Feel so bad..

[jigglypuff]

I cheated last night and today! I thought I would just go back today but I didnt and I feel so horrible after I ate all of those carbs I felt so deppressed..I just started crying... its like a hopeless switch was triggered by the carbs. Its weird everytime I get to 191 I cheat and I havent been able to get past it... that number is like something I dont know if I will ever be able to get past.... The lowest weight I have been is 142 but I cant even get down to 189 without cheating. I feel so alone! I will try again before I gain all of this weight back due to my sad feelings.

[atkinsgal08]

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Did you cheat just because you saw a number on the scale?

If that's the case, then put the scale away.

If you cheated for other reasons, then you need to deal with those reasons. Journaling can be good for that.

[poobears1972]

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You are definitely NOT alone, we are all here to support you and listen to you. I can kind of relate. Everytime I got near 155 I'd blow it, I got near there so many times and even hit it once but couldn't break through it. I think it's some kind of mental block. I don't know what it could be but now that I'm through it I feel like I can make it all the way. Now it's just a #, no big deal.

I agree with putting away the scale if its the trigger. Talking to friends online and to DH when I got near it this time really helped. I was able to stick to plan and stay focuse. When I broke through it I didn't even realize it until later in the day when I was thinking about my morning/weekly weigh in. I realized 154 was less than 155 Duh! LOL

You can do it. You didn't give up totally or you wouldn't have come back here. The fact you came back and posted shows deep down you want to make this work. Grab onto that resolve and get back on plan now, not tomorrow, now.

[jigglypuff]

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I dont think its the scale.. I think I get down to the number where I start feeling healthier again and it is like oh I can cheat just this once.. I think it is that i am feeling so much better with a little weight off of me that I forget that I have to keep it up.. I dont know if that makes sense but after I posted this I went and walked a mile on a local walking path.. I feel much better no more cheating! thanks for the responses! maybe I will journal atkins gal sounds like a good idea!

[lannerjarv]

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I dont think its the scale.. I think I get down to the number where I start feeling healthier again and it is like oh I can cheat just this once.. I think it is that i am feeling so much better with a little weight off of me that I forget that I have to keep it up.. I dont know if that makes sense but after I posted this I went and walked a mile on a local walking path.. I feel much better no more cheating! thanks for the responses! maybe I will journal atkins gal sounds like a good idea!

i do this exactly. i get to a size where i'm feeling cute again, and healthy and then go out of control with my eating and forget i have a gym membership.

this woe however is encouraging me to keep plugging away. i've been sitting at 196 now for almost 2 weeks, and with encouragement from ppl on here have just kept up what i'm doing and it will fall off eventually.

what you could also do is buy a cute clothing item in a couple sizes too small. use that as your goal for now rather than a number on the scale.

[poobears1972]

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Yeah it's hard when you hit your comfortable with yourself (for now) weight. I agree with the clothes. Give yourself a non # goal. Buy something you know you will absolutely love to wear and next time you want to cheat imagine yourself in it. Do whatever it takes, we know you can do it.

[liv]

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Hope you are having a great day today. Walking was a good idea.

[ellenw12345]

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You are NOT ALONE!! We're all here deciding hour by hour to not do carbs. I haven't made it to the weight where I will start to think "I've made it".. "Good enough" but I know the time will come and I know I can turn to you all for support. THANKS!

Good for you on the walk! Good for you for starting again! It's tough! Congrats on reaching the "trigger" weight and this time turning the corner and saying "This time I'm going to do it". You did it!

[Dryunderwater]

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Yay for your honesty jigglypuff!!!! You can do this. When you learned to ride a bike as a little girl, I'm sure you fell off, but you got back on that bike and learned how to ride. We are not perfect people, we are perfectly imperfect. I don't even know you and I believe in you. So....Keep the faith!!!!!

Best Wishes!

[jigglypuff]

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Thanks everyone for the encouraging responses! They really do mean alot to me!