I'm so mad at myself!!

[Doingit409]

I am so mad at myself I could scream!! I was doing very well. I was stuck at a plateau at 177 pounds but I stuck through it and got down to 170.4. I was so happy, I was so close to being in the 160's. Well I cheated and I cheated big. It started off as dinner at my favorite mexican restaurant. Let's just say I didn't get anything Atkins friendly. Well it just so happens that my favorite mexican restaurant is next to my favorite ice cream place, can you tell where I'm going with this? Yup after dinner came dessert!! I was planning on going back on the next day but that didn't happen. I kept cheating with any and every thing. This has been going on for almost a month. I'm too scared to get on the scale. I really don't want to see the damage that I did. I am back on this WOE as of yesterday. I am hoping that I can get myself back on track. The funny thing is the whole time I was cheating I felt horrible. Not only because I knew I was cheating but from the food itself. I felt stuffed and just plain miserable. One day back on and I already feel better. The next time I get the urge to cheat I'm going to try my best to remember how I felt while I was cheating. I never want to feel that way again!!

[Tampaman]

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The important thing is that you are back on track. You will get there.

[chinadoll]

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It happens to many of us and we all wonder why we traded looking and feeling good for a night of nacho debauchery. So, here's the thing. First, print out about a dozen copies of this thread starter and put it around to remind you. Second, really think about what it was that made you choose to abandon something that was working so well. I mean you could have easily ordered fajitas and left the shells, so why last night? Did something happen? Were you with a different crowd than usual? had something stressful happened during the day? Unless you know why you cheated it will be harder to prevent it from happening again. Finally, forgive yourself, put the scale into a closet for a month and focus on doing the plan to the best of your ability--the numbers are immaterial right now and will only depress you. Think of this as an expensive lesson. There is no such thing as just one bite. You now know that one night starts an avalanche of bad behaviors and cravings just like one sip of alcohol can send an alcoholic on a bender.

So continue on. Glad you dusted yourself off and got back on plan. You are lucky. Many don't come back for months and years. You caught yourself relatively early and you will hopefully be stronger next time.

[bikinidreams]

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There are theories out there that the sugars found in refined carbohydrates are just as addictive as alcohol or nicotine (or worse!). You can't blame it all on your will power, because there is so much more going on inside when you consume sugar, like the release of feel good hormones before the blood sugar crash and fat storage!!! It takes time, but get back on the horse, erase that stuff from your diet, and let your body adjust to sugar-free living! You can do it (again)! Just imagine weighing in at 169 for motivation!

[Pretty Polly]

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Don't stress, been there and done that. We are in exactly the same situation!! I hit my ideal weight and loved it, was so certain i wasn't going to put weight on....THEN i started sneaking in bits of chocolate, bits of ice cream, a bit more chocolate, this went on for a few weeks! and....

Boom! I'd put on 8 Ibs. I weighed myself on Saturday and hated myself i was soo upset i let this happen after all my hard work, i couldn't believe i'd messed up and now my jeans wont fit and i feel so disappointed in myself....

BUT...life goes on, we've done it, we cheated and we cheated big but we are doing something positive about it, so we are here second time round (i started induction on Monday) good things come out of bad things, when we lose the weight again it will feel all the more sweeter AND we'll think twice about eating those bad things.

Get on the scale hun, you need to move on...i held my breath and got on..cried a lot after but you have to suck it up, see where you're at and work at it again! yes AGAIN but we will do it x

[Sunny_0ne]

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Doingit, those plateaus are the most discouraging thing about losing weight. I think we all understand that they happen and they are normal, but when you get on the scale week after week and the numbers don't budge, it IS frustrating.

I think we have all had those "what's the use" moments when for a short time we lose rational thinking and we really don't care. At least that's been my experience.

And twice I HAVE binged... but I confined it to all legal foods... just illegal amounts of it--and that included a lot of pork rind nachos and cream cheese with splenda desserts. I have only had one period where I gained a couple of pounds, but it came off soon.

So understand that the frustration of stuck scales is normal, and try to devise a way to cope with it. If you don't give in to temptation, the scales WILL move again, and sometimes they come with a nice little whoosh.

I'm so glad you are back on plan. That's what separates the winners from the losers. We winners pick ourselves up and get back on track.

[Kathi22]

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I truly think sugars and carbs are an addiction; I often tell myself can an alcoholic have just one beer and stop? I have been here, recently too, where I find myself wanting Mexican - and then ice cream. Looks like we have the same taste in comfort food. Well, it leads me to several pounds back, 2 weeks or more of a fight I already fought, and feeling very down on myself. I now write it down, it helps me remember when my urge for old favorites starts to kick in.

[liv]

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Maybe you can figure out how to make a legal mexidcan dish? A lot of it is spices and you may be able to do something there. I really enjoy a bit of hotness once in awhile too.

Anyways welcome back. And look forward. You can do it.

[shelly808]

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Don't beat yourself up....it won't do ya any good...WHATSOEVER.

I agree with Kathy, I really think there is some sort of sugar metabolizing malfunction where the body goes into super duper crave mode after a certain amount for many people. It frustrates the **** out of people who like to drink alcohol! Like me!

I can drink one or three and stop there... but the whole time after stopping there is this terrible obsessed mental argument trying to get me to have another one - a very loud and obnoxious battle. ...no fun!. A battle of wills, my brain vs my body. It can make one CRAZY and depressed. I figured out that I just can't do it.