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So I just thought I'd post this and this will probably be my last post on here, but this has been an amazing forum and everyone has been so lovely and the support we all give each other is amazing so keep it up and good luck to everyone 
I'm going to share my story with you, sorry if its a little long but hey ho....
This time last year I decided to lose weight, probably not for the best of reasons..my partner had an affair and I found out looking at his old phone bills as I was clearing out our "rubbish draw" anyway, I decided at 117 Ibs I was fat and so started Atkins
in two months I'd lost 13 Ibs YAY but it started to slow down...so I up'd my exercise...and decided that I wanted to lose another few pounds (I was already 104 Ibs)
So I decided my food had to change and so the bad times began...I cut all fat out, only ate protein at lunch, no dairy, no treats nothing...oh I lost the weight alright! And I also lost a good portion of my hair, my finger and toe nails fell out and my periods stopped..I'd got to 91 Ibs by eating some days a few asparagus shoots! I was starving myself and no longer doing atkins...I loved what the scale said but I was disgusted at my mirror image, my ribs poked out I had no breasts and to be honest I was a depressed and a miserable shadow of my self. My skin took on a yellow tinge and my eyes looked sunken...yeah sure I was a size zero but I looked a mess!
Then one day I was at my lovely mums house, everyone was eating risotto..something clicked inside me and so I had a bowl...and another bowl and another bowl! The pain in my stomach after eating was terrible...I was so sick and everything came back up again
I'd really messed my body up..I hated myself...and so the chewing and spitting started...I would chew cookies, chocolate, bread, pasta just for the taste and then spit it out...then after a while I stopped spitting and began eating..I binged big time, I had no control over myself...my mind was screwed up and so was my body..I put on 13Ibs and although I looked so much better again I hated that I couldn't fit into my clothes..the binging kept on..until after one bout I tried to make myself sick...sitting on the bathroom floor crying I called my mum and asked for help! She came over like a fairy god mother!
That was about 4 months ago....I'm now back at my original weight of 117 Ibs. I drifted to and fro from Atkins, to calorie restricted diets to still binging...Its so hard! I've finally admitted to myself that I had and have an eating disorder..my relationship with food is very unhealthy, I have become consumed with thoughts of food, feeling hungry when I'm not and to be honest just not knowing what the **** to eat. I wandered around the supermarket the other day with an apple and a tin of tuna in my basket for about an hour But I'm trying to get better, I go to counseling every week and we re working on my nutrition and more of the physiological aspects of this problem.
I guess I'm writing this to air it and as a warning...sure do Atkins but 1) Do it for the right reasons 2) Be very careful of how you do it 3) Be happy when you think your near goal...keep grounded and unlike me don't go too far.
Thanks for reading this, I hope if anyone is feeling like this or is on the same path as I was that you'd PM me and we can chat it through.
Anyway, over and out from the UK....It's raining...what a surprise!
I'm going to share my story with you, sorry if its a little long but hey ho....
This time last year I decided to lose weight, probably not for the best of reasons..my partner had an affair and I found out looking at his old phone bills as I was clearing out our "rubbish draw" anyway, I decided at 117 Ibs I was fat and so started Atkins
in two months I'd lost 13 Ibs YAY but it started to slow down...so I up'd my exercise...and decided that I wanted to lose another few pounds (I was already 104 Ibs) So I decided my food had to change and so the bad times began...I cut all fat out, only ate protein at lunch, no dairy, no treats nothing...oh I lost the weight alright! And I also lost a good portion of my hair, my finger and toe nails fell out and my periods stopped..I'd got to 91 Ibs by eating some days a few asparagus shoots! I was starving myself and no longer doing atkins...I loved what the scale said but I was disgusted at my mirror image, my ribs poked out I had no breasts and to be honest I was a depressed and a miserable shadow of my self. My skin took on a yellow tinge and my eyes looked sunken...yeah sure I was a size zero but I looked a mess!
Then one day I was at my lovely mums house, everyone was eating risotto..something clicked inside me and so I had a bowl...and another bowl and another bowl! The pain in my stomach after eating was terrible...I was so sick and everything came back up again
I'd really messed my body up..I hated myself...and so the chewing and spitting started...I would chew cookies, chocolate, bread, pasta just for the taste and then spit it out...then after a while I stopped spitting and began eating..I binged big time, I had no control over myself...my mind was screwed up and so was my body..I put on 13Ibs and although I looked so much better again I hated that I couldn't fit into my clothes..the binging kept on..until after one bout I tried to make myself sick...sitting on the bathroom floor crying I called my mum and asked for help! She came over like a fairy god mother! That was about 4 months ago....I'm now back at my original weight of 117 Ibs. I drifted to and fro from Atkins, to calorie restricted diets to still binging...Its so hard!
I've finally admitted to myself that I had and have an eating disorder..my relationship with food is very unhealthy, I have become consumed with thoughts of food, feeling hungry when I'm not and to be honest just not knowing what the **** to eat. I wandered around the supermarket the other day with an apple and a tin of tuna in my basket for about an hour But I'm trying to get better, I go to counseling every week and we re working on my nutrition and more of the physiological aspects of this problem.I guess I'm writing this to air it and as a warning...sure do Atkins but 1) Do it for the right reasons 2) Be very careful of how you do it 3) Be happy when you think your near goal...keep grounded and unlike me don't go too far.
Thanks for reading this, I hope if anyone is feeling like this or is on the same path as I was that you'd PM me and we can chat it through.
Anyway, over and out from the UK....It's raining...what a surprise!
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