So I started back on Atkins after having the baby, was on a week and then went to my Dr. and he put me on a very low calorie diet. Well I am STARVING!! I am going to go against that and start back on Atkins tomorrow. I feel like I am drowning. I need to have surgery but I can not have the surgery until I am 255 lbs. then my BMI will be in the "safe" range for anesthesia. And I feel like I will never even get to that. And talk about having your rock bottom moment! I have never been so humiliated in my life! Could you imagine how embarrassing it would be to be told you are too fat to have surgery?! I guess you know you have a real problem when you can't even have surgery because of your weight! I could have just disappeared when he was telling me that. I have all my groceries bout I need to start tomorrow. So the plan is just to get back to it, drink lots of water, and exercise. I have been doing my elliptical because its to cold to walk with the baby right now. But I can only do eight minutes on the elliptical right now before I am so pooped! Sorry to complain I just truly feel like I am stuck and I will never get rid of this weight!






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