What a night!

[Sarina D]

Ok, here it goes....I'm having SUCH a crappy night!!!!! Sorry if we're not suppose to use that word here...I generally wouldn't but that's EXACTLY how I'm feeling. (Can someone can edit that one out if it's not allowed...thx).

I don't feel like exercising...can't stop thinking about food. I'm just having a downer of a night. I generally wouldn't say anyting but I have to tonight.

I need to exercise (I started up just yesterday after taking one week off due to an old back injury acting up and giving me migraines...I've only done that one other time and since then it's been like pulling teeth each day to exercise but I do anyway...I wish I hadn't taken the first time off in May...that was due to a torn rectus abdominal muscle but I pretty much had no choice...I just couldn't do anything it was too painful) and I am SOOOO not in the mood to do it tonight.

I'm going to feed the fish and then change and get my butt onto a piece of exercise equipment.

Anyway, I just had to say something...thanks for listening.

Sarina

[Georgiana]

Re: What a night!



Sarina, if we didn't complain about the way we look from time to time, most of us wouldn't be working to lose weight or to get fitter. Kudos to you for putting the bad feelings to a good use and getting some exercise. I hope the endorphins did the trick on you and you're feeling much better.

And I hear you about exercising. Whenever I get lazy with it I have a terrible time restarting. Did you try changing your exercise routine? Maybe doing something new will make exercise enjoyable again. Finding an exercise buddy might re-motivate you as well.

Are you still having problems with the back injury or did it get better?


PS: **taking off my moderator hat** Crappy. Crappy. Crappy. Now maybe a Mod or Admin will want to edit that.

[mizski]

Re: What a night!

I think we can say crappy. We can't say though.

First of all I have to congratulate you on your success. Wowza. You've lost a lot of weight! On the exercise thing...well sometimes it just . <---that was the S word not the F word. I love strength training but abhor cardio. I have a bunch of different cardio DVDs to "inspire" me to workout. Sometimes they do and other times I just roll my eyes as I put one in the machine. Although I am liking Zumba a lot and I bought one of those Wii Fit things. Liking that a whole lot.

Anyways, I think a whole lot of us hate the exercise thing from time to time. Sorry you are feeling blue about your appearance. A whole lot of us really heavy folks know that feeling too.

Hope you have a better tomorrow and remember that your fish love you.

[Greeneggs&ham]

Re: What a night!

I think we can say crappy. We can't say though.

That's funny stuff. I'd give you a rep point for that, but I have to spread the love around first. Apparently this isn't a monogamous board. What the (I mean heck)?

[ShannonM]

Re: What a night!

You started out at 403 and you're now 183? Did I read that right?

You've lost 220 lbs.?

May I just say that you are

AMAZING.

You are a

Total. Freaking. Animal.

You are a

Stud.

You are

Unstoppable.

If you can drop 220 like a bad habit, you can certainly wage war against this negativity and emerge victorious on the other side.

Seriously, job terrifically well done. I am inspired.

[imagood1]

Re: What a night!

You are a

Stud.

I hope you meant "Filly" not "Stud".....Sarina is female!!!

[chinadoll]

Re: What a night!

Oh Sarina, You have been such an inspiration to me and I feel for the crummy day you are having.

I know you don't feel like it but what I do is commit to just ten minutes of treadmill or whatever at an easy, don't really plan on pushing myself pace. Then (as you already know) once you actually start you feel better as you go. Part of my plan is getting the clothes on first thing in the morning --then I am halfway there. LOL

Your head already knows it, your will is just dragging its feet. Just do even 10 mins tonight so you don't have that mental zero in your head for today.

Sending HUGS and a shot of will your way.

[ShannonM]

Re: What a night!

I know she's female (as am I) and I know a stud is male. It's just an expression - if you call someone a stud, it means they're tough, focused, and can get the job done beyond anyone's expectations.

It was a compliment, in other words.

[bizzlekitty]

Re: What a night!

Hang in there. I know how hard it is to recover after an injury, that's set me back too many times. The key is to not let it or anything else set you back. I know how challenging it can be every day sometmes.

Hugs and hope you're doing better today.

[Sarina D]

Re: What a night!

Sarina, if we didn't complain about the way we look from time to time, most of us wouldn't be working to lose weight or to get fitter. Kudos to you for putting the bad feelings to a good use and getting some exercise. I hope the endorphins did the trick on you and you're feeling much better.

And I hear you about exercising. Whenever I get lazy with it I have a terrible time restarting. Did you try changing your exercise routine? Maybe doing something new will make exercise enjoyable again. Finding an exercise buddy might re-motivate you as well.

Are you still having problems with the back injury or did it get better?


PS: **taking off my moderator hat** Crappy. Crappy. Crappy. Now maybe a Mod or Admin will want to edit that.

Hi Georgiana,

Thanks for the support, your message and the hug, they are much appreciated! "Taking off my moderator hat" moment gave me a great laugh...I needed it, thanks!

After posting what I did last night, I fed the fish, jumped on my glider and ran for my reg. 62 minutes and then did the abominal exercises I do....so I got it done.

Regarding my workout, I find that cardio is hugely effective in my weight loss. However, I like to have the strength training (weights) and I need to work the upper part of my body, the core and abs and lower part. So I run 6 x days a week on my glider for 62 minutes a night...I then do my abdominal work and try to either fit in the upper body work out with hand weights one night and then rotate to the core and then to the lower body (I haven't done a targeted lower body work out for quite sometime....other than my glider and the stepper..and that is frustrating me)

The upper body workout alone is over an hour...not to mention the fact that I work my abs every night as well so my evening work out is about 2 1/2 + hours. I also spend time with family, cook dinner, shop and do the other things people need to do to normally. I have tried to reduce my workout (in fact I'm not doing my regular full throdle so to speak routine since my torn rectus muscle but I'm still working out about 2 - 2 1/2 hrs 6 days a week). If I don't have this amount of cardio in my routine, I don't achieve the results. Not to mention the fact that I work full time so my time is pretty jamed.

I use to break my routine up so I would do part of it in the morning early before I went to work and then the rest at night but I have to admit...I'm a night owl and have gotten back into a bad habit of going to bed late. My husband is the same way and he has a tendency to go to bed even later than me and I find my sleep is really badly broken now for a while so in combination with these two things...I have not been able to get up really early and break my routine up...which would be the best thing.

I use to work out with greater intensity (having said that my work out is intense now...but I've just not been able to get what I had back and it frustrates me badly...however, I try to keep looking at the fact that what I'm accomplishing is good...but I miss what I was able to do and I know I can achieve it again).

As far as trying something new, I plan on trying to incorporate another 1hr of cardio in the mornings...we'll see how that goes....by doing so I might be able to reduce the glider time by 15 to 20 minutes if I see the results are good..I may try it tomorrow morning or on Thursday morning depending on how my sleep is.

Regarding my back, I am still having pain with it and migraines and that concerns me. Years ago when the injury oringinally occured I endured 3 yrs of steady chronic pain...it was unbelievable. I think I will break down and go see the only guy who was able to work on my back and break the chronic pain cycle. I just have been waiting to see if it would settle down on it's own and it hasn't.

So in addition to my back, as you know I've had some medical issues over the last few months that I'm dealing with....as well as a few other things that have been weighing heavy on my mind. I find that stress is something that really can slow me down and so I think that in combination with all the stresses and the old injury and other medical challenges I can't focuss as hard as I have on what I need to accomplish in the exercise dept. My closest family and friends refer to me as the "Drill Sargeant"....I'm pretty tough and I am strong minded but I'm finding that the things that I use to accomplish that I'm not able to presently are making me frustrated because I'm letting other situations wear me down.

Sorry Georgiana....I've dumped a lot on you....I generally don't ever speak about stuff like this because I always push through but for the last few months the "sled is heavy" to push and I'm feeling bogged down....but I will continue.

I haven't given up and I keep exercising each night.

Thanks again, I really appreciate the ear and the support.

PS. I'm just at my office right now working so I haven't been able to re-check my message for gramatical errors or spelling....just ignore those!

Sarina
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Heaviest weight - 403 lbs. (2007)
April 1, 2008 - 387 lbs. (This is when I initially started to lose weight…but was not on Atkins at this point)
Atkins start weight – 347 lbs. (July 19, 2008 – began Atkins)
1st major goal met -----100 lbs. lost as of Oct 2, 2008 - Hit 300 lbs. on this day – From April 1-08 when I initially begin to lose weight.
2nd major goal met - 151 lbs. lost as of Jan 13, 2009 - Hit 249 lbs. on this day.
3rd major goal met - Wed, May 13-09 - Reached losing 200 lbs. in just over a year and a couple of months.
4th major goal met – Reached “Onederland” June 6-09 – 198 lbs.
5th major goal met - My 1 yr. Atkins anniversary - Weighing 184 lbs. this day
Current weight – 183 lbs.
Goal weight - 150 – 160

[Sarina D]

Re: What a night!

I think we can say crappy. We can't say though.

First of all I have to congratulate you on your success. Wowza. You've lost a lot of weight! On the exercise thing...well sometimes it just . <---that was the S word not the F word. I love strength training but abhor cardio. I have a bunch of different cardio DVDs to "inspire" me to workout. Sometimes they do and other times I just roll my eyes as I put one in the machine. Although I am liking Zumba a lot and I bought one of those Wii Fit things. Liking that a whole lot.

Anyways, I think a whole lot of us hate the exercise thing from time to time. Sorry you are feeling blue about your appearance. A whole lot of us really heavy folks know that feeling too.

Hope you have a better tomorrow and remember that your fish love you.

Mizski,

Man alive did I laugh when I read what you posted we that we "couldn't say"!!! I think I had tears in my eyes from that....I see we have quite a comedian on the board...I love it!!!!!

Thank you for your support, I won't lay on you what I did poor Georgiana but I thank you for taking the time out to read and post a message. As mentioned, I generally never say anything but it's been difficult recently and I felt I needed to blurt lastnight instead of keeping it all inside.

I've heard a few others on here mention Zumba...I will have to check that out...thanks for sharing this with me! It sounds like you're really enjoying it.....which is a bonus!

Yesterday I think what really brought things to a head was that I put a tank top on because it's an OVEN here right now...we're going through a heat wave. Anyway, I took one look at my arms and THAT did it for me. I can only speak for myself, but I won't wear tank tops out in public because of my arms. They've come a long way but are not where I feel comfortable showing them and THAT did it for me. I thought of all the exercise time I've logged in and all the weight I have lost and was angry that I can't wear something a little cooler out in public. I know, it may sound very silly but it's been quite a journey and I am grateful for what has been achieved.....just frustrated in the moment..I think between the stresses of all the other things and then the "tank top" ordeal in the heat, I just let the flood gates open last night.

Thank you again Mizski, I can't tell you how much your post meant/means to me.

Hugs,
Sarina
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Heaviest weight - 403 lbs. (2007)
April 1, 2008 - 387 lbs. (This is when I initially started to lose weight…but was not on Atkins at this point)
Atkins start weight – 347 lbs. (July 19, 2008 – began Atkins)
1st major goal met -----100 lbs. lost as of Oct 2, 2008 - Hit 300 lbs. on this day – From April 1-08 when I initially begin to lose weight.
2nd major goal met - 151 lbs. lost as of Jan 13, 2009 - Hit 249 lbs. on this day.
3rd major goal met - Wed, May 13-09 - Reached losing 200 lbs. in just over a year and a couple of months.
4th major goal met – Reached “Onederland” June 6-09 – 198 lbs.
5th major goal met - My 1 yr. Atkins anniversary - Weighing 184 lbs. this day
Current weight – 183 lbs.
Goal weight - 150 – 160

[chinadoll]

Re: What a night!

Sarina, I am the opposite--I can wear the tank but my legs haven't seen a pair of shorts since I was in college and I now have a son who has graduated from college! lol

[Sarina D]

Re: What a night!

You started out at 403 and you're now 183? Did I read that right?

You've lost 220 lbs.?

May I just say that you are

AMAZING.

You are a

Total. Freaking. Animal.

You are a

Stud.

You are

Unstoppable.

If you can drop 220 like a bad habit, you can certainly wage war against this negativity and emerge victorious on the other side.

Seriously, job terrifically well done. I am inspired.

Hi Shannon,

Thank you for you're wonderful message, I appreciate it very much....you're a doll!!!! Arrrrg, I felt so horrible last night, I can't even begin to describe it. I'm still not feeling the greatest but it's not as bad.....work has been extremely busy today and I've been trying to keep my mind on that.

Yes, I have lost 220 lbs that is correct and have 33 lbs. left to go for my original goal of 150 lbs. I want to try to get to 140 lbs now but hey, I will take 150, even 160 like I originally posted.

Thank you for the inspiration, I'm working on feeling unstoppable again...I just hope the feeling returns soon!

Thanks for stopping by and taking the time to give me a boost.

Stay in touch.

Sarina
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Heaviest weight - 403 lbs. (2007)
April 1, 2008 - 387 lbs. (This is when I initially started to lose weight…but was not on Atkins at this point)
Atkins start weight – 347 lbs. (July 19, 2008 – began Atkins)
1st major goal met -----100 lbs. lost as of Oct 2, 2008 - Hit 300 lbs. on this day – From April 1-08 when I initially begin to lose weight.
2nd major goal met - 151 lbs. lost as of Jan 13, 2009 - Hit 249 lbs. on this day.
3rd major goal met - Wed, May 13-09 - Reached losing 200 lbs. in just over a year and a couple of months.
4th major goal met – Reached “Onederland” June 6-09 – 198 lbs.
5th major goal met - My 1 yr. Atkins anniversary - Weighing 184 lbs. this day
Current weight – 183 lbs.
Goal weight - 150 – 160

[Sarina D]

Re: What a night!

I hope you meant "Filly" not "Stud".....Sarina is female!!!

Hey Carole,

Thanks for stopping by...hope you're having a great day!

Sarina
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Heaviest weight - 403 lbs. (2007)
April 1, 2008 - 387 lbs. (This is when I initially started to lose weight…but was not on Atkins at this point)
Atkins start weight – 347 lbs. (July 19, 2008 – began Atkins)
1st major goal met -----100 lbs. lost as of Oct 2, 2008 - Hit 300 lbs. on this day – From April 1-08 when I initially begin to lose weight.
2nd major goal met - 151 lbs. lost as of Jan 13, 2009 - Hit 249 lbs. on this day.
3rd major goal met - Wed, May 13-09 - Reached losing 200 lbs. in just over a year and a couple of months.
4th major goal met – Reached “Onederland” June 6-09 – 198 lbs.
5th major goal met - My 1 yr. Atkins anniversary - Weighing 184 lbs. this day
Current weight – 183 lbs.
Goal weight - 150 – 160

[Sarina D]

Re: What a night!

Oh Sarina, You have been such an inspiration to me and I feel for the crummy day you are having.

I know you don't feel like it but what I do is commit to just ten minutes of treadmill or whatever at an easy, don't really plan on pushing myself pace. Then (as you already know) once you actually start you feel better as you go. Part of my plan is getting the clothes on first thing in the morning --then I am halfway there. LOL

Your head already knows it, your will is just dragging its feet. Just do even 10 mins tonight so you don't have that mental zero in your head for today.

Sending HUGS and a shot of will your way.

Jill, I could just give you the biggest hug if you were in front of me right now...thank you for the lovely compliment...I feel the same about you, you're an amazing inspiration and I value you very much.

Work has been crazy today otherwise I would have responded sooner. I left the board open on my computer but just couldn't get back until now.

I think what you have described with how you exercise is brilliant! That's just it....not getting overwhelmed with what has to be done. I find that I have been getting overwhelmed because of not being able to split my exercise sessions up into the morning and night.

If I could get back into that routine (exercising early before I go to work and then when I get home after work) things would be so much easier. I just haven't been able to do that, hopefully that can change in the next couple of days. I'm going to try something new in the morning as well and that is to incorporate another hour of cardio. I find I lose so much better with more cardio yet on the other hand I don't want to give up the weights and other exercises.

I received your other message about the tank and shorts....I hear you girl, I've got that whole thing goin' on too!!! LOL! I just won't even go there (the leg department) because I highly doubt I will ever be able to wear shorts, I thankfully can wear capris. You wore shorts in college?!?!? You hottie you!!!!

I think the last time I wore shorts was when I was 6 months old I'm serious! I think I have tree trunk legs......I will eat my "shorts" if I'm EVER able to wear them! I couldn't even dream of that concept at this time LOL!!!! I would be seriously stunned if I ever see the day I can wear shorts.

Thanks again Jill, lots of love and hugs to you!

Sarina
-----------------------
Heaviest weight - 403 lbs. (2007)
April 1, 2008 - 387 lbs. (This is when I initially started to lose weight…but was not on Atkins at this point)
Atkins start weight – 347 lbs. (July 19, 2008 – began Atkins)
1st major goal met -----100 lbs. lost as of Oct 2, 2008 - Hit 300 lbs. on this day – From April 1-08 when I initially begin to lose weight.
2nd major goal met - 151 lbs. lost as of Jan 13, 2009 - Hit 249 lbs. on this day.
3rd major goal met - Wed, May 13-09 - Reached losing 200 lbs. in just over a year and a couple of months.
4th major goal met – Reached “Onederland” June 6-09 – 198 lbs.
5th major goal met - My 1 yr. Atkins anniversary - Weighing 184 lbs. this day
Current weight – 183 lbs.
Goal weight - 150 – 160