give it another go – and this time it will be PURE. No pop, no coffee (God help me) no alcohol, no peanut butter or Atkins bars – certainly no real sugar - for two weeks. I can do anything for two weeks, right? Let’s see what happens. I'm putting it out there so that it is real! Wish me luck. (I'll be back on the 26th!)

[Alexa]

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Hey Dimar,

Well done for be honest with us and above all for being honest with yourself. That is a massive step towards rectifying things.

It sounds like you have identified your problem and got yourself a plan, so I wouldn't advise much except to say stick with it! If you slip this time, it doesn't mean you shouldn't try again.

The 2 week time frame is a great idea - I've done the same with my austere month - it'll probably be longer than a month but I know I can make it at least that far!

Good luck and let us know how it goes

[PaulaMM]

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As they say, confession is good for the soul.

You can do this, I know you can and YOU know you can. Think of it this way: how good for you can something be if it gives you withdrawals when you don't have it. That isn't to say that coffee is neccessarily bad for you, but withdrawal means there was an addiction, and addiction to anyting isn't healthy.

I wish you the best of luck and success for the next two weeks. Your feelings of accomplishment will mean so much more to you and feel so much better than anything you could eat or drink.

[kisstuck]

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Kristin, I must say this one of the most open, honest evaluations of oneself and this WOE that I have seen. To come to these realizations must have been difficult. I commend you for really taking a good look at why this WOE is not working for you and you have definately pinpointed multiple problem areas.

You admitted your mistakes and have made a plan to fix them. I am so impressed with your re-committment! Way to take control of yourself and your eating. Not only do I wish you luck, I wish you perseverace, fortitudinous, tenacity and diligence.

YOU CAN DO THIS!

[obkbbby]

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Outstanding post! I think you have made a tremendous step forward. I once saw a special on Discovery Health that said something along the lines of - you know you are ready to change your lifestyle when you fall off the horse, then get right back on. That shows you are truly committed!

[Grant]

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Great post Dimar, I have found myself have similair problems. I drink a Diet Coke a day, have been over indulging on nuts and worst of all have been eating "low carb" ice cream.

I've been thinking about re-doing a two week induction to get me back on track and now you've inspired me to commit to it.

Thank you.

Edit: Just gave away my bag of sunflower seeds, going to start this right now.

[guekjian]

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Man this hit the spot...I am as guilty as you are...and I wonder why I am stuck, have been stuck, for the past few weeks and was ready to give up. Thanks for letting me see that I am not alone...Time to get back on the horse big time. I joined the I am worth it challenge starting yesterday, but your post is really the kick in the b*** I needed. Thanks and we're in this with you...XXX

[Tack Candy]

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Dimar,

Great post. I am sure you are not the only one who has deceived oneself into believing they are working this plan well enough, but not completely by the book. I am one of those and your post was like reading a journal post I could write. I am a strictly water alone girl......wait, how can I forget that cup of coffee every morning (or two).......see?

Well, the exercize will pick up on vacation and I will continue upon my return. I will also examine my menu everyday to see where the culprits are.

Thanks.
Candy

[skinnymom!]

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If you can cut out the sweets for the two full weeks you will be raring to go! I have never done Induction and cut out desserts (sure they were legal but still) and this time my Induction was "treat" free. No SF jello, no low carb cheesecake or pumpkin pie. And it really really helped.

I have done the same thing, said I was doing Atkins but eating little bits of stuff I shouldn't here and there, then gave up and said "it just won't work anymore" - this time I am being honest about things, measuring, not eating dessert every day etc and it's working!!!