Epic Failure

[nomad37]

I just lost it on day 11 of induction. Completely and totally lost it...binged on oatmeal, peanut butter, and sweets.

I don't know what to do now because I hate that I did this. I was just feeling so overwhelmed--my mom, school, internship, my weight, etc. and I couldn't take it any more so I turned to emotional eating. Ugh. I called my mom to talk about my weight as opposed to eating chocolate, but we just got into a fight and then I binged. I lost control.

I would like this diet plan to be realistic for me but I don't know that it is. I was a vegetarian who was so desperate to lose weight that I did a 360. I ate meat like crazy for 11 days and it was disgusting. I hated every morsel of beef and pork that touched my lips. I am willing to do this diet if it's going to work but after tonight, I guess I won't know whether it was working or not.

Please offer some support. Please. I'm a 21 year old girl trapped in a shell that I hate. I need a hug.

[redsnapper2u]

Re: Epic Failure

Hi Nomad37, please don't beat yourself up to badly. No one here is perfect. many of us have fallen off that wagon. I can't tell you how to handle emotional eating, other than to try to avoid the things that trigger it. I know this is hard to do when family is involved. don't give up... Start again... you can be successful! good luck...

[Desertthorn]

Re: Epic Failure

http://www.atkinsdietbulletinboard.com/forums/atkins-low-carb-dieting-faqs/6729-can-i-do-atkins-vegetarian.html

While the good doctor didn't believe in vegetarianism, feeling that it wasn't health, we have a member who posted the above and lost weight. I don't think you can do it as a vegan, but if eggs and cheese are okay, try Missy's suggestion.
The only way this diet can work for any of us is if we can whole embrace it, and if you can't do meat, don't force it.
Linda has some vegetarian meals, mostly eggs, but start making a collection of recipes.
You can have the best of both worlds.

[EverLosing]

Re: Epic Failure

Sheesh!! Don't be so hard on yourself! Fact is, you can't unring a bell. Almost everyone has fallen off the wagon at some point or another. It's going to be ok. I saw this little daily calendar at work yesterday and the little inspirational quip said something like this...Life is a combination of successes and failures. Without one, you cannot have the other. If you don't experience both, you wouldn't know one from the other!

That being said, it's time to get out of the I fell down and now I'm going to beat myself up mode. Go ahead and restart induction. Promise yourself to do it for 14 days clean, with no cheats. You don't know right now what the results will be...could be some amped up weight loss. Just be patient. Come to the board when you need encouragement and support. No one is d*mned to misery and defeat. We'll help you get up and dust yourself off!!

[LifeChange2009]

Re: Epic Failure

Hi Nomad37, please don't beat yourself up about falling off the wagon. What can I say except it will take a long time for some of us to undo a lifetime of emotional eating and bad eating habits. I'm 39 and have been overweight in fact obese for all of my adult life. I've made a committment to change my WOE and habits. I'm not focusing so much on weight loss although I do have a goal to lose 50lbs this year. I'm taking it literally one day at a time and undoing bad habits and picking up good habits one habit at a time in 30-day challenges. I've accepted that it is going to be slow but that is what it will take for me. The fact is, if you are like me and most of us here, your weight is a major issue and a barrier in your life. It affects and is affected by all the stuff in our lives. And most of the time, it is so easy to let it go, kinda de-prioritize our health and ourselves by extension.

You are 21 and believe me, you have a lot going for you. I think it is important to identify what triggers your emotional eating and to develop habits that counter the triggers. Let me be blunt here and say that if talking to your family about your weight is sometimes a trigger, then don't for a while. Post here or visit here often. About whether or not you can actually do this diet - again take some time and investigate that. I concur with the previous post. Take a look at it. Try Atkins for 30-day and at the end of the 30 days, re-evaluate. I started what I call my transformation with creating a Wellness Plan for myself. Very short, my first plan was to do induction and then re-evaluate. I like it so my next plan is to do extended induction. In addition, my plan includes habits such as 10-min exercise challenge, a 30-day journaling challenge etc. I just accepted that it would take a lot of planning and effort to lose weight and get healthy again.

I'm sorry this post is so long. Choosing and being on a path to a healthy you will not be easy. But you can do, believe me you can. Pick yourself up and move on. Get to work on not allowing anything or anyone to make you feel so low. You are powerful beyond measure and please don't take yourself for granted. It is not an epic failure but an opportunity to learn where you went wrong. All the best.

[jaybee007]

Re: Epic Failure

An eating addiction is still an addiction and we will have slips...it's part of the process. Today is another day, put yesterday behind you and think about how badly you want this for yourself
When things are tough and people aggravate me, knowing that I'm sticking to my WOL empowers me and makes me feel strong

[Elizellen]

Re: Epic Failure

When things are tough and people aggravate me, knowing that I'm sticking to my WOL empowers me and makes me feel strong

What a great positive mantra!!
Sometimes deciding what we are going to eat can be the only thing in our life that we CAN control

[jaybee007]

Re: Epic Failure

Thank you, that was very kind

Most days, people around us spout things out and they go on with their day and forget what they said...why do we remember? The way that I see it! Only you can control how people make you feel....

[NewToAtkins]

Re: Epic Failure

Honestly, the strongest endorsement for how serious you are about losing weight is the fact that even after a bad day you got back online and posted with 100% honesty and asked for help. Bravo!
I'm no expert, being only 14 days in...so I won't give advice about how and what to eat...but keep in mind that things like this take time, and since the sun rising and setting tomorrow is a guarantee, you have at least one day to get back on track.
Keep your head up...