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Tuesday June 23, 2009
Dear Weight Loss Journal
Today, I cheated and I hate myself for doing it. We didn’t have anything but junk food in the house, and my grandma just died a little while ago. As I was thinking about the funeral it all just started to happen. And it happened fast. I saw my brother sitting on the couch eating one of those frozen pops which are basically just sugar water. I thought to myself, I really want one, why not just have one and get off this stupid diet. After eating two of those, I ate like 8 chips ahoy cookies, and then my sister came in and said “Wow, I can’t believe you’re cheating,” to which my brother replied (sarcastic or not “I got to hand it to you Will, you lasted longer than I thought you would.” and that’s when it hit me, WHAT HAVE I JUST DONE.
Then, I immediately went to the ADBB to try and find others writing about their experience when they’ve shown that sign of weakness, and it was surprisingly hard to find one.
So what am I saying in this journal entry? I cheated, but in that weakness I realized, why trade the 2 weeks of feeling good about myself, for 10 minutes of snack-food satisfaction?
I have been on the Atkins diet, phase 1 ketosis for 17 days including today. I was thinking about going to OWL so I could step up the veggies, and maybe if I had I wouldn’t have cheated, but I’m going to restart the induction tomorrow, and continue the process.
Dear Weight Loss Journal
Today, I cheated and I hate myself for doing it. We didn’t have anything but junk food in the house, and my grandma just died a little while ago. As I was thinking about the funeral it all just started to happen. And it happened fast. I saw my brother sitting on the couch eating one of those frozen pops which are basically just sugar water. I thought to myself, I really want one, why not just have one and get off this stupid diet. After eating two of those, I ate like 8 chips ahoy cookies, and then my sister came in and said “Wow, I can’t believe you’re cheating,” to which my brother replied (sarcastic or not “I got to hand it to you Will, you lasted longer than I thought you would.” and that’s when it hit me, WHAT HAVE I JUST DONE.
Then, I immediately went to the ADBB to try and find others writing about their experience when they’ve shown that sign of weakness, and it was surprisingly hard to find one.
So what am I saying in this journal entry? I cheated, but in that weakness I realized, why trade the 2 weeks of feeling good about myself, for 10 minutes of snack-food satisfaction?
I have been on the Atkins diet, phase 1 ketosis for 17 days including today. I was thinking about going to OWL so I could step up the veggies, and maybe if I had I wouldn’t have cheated, but I’m going to restart the induction tomorrow, and continue the process.
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