I'm fed up with mySELF.

[QtpieMtV]

Hello.
I have been here over and over again. Yet, I still let everything fall out of control when I have:

1) fights with people I care about (I eat)
2) Social outings
3) boredom...

These stupid "excuses" get in the way of my goal and then I feel bummed. Problem is - I'm not a heavy person. So I'm not AS determined. I will yo-yo and start the WOL, then after 5 days I feel debloated and "ok" with my image (I want BETTER than just 'ok') and then I go off and eat badly again. It's like a ritual. I need to break this pattern. I get in this mind-set where I just DON'T CARE about my goal and that's why I break it. Plus I always say "but it's so easy I'll just start again in 3 days"...truely, I'm a moron. Sorry for the french.

I want to turn heads. I want to have more energy. I want to feel good again....

So, I buddied up with a long lost friend who wants to try the diet who is addicted to carbs/sugar and has tried endless times to lose weight with weight-watchers and couldn't get the job done. I find it easier to do the diet when I have to be a role model to someone else. Then I hear myself going on and on about how AWESOME atkins is and how great it will feel when she sheds the weight and I'm thinking "omg, Michelle - GET BACK ON IT FOR REAL THIS TIME so you can feel those SAME good feelings."...

So. That's my story. Let's see how long THIS lasts me.

Sheesh!!
-Michelle-

[b'sgirl]

Re: I'm fed up with mySELF.

qtpie i have been on here it seems a thousand times(as you can read in my journal)but i keep tryin and tryin.SO the one advice i can give you is just keep tryin and think of the true reasons you want to do atkins.

[QtpieMtV]

Re: I'm fed up with mySELF.

ohhhh Thank you - that makes me feel better than i'm not the only one who KEEPS coming back ...I need to stop failing and take charge. It shouldn't be that hard to just take control...seriously? I can do this.

xoxo

[inhisgrip]

Re: I'm fed up with mySELF.

Hey Michelle, you are definitely not alone, just visit my journal and you will see how much I struggle. It's a vicious cycle...telling myself I can 'start tomorrow' but then tomorrow turns into a week, a month, a YEAR! But the most important thing is NEVER GIVE UP! You can do this!

[angelsfort]

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Yup Michelle! You are definitely NOT alone in this!! I'm also guilty of starting and then stopping for some silly reason and then starting again... the first time I did atkins, I lost almost 30 lbs in just a couple of months and was so estatic about it that I went out to dinner with my husband and ate like a HORSE!!! I quickly took on the attitude that I was lookin' good again and could afford to "splurge" a bit. BIG MISTAKE!! Years later, and heavier than ever, I came back to atkins... it worked like a charm (again), I got cocky (again) and off I went... and so now I am back (again) to give it another go... fortunately I haven't gained back all the weight that I lost the last time, but I am still too overweight to be even remotely happy about it.

One thing that I did find helpful the first time around, was that I had a friend who was taking the journey with me. We helped each other during weak moments and were there for the big happy ones too! She moved away and we tried to keep it going long distance, but it didn't work. (so I'm gonna go ahead and blame her for me going off of atkins... LOL I'M KIDDING!!)

[garwil]

Re: I'm fed up with mySELF.

To quote Thomas Edison...

"Results? Why, man, I have gotten lots of results! If I find 10,000 ways something won't work, I haven't failed. I am not discouraged, because every wrong attempt discarded is often a step forward..."