Bad Day

[IrishSarahHB]

I woke up this morning in a mood .. i dont know what my deal is .. Im going to dinner tonight with my boyfriends family and mine ... a big group of us and i was trying to find something to wear ... I tried on everything AND EVERYTHING LOOKED HORRIBLE i either had muffin tops from my pants being too tight ... rolls from my bra or i just plain looked FAT!! i hate it so much .. i even went out to buy a new shirt .. that wasnt a great idea .. all it did was confirm that i am too fat to buy any cute clothes... i actually became emotional and started crying at one point .. i HATE the way i look ... i weighed my self today and i gained 4 lbs since yestyerday? i dont understand how .. i h\didnt cheat even the slightest bit yesterday :-( ....

i finally just picked out something to wear and looked at myself in the miror and said .. this is me .. this is what i look like i cant change that right now .. hopefully soon by doing atkins and working out i will be in better shape but today this is me, rolls and all and i need to learn to accept that!

anyway imjust venting ..

Im gonna try to stay focused on positive things... im going on my hike tomorrow and i am going to drink lots of water today and follow Induction to the T

have a good day

[colleenieweenie]

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I totally understand how you feel - I went bathing suit shopping today and thought I was going to have a meltdown in the dressing room. I thought I looked good until I took my clothes of and really looked at my bod.. eewwwww
I try to stay positive about what I HAVE accomplished so far. Keep your chin up - You're doing great!

[Carb Addict]

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This is how you feel now. I am not trying to make those intense feelings feel insignificant. They are what they are and if we all were truthful, we would admit that we have ALL been there. The first statement in my journal stats uses the word GROSS. That is exactly where I started -- feeling like the fat girl and I had a lot of self-loathing and disgust. BUT for me, that is where I started and certainly not where I am going. I have had the highs and the lows and would trade nothing for the way I feel now. I feel in control. Last night I went and picked up a couple of shirts - they are are XL but that is down from XXL and then I would cut the tags out because I was ashamed of being that big. It has been 2 months and I am down 16 pounds. I have about another 35 pounds to go and it will take time but I know that I can do it. You can do it too!! Where you are is temporary and you can change it. Stay strong !!

[KellyNew4Me2]

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I totally understand this. The best thing I can say is:
1. I'm not satisfied with how I look today.
2. I'm 145 lbs. over my goal.
3. My clothes don't seem to flatter me.
BUT...
4. I'm taking control of the situation and doing something about it.
5. The healthier steps that I'm taking now will affect #1,2,3 forever.
6. I'm 5 lbs. lighter than I was when I started 7 days ago.
7. The scale goes up and down as I'm losing weight. So what! It went up and down as I was gaining it.
8. I haven't cheated, so my eventual progress will outweigh how I feel today.
9. By the time I'm done, I will feel & look so fabulous, I'll skip to the stores with glee!
10. No matter what, I will not give up, success is SO attainable! Stay Strong!

[APanthesilia]

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Hang in there, Irish Sarah. I know what you are going through, I had a really down feeling fat couple of days last week. It's so hard when you're being good and really working hard at this and the mirror doesn't seem to want to help you out! I posted all about how I was feeling in the STAC forum and through the wonderful replies there I realised that since starting this WOE I am more aware of what my body actually looks like and therefore more critical. When I was just eating and eating I barely looked in the mirror. Now I look in the mirror every day and try on different clothes every day so I have a much better idea of how I actually look! Also because I'm eating healthy and exercising I want to look better now! Unfortunately it just takes more time than I want it too! Muffin tops that I just tried not to notice before stand out like crazy now because I'm paying more attention! Also, weight fluctuates! Don't weigh yourself every day. There is NO WAY you ACTUALLY gained 4 lbs in one day. There are so many different reasons for the scale to fluctuate. Go to the FAQ section of the board and look for the post about Why the Scale Can Lie. It is a good helper for me when I'm discouraged about the scale. You will be the weight you want to be eventually if you stick with this- we all will be! It's just a long and difficult journey. No one ever said it would be easy but we do know that it is effective and totally, absolutely worth it when we reach goal! But until then, remember that you are working hard at not only making your body into what you want it to be but you are also building habits which will result in good long term health. You should feel really good and proud of yourself for that!

It's hard right now, but you'll get there and when you do you will be healthy and hot!! Good luck!

[DigitalMocking]

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We all have those days, both the men and women.

You didn't gain 4 lbs in a day, you just happen to weigh 4 lbs more today for any of dozens of reasons. I don't think you ate 16,000 calories yesterday and your body turned all of it into fat.

You might want to join the weigh/no weigh challenge and break looking to the scale, it's an evil creature that does you little good while eating right, especially if you look at it daily (or more)

[SandyL2002]

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Hang in there Irish Sarah.. I think clothes shopping for anyone is a pain in the butt.. especially women.. Even my super skinny daughter...110lbs can't find anything that fits her right.

I hate clothes shopping too...but one day it will get better...

[mcchimento]

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KellyNew4Me2

I love the 10 steps you wrote. I made a mini poster of it, changed a few thingsto fit my results and posted to on my refrigerator door. It should be a helpful guide to NOT CHEAT. Thanks for the great words!!

[KellyNew4Me2]

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The main problem (great thing) about the steps I wrote below is, I have to keep changing the numbers because they keep going down! And they will continue to do so. I'm almost afraid of how successful I've been so far. I suppose when you have a lot to lose the results are more dramatic. Keep up the good work.

1. I'm not satisfied with how I look today.
2. I'm 142 lbs. over my goal.
3. My clothes don't seem to flatter me.
BUT...
4. I'm taking control of the situation and doing something about it.
5. The healthier steps that I'm taking now will affect #1,2,3 forever.
6. I'm 8 lbs. lighter than I was when I started 9 days ago.
7. The scale goes up and down as I'm losing weight. So what! It went up and down as I was gaining it.
8. I haven't cheated, so my eventual progress will outweigh how I feel today.
9. By the time I'm done, I will feel & look so fabulous, I'll skip to the stores with glee!
10. No matter what, I will not give up, success is SO attainable! Stay Strong!