Please Help!

[7Miriam]

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THank you! So far I've stuck to Induction today. I hope to stay strong and not eat anymore today. I'm quite hungry, I don't remember being this hungry before when on Induction. Maybe its b/c it is the first day. I also have headaches, though not nearly as bad as the first time I did Induction. I still feel mentally weak, like I could give up, but I am going to try very hard not to.

I'm thinking of doing Induction for a few days till I get in ketosis and then go up to 25 net carbs. I was at 30 net carbs before, but struggling to stay on plan at 30. So I'm thinking of dropping back down to 25 for a while. Not sure how much of the struggle was due to going up to 30 and how much was due to the problems at home. Does this sound ok? Not really sure how long, if at all, I need to do Induction.

[EverLosing]

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I'd hang around induction for awhile...certainly long enough to get that rush of energy. I think that energetic feeling will help you out mentally. I lost some of that energy in OWL. Please know we're all here to support you. I feel so bad that YOU feel so bad! The saddest thing about our economy right now is....it seems to be hurting the innocents more than the guilty! That's horribly unfair and such a big part of life. I've been through a decade of sorrow and let me tell you...I made a choice at Christmas. I decided this time was the last time. I was going back to this WOE because no matter what else was thrown at me....me taking care of me was absolutely the only thing I could control in this world. No one else was going to do for me and it was up to me, period! That line of thinking has kept me on track. On my worst days, I know the most important thing I'm doing is taking care of myself. In years past, I've lost a miserable marriage, is how I feel about that now but not at the time, I've lost my father to a horrendous massive brain tumor, still the torture of my soul--that experience, my beloved grandma before Christmas, almost all family pets met a tragic sudden end with cancer, I lost the love of my life on Christmas Eve.... I've dealt with a mother with not one, but two broken hips that were life altering, oh, a tornado, Mom's car accident, her broken arm from falling because of the cat, my two back surgeries from an auto accident in 1995, learning to walk again several times.... When I gave birth, I birthed a BIG BOY weighing in at 13lbs 11 oz on top of a back injury. The list could go on but I'll stop. Many of those challenges could've been met so much easier had I been taking care of myself all along. I wasn't. However, the truth is we can't unring a bell. The time is now. We're here. We move on with the world or the world moves on without us. You're in the right place at the right time with the right people. Stick around...and welcome back! We're here for you...and we need you be here for us!!

[lisau39]

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Well said EverLosing! You can't change the past but you can have an impact on your future. I too made the decision to lose the weight for ME. Now I don't hesitate when I grocery shop. I know what to buy for me and what to buy for the family.I automatically chop up my veggies and ALWAYS cook something @ night to have on hand for lunch. I am always ready. That is the key for me. I have to be prepared.It's second nature for me. I've only been here since Jan09 but already I've gotten new "habits' formed.
7Miriam, you will get back on track. I think the struggling we go through in the beginning is well worth it, because then we know how we fought to stay on track. Make sense?
Listen, you call me if you need a shoulder, I will listen to you, I promise. I will help you stay on track. Log on to ADBB when you feel weak. We'll get you through the bumps.

(((lisa)))

[EverLosing]

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Well said EverLosing! You can't change the past but you can have an impact on your future. I too made the decision to lose the weight for ME. Now I don't hesitate when I grocery shop. I know what to buy for me and what to buy for the family.I automatically chop up my veggies and ALWAYS cook something @ night to have on hand for lunch. I am always ready. That is the key for me. I have to be prepared.It's second nature for me. I've only been here since Jan09 but already I've gotten new "habits' formed.
7Miriam, you will get back on track. I think the struggling we go through in the beginning is well worth it, because then we know how we fought to stay on track. Make sense?
Listen, you call me if you need a shoulder, I will listen to you, I promise. I will help you stay on track. Log on to ADBB when you feel weak. We'll get you through the bumps.

(((lisa)))

Great post, Lisa!! The world is depressing right now! Good people with real problems. This board is the best hang out!! Beats anywhere else we could be! 7Miriam, we're still here....waiting to hear from you! We can do this!! Here's wishing you a great day..followed by a wonderful week!!!

[7Miriam]

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Your messages have helped me soooooo much - thank you all!!!!

I got through 2 days of Induction, though it was very, very hard to get started again. Last night, at the end of the second day, the ketostix indicated I'm back in ketosis. I also went down 5 pounds in the two days, so I really only regained 15 pounds and am still down 50 from where I started. Today I am going to start exercising again.

Before I found it much harder to do Induction than OWL - I was fine on OWL at 25 net carbs and Rung 3 (nuts). When I went up to Rung 4 (berries) and 30 net carbs I started running into problems - of course it was also hugely stressful in my life then too, so I'm not sure how much of the problem was attributable to berries, the extra 5 net carbs, or stress.

My inclination is to do Induction for another day, and then go back to 25 NC and rung 3 for a couple days, and then try rung 4 staying at 25 NC for a couple days, and if that works stay there for a while. I kind of think that the berries were not a problem and that I will be ok here, but don't want to jump right to it. Any thoughts you have about whether this is a good plan would be most appreiciated.

Also, I was just reading another post about stalls and your body used to being at certain weights. I found this very interesting b/c the weight I am at now, (after the 15 pound regain) is a wieght that I was around for several years. I wonder if my body was fighting to not go below that weight. Because I didn't eat that badly that I think I should have gained 15 pounds in 3 weeks, I ate carbs and slightly bigger meals, but I wasn't way overeating or eating lots of junk food. In fact I'm shocked at how quickly I gained, particularly given that I wasn't eating all that badly.

[7Miriam]

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I've been back on this WOE for a week now, and 12 of the 20 pounds came back off. So as of now it's only a regain of 8 pounds - which somehow seems much better than a regain of 20. When I added back in exercise, the weight came off more quickly.

I was just rereading my posts in this string - and I realize I feel so much better physically and mentally now. It is hard to believe how much crumbyer I felt while not on Atkins, and how hard it was to get back on this WOE. I have so much more energy, sleep better, much less moody. I'll have to remember all this the next time I'm tempted to go off.

Home life is also a bit less stressful - hubby did not get laid off (though about 20% of the employees where he works did). However, his hours and pay have been reduced for the rest of the year. Because there is less uncertainly, it seems a bit more manageable now. Though he is still unhappy about the situation.

[Peej]

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I'm so glad to hear that you are back on track and managing things better now. The best thing that you can pull away from this is that staying on plan will help you manage stress in the future! Using this experience to motivate you next time is a very positive thing that you can take away from your setback. Congrats on getting back on track, we knew you could do it!

[msanjelpie]

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Isn't it amazing how everything seems out of our control, and a week after Atkins we feel WE are in control~!?

I wouldn't go over 25 carbs for a while... remember you are going to hit a stall soon, I would wait until after that whole episode is over so that you know if it's the rung 3 foods or not...

and... CONGRATULATIONS!

[chinadoll]

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So glad you are back on track. Sometimes stress enters in and it seems like we don't have the energy or concentration (due to worry) to cope with keeping on the WOE and dealing or not dealing with our worries. That is when we need to stick to our WOE even more because it is a constant and offers the structure we need. We have all been there.

[7Miriam]

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Well - I went totally off again! I am not doing very well. I've gained a lot back, and am afraid to even weigh myself. I'm trying to get myself to start Atkins again. I'm thinking that maybe I should go back to Rung 2 and 25 net carbs which is where I was before all the problems started. I'm not sure that going up rungs was what really caused the problems - but since I was ok at RUng 2 and 25 net carbs I'm thinking that if I can get back on I should just try to stay there till I get a big chunk of weight off. But honestly, I feel like it is just so hard to start again, it feels very, very hard right now. I hope that I can restart in a few more days.

[msanjelpie]

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You definitely have to be in the right state of mind to start again... don't just do it on a whim... prepare yourself, weigh, get the right foods, make the commitment and then start again... Sometimes you just have to be totally fed up with yourself to get to that place where you want to start... and when you do, (because you know you will) I would start with a clean induction to get your head in the right place...

You'll know when you are ready... You'll wake up and you'll know that it is THE day...