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I have lost over 190 lbs throughout my lifetime - and yet I'm still "overweight". But it really puts everything into perspective, ya know...
1997 (high school) I lost 70 pounds going from 220 to 150
2002 (college) I lost 40 pounds going from 220 to 180
2003 (after college graduation) I lost 45 pounds going from 205 to 160
2008 I lost 17 pounds going from 197 - 180
NOW (and for the very last time and still losing) I'm down 17 pounds starting at 196 and now I'm currently at 179.
It actually really pisses me off that I've lost weight SO many times and yet never kept it off. (however, the 2003 - 45 pound loss was kept off until I developed Insulin Resistance and gained 40 back in 2007).
But seriously - I am turning 30 years old in August - and I've "obsessed" over my eating style since the age of 12!!!!!!!!!!!
Now - granted, every single "diet" up until now has been low-fat low-calorie...and now I truly honest to god feel like I've FINALLY found the RIGHT way to live - mainly because I've actually educated myself on WHY I should not eat sugar and how DANGEROUS sugar really is...and, for me, I truly do believe I will eat this way for the rest of my life because - while there are days that I miss some sugary foods - to me, sugar really IS poison - knowing that if I eat sugar I WILL gain weight again so that actually makes me want to STAY AWAY from it for the rest of my life!
But this way of eating, unlike (even weight watchers) every low-fat diet out there, eating no sugar and low-carb ACTUALLY makes SENSE to me! THAT is why I KNOW that this WILL be the LAST diet I'm EVER on - because it's NOT a diet - it truly is my new way of eating. I don't even have to TRY and I'm losing weight. I love the food I eat - it's EASY to eat low-carb and I truly honestly don't obsess anymore over the "amounts" of food I put in my body anymore (meaning I don't count every calorie, point, measure everything, etc...)
I actually DO stop eating when I feel satisfied. It's amazing!
But all of this and it just sucks that it took me THIS long to finally "get with the program" and realize that WHOLE foods NO sugar really is the way to go.
I really do want to cry though, thinking about HOW MANY TIMES I've lost and gained and lost and gained weight throughout my lifetime. But none of that matters anymore because I finally feel like I AM living life the way I need to live it - and the way that will keep me healthy to live it much longer too.
I just needed to really talk that out of my brain. I know I talk on these boards so much about how much I LOVE living low-carb but it really amazes me to stop and think about stuff like this, as "healthy living" and "weight loss" has been my OCD issues since the age of 12 and yet now I've pretty much done a complete 180 in my thinking as far as how TO do things - and I couldn't be happier!
Thank you to all who listened.
1997 (high school) I lost 70 pounds going from 220 to 150
2002 (college) I lost 40 pounds going from 220 to 180
2003 (after college graduation) I lost 45 pounds going from 205 to 160
2008 I lost 17 pounds going from 197 - 180
NOW (and for the very last time and still losing) I'm down 17 pounds starting at 196 and now I'm currently at 179.
It actually really pisses me off that I've lost weight SO many times and yet never kept it off. (however, the 2003 - 45 pound loss was kept off until I developed Insulin Resistance and gained 40 back in 2007).
But seriously - I am turning 30 years old in August - and I've "obsessed" over my eating style since the age of 12!!!!!!!!!!!
Now - granted, every single "diet" up until now has been low-fat low-calorie...and now I truly honest to god feel like I've FINALLY found the RIGHT way to live - mainly because I've actually educated myself on WHY I should not eat sugar and how DANGEROUS sugar really is...and, for me, I truly do believe I will eat this way for the rest of my life because - while there are days that I miss some sugary foods - to me, sugar really IS poison - knowing that if I eat sugar I WILL gain weight again so that actually makes me want to STAY AWAY from it for the rest of my life!
But this way of eating, unlike (even weight watchers) every low-fat diet out there, eating no sugar and low-carb ACTUALLY makes SENSE to me! THAT is why I KNOW that this WILL be the LAST diet I'm EVER on - because it's NOT a diet - it truly is my new way of eating. I don't even have to TRY and I'm losing weight. I love the food I eat - it's EASY to eat low-carb and I truly honestly don't obsess anymore over the "amounts" of food I put in my body anymore (meaning I don't count every calorie, point, measure everything, etc...)
I actually DO stop eating when I feel satisfied. It's amazing!
But all of this and it just sucks that it took me THIS long to finally "get with the program" and realize that WHOLE foods NO sugar really is the way to go.
I really do want to cry though, thinking about HOW MANY TIMES I've lost and gained and lost and gained weight throughout my lifetime. But none of that matters anymore because I finally feel like I AM living life the way I need to live it - and the way that will keep me healthy to live it much longer too.
I just needed to really talk that out of my brain. I know I talk on these boards so much about how much I LOVE living low-carb but it really amazes me to stop and think about stuff like this, as "healthy living" and "weight loss" has been my OCD issues since the age of 12 and yet now I've pretty much done a complete 180 in my thinking as far as how TO do things - and I couldn't be happier!
Thank you to all who listened.
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