What is wrong with me...

[somethings gotta give]

I know why I was avoiding people when I was heavy, but now I am avoiding people because of the weight loss. What is wrong with me? I am purposely avoiding running into anyone who hasn't seen me in the last few months (even skipped the 4th of July picnic) I just don't want to hear, "oh- you have lost alot of weight" - I shouldn't be embarrassed, but it is so clear to me now how people had viewed me at my previous weight. It was so easy to not think about it as I had ignored it for years, but now I am forced to face the fact that yes, I was "fat". There I said it.

[not2late]

Re: What is wrong with me...

I know why I was avoiding people when I was heavy, but now I am avoiding people because of the weight loss. What is wrong with me? I am purposely avoiding running into anyone who hasn't seen me in the last few months (even skipped the 4th of July picnic) I just don't want to hear, "oh- you have lost alot of weight" - I shouldn't be embarrassed, but it is so clear to me now how people had viewed me at my previous weight. It was so easy to not think about it as I had ignored it for years, but now I am forced to face the fact that yes, I was "fat". There I said it.

You're not used to being the center of attention----I can totally relate to that. I was embarrassed that people would make a fuss over me. And I hated meeting people who knew me when I was fat for that reason.

But now I kind of like it because I can see who is fake and who isn't. There are people whom I knew in passing that would never acknowledge me when I was heavier. Now they're friendly. The only thing that changed about me was my weight. So I avoid those people.

[somethings gotta give]

Re: What is wrong with me...

Yeah, I am feeling very self consious, even with my immediate family, I have gotten alot of clothes out of the closet from my skinnier days cause nothing fits anymore. I can't afford to shop right now so got alot of stuff from before which I saved "just in case". I just hate it when I wear something that they haven't seen in a long long time and reality sinks in, boy was I fat. Just walking through the living room with something new on is painful and I am just cringing that someone will make a comment.

[not2late]

Re: What is wrong with me...

Yeah, I am feeling very self consious, even with my immediate family, I have gotten alot of clothes out of the closet from my skinnier days cause nothing fits anymore. I can't afford to shop right now so got alot of stuff from before which I saved "just in case". I just hate it when I wear something that they haven't seen in a long long time and reality sinks in, boy was I fat. Just walking through the living room with something new on is painful and I am just cringing that someone will make a comment.

I guess there is also a bit of shame that we allowed ourselves to get that huge in the first place. Believe me, I saved a pair of pants from my heavy days: I can fit my entire body into 1 leg---with plenty of room to spare! I look at those pants now and think "How did I ever let it go that far?"

But think of it this way: you're not that way anymore. You've taken control of the situation and you are on your way to better health. That's the best gift you can give to yourself and you should be proud that you have the wherewithall to do that. You could have choosen to just keep on as you were. But you didn't.

[sham]

Re: What is wrong with me...

Hi Edie I know what you mean I have lost over 100lbs sometimes I meet relatives or friend even ladies at the school and they say oh you lost so much weight and some even say you used to be fat and I think just because I have lost the weight that doesnt give them the licence to call me fat.I used to like it at the beginning when I was told I lost weight because I felt at last people are noticing but now I hate it when they ask me how much you lost?or even how much did you weigh before?The most annoying part is that they say it with a smile on thinking she wont mind but I do mind so anytime someone looks at me I quickly turn away thinking they will ask about the weight loss.Today a lady asks me how did you lose weight I explained the diet so she says we avoid those foods their bad for you how can you lose weight eating fat and the other thing is atkins is not popular here I have to explain the diet such a headache so I know what you mean but Edie you will have to face people eventually just be confident Im sure you'll be ok mate!

[imagood1]

Re: What is wrong with me...

COnsider yourself lucky that you have gotten your health back, your clothes fit better and people are noticing you have lost weight. It's sad that you don't want to be around your friends and family at this wonderful time in your life. Go out and be happy with what you have done - celebrate!