who freaks themselves out before they hit a goal?

[kibskix]

why do we do that to ourselves? maybe we're nervous about being thinner, or we're afraid of failing, or your extra fluff has been a psychological way to protect yourself, maybe its that 'well i made my goal i can afford a cheat' etc etc. im sure there are 100 reasons, but it seems to be a prevelant problem that not many even notice they do to themselves.

i am 6lbs away from onederland. i havent been in ONE anything in 5 years. hitting 200 will be my 50 pound overall loss, and nearly 27lbs lost since starting atkins in march. my goal is to get under 200 by this family reunion thingy i have to go to in mid june. all these relatives who havent seen me since i was probably 240lbs will be there.

and for some reason i keep having to talk myself out of cheating! i'm not consciously going 'i want to sabotage myself wheres the chocolate!' but somethings not right here! yesterday when my bf left the first thing that popped into my head was '... no ones here... i could eat all that dove chocolate and no one would know...' then i went whooooaaaa where the heck did -that- come from?? and no, i havent touched anything bad, but my cravings, which are normally hardly there at all, are all over the place. along with that 'you've lost so much you can afford something bad' ideology which also has never been there before.

whats the deal with this!

[jennbeingme]

Re: who freaks themselves out before they hit a goal?

Yep- me too!. I lost my first 30 lbs relatively easily- no cheats- good exercise etc... The last 10 tho... I'm trying desperately to regain exercise motivation, allowing myself to eat too much, avoiding this board, -just a general freakout. however, I do see improvement in my day-to-day habits lately and I'm here more often.
Why the freakout? My latest theory is that if I achieve my goal, I also have to carry the weight of maintaining my goal and my new lifestyle- which we all know isn't the easiest thing in the world to do.
But working on it day-by-day- tomorrow I weigh myself- THAT should definitely provide motivation.

[msanjelpie]

Re: who freaks themselves out before they hit a goal?

I don't think it's getting into the 100's... I think perhaps you are feeling subconscious about how people are going to react to you at the reunion... It can be very embarrassing to have all that attention from everyone, like you discovered uranium or something... Then they all want details and it can be very stressful...

I started around the same time as you and thoughts of cheating have been popping up too... Perhaps it is like post-induction stall syndrome which hits from 2-4 weeks... Perhaps post induction 2 month cheat syndrome has hit...

[liv]

Re: who freaks themselves out before they hit a goal?

Cheat syndrome - hmmmm. Maybe there is such a thing. But I think that cheating is about will power. You can overcome it.

Perhaps some of our anxiety about body weight is tied up with the fact that we gave it so much power.
Like
If only I am thin I will be happy
If only I am thin I will have good friends
If only I am thin I will concur all my fears
etc.

And well as we get closer we may realize that it is not just our body that need to somehow heal as we work through Atkins but we really have to learn to like ourself for who we are whatever that may be.

OK I am going to stop channeling Dr. Phil now