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Re: 2008 I Am Worth It Challenge
Apologize for the length.
1.Why you became overweight? Be as specific as you feel comfortable sharing.
We all have situations in our child hood that contributed to the way we are today. Mine involved every type of abuse you can think of. I was a heavy kid, wearing a size 18 as an 11 year old. I remember sneaking food such as ice cream, milk etc. AS an example, my mother would buy powder milk and not allow us to drink “her” real milk. Therefore, food became an obsession early on. I ran away from home and was put into foster care at 13. Several homes later, I found a wonderful Christian woman who took me in. She had two grand daughters and her daughter (her husband went to law school) that lived with her, they were 1-2 years apart in age from me and perfect small sizes.
I went from a size 18 to a size 2 in a matter of a month or two. My obsession with food grew. I would eat one meal a day but it would be tiny bites of something. I still would sneak food. I recall an incident with chocolate syrup. I sneaked the chocolate syrup into the bathroom…shook it…it exploded all over the walls (no joke). I tried to clean it all up but apparently missed some. My foster mom’s daughter came into the bathroom later and freaked out since it looked like something else. Needless to say, I was grounded after confession
Funny now, at the time I was mortified!
Fast forward through two pregnancies, again I obsessed about food and dropped my baby weight very quickly but was not healthy. My ex husband would tell me (I was a size 6), “you look fat in that” or “that makes your hips look huge” I remember gorging on food and then making myself get sick in order to get it out of my stomach I gained approx. 30 pounds. I met my now husband and put on more weight when we got pregnant. So here I am, 5 years after his birth and finally doing something about it. There are days that I can feel the weakness in me wanting to go back to not eating or making myself get sick, and then I step back and get real with myself. I was not healthy and I really hated myself back then!
2. What event and/or thoughts led you to start a weight loss journey? Include any information you would like to share about the first time you read Dr. Atkins New Diet Revolution. such as inspiration, ease of this woe, etc.
I applied in Jan 08 for disability insurance in case something happened, you never know. I was denied because I was “morbidly obese”. That letter was a wake up call. Morbidly obese meant that I was at risk of dying and leaving my boys without their mother. I searched my house because I knew my husband had a copy of Dr. Atkins book. I could not find it, so got online and did a lot of research. This was one of the sites that I bookmarked. I would browse for hours through the before and afters. The sad thing about it, I got the “wake up call” but did not act on it until July. I looked into the mirror and saw my mother. She is over 250 pounds. I finally told myself, you are the only one that can do this. I then joined the site and picked up the book from half price and started immediately reading.
3. Have you been committed since your journey began? If not, what caused you to veer off track?
Amazingly I have been on track. I do have problems with adding in exercise and staying committed. The food, I am good. In the past, I would starve myself …I commented today to a friend that I still can not believe I can have some of the things I eat. I am not going to say temptation is never there, but seems the more I stick to it, the easier it is getting.
4. Taking a good hard look at your present self, are you happy with your progress?
Heck yes. I am losing slowly but I am convinced slow is better than fast. I do not seem to be having any lose skin and I love seeing that double chin disappear!
5. Are you doing what needs to be done, to insure your future is the final destination that you invisioned for yourself?
Yes I believe so. In the past, my idea of a diet was starving myself or making myself get rid of what I put in my stomach. It was not a lifestyle that I was proud of. My future is being a role model for my children. Showing them that healthy is much better than a quick unhealthy win.
Apologize for the length.
1.Why you became overweight? Be as specific as you feel comfortable sharing.
We all have situations in our child hood that contributed to the way we are today. Mine involved every type of abuse you can think of. I was a heavy kid, wearing a size 18 as an 11 year old. I remember sneaking food such as ice cream, milk etc. AS an example, my mother would buy powder milk and not allow us to drink “her” real milk. Therefore, food became an obsession early on. I ran away from home and was put into foster care at 13. Several homes later, I found a wonderful Christian woman who took me in. She had two grand daughters and her daughter (her husband went to law school) that lived with her, they were 1-2 years apart in age from me and perfect small sizes.
I went from a size 18 to a size 2 in a matter of a month or two. My obsession with food grew. I would eat one meal a day but it would be tiny bites of something. I still would sneak food. I recall an incident with chocolate syrup. I sneaked the chocolate syrup into the bathroom…shook it…it exploded all over the walls (no joke). I tried to clean it all up but apparently missed some. My foster mom’s daughter came into the bathroom later and freaked out since it looked like something else. Needless to say, I was grounded after confession
Funny now, at the time I was mortified!Fast forward through two pregnancies, again I obsessed about food and dropped my baby weight very quickly but was not healthy. My ex husband would tell me (I was a size 6), “you look fat in that” or “that makes your hips look huge” I remember gorging on food and then making myself get sick in order to get it out of my stomach I gained approx. 30 pounds. I met my now husband and put on more weight when we got pregnant. So here I am, 5 years after his birth and finally doing something about it. There are days that I can feel the weakness in me wanting to go back to not eating or making myself get sick, and then I step back and get real with myself. I was not healthy and I really hated myself back then!
2. What event and/or thoughts led you to start a weight loss journey? Include any information you would like to share about the first time you read Dr. Atkins New Diet Revolution. such as inspiration, ease of this woe, etc.
I applied in Jan 08 for disability insurance in case something happened, you never know. I was denied because I was “morbidly obese”. That letter was a wake up call. Morbidly obese meant that I was at risk of dying and leaving my boys without their mother. I searched my house because I knew my husband had a copy of Dr. Atkins book. I could not find it, so got online and did a lot of research. This was one of the sites that I bookmarked. I would browse for hours through the before and afters. The sad thing about it, I got the “wake up call” but did not act on it until July. I looked into the mirror and saw my mother. She is over 250 pounds. I finally told myself, you are the only one that can do this. I then joined the site and picked up the book from half price and started immediately reading.
3. Have you been committed since your journey began? If not, what caused you to veer off track?
Amazingly I have been on track. I do have problems with adding in exercise and staying committed. The food, I am good. In the past, I would starve myself …I commented today to a friend that I still can not believe I can have some of the things I eat. I am not going to say temptation is never there, but seems the more I stick to it, the easier it is getting.
4. Taking a good hard look at your present self, are you happy with your progress?
Heck yes. I am losing slowly but I am convinced slow is better than fast. I do not seem to be having any lose skin and I love seeing that double chin disappear!
5. Are you doing what needs to be done, to insure your future is the final destination that you invisioned for yourself?
Yes I believe so. In the past, my idea of a diet was starving myself or making myself get rid of what I put in my stomach. It was not a lifestyle that I was proud of. My future is being a role model for my children. Showing them that healthy is much better than a quick unhealthy win.
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