Just want to talk

[Tania]

And here I am sitting – 10:30 in the evening – kids and hubby asleep – and I am checking out that chocolate bar next to hubby on the bedside table …. NO, don’t worry, I won’t do anything (like eating it) …. I’m just watching it !!!

I’m a little depressed and down and just need to get something of my chest before I go to bed, and sorry, but ADBB is the only “person” that will listen to me this time of the night. Ok, you don’t have to read further ….. it’s going to get boring!

I’m just feeling sorry for myself (****, if I don’t, who will). Went to visit hubby at his shop today. He’s got his own electrical business. Well, he recently appointed a new girl to help with sales in the store. Yes, I’ve met her a week or so after she started working there, but today I had a good look at her.

Yuk!!! She’s young and THIN!!! How thin?? Well, here in SA, she is probably is size 6 or 30. And here I am, a whopping size 18 or 42!!! Ok, hubby has never said anything about my weight and he is actually always telling me that I am beautiful (and all that). So why am I feeling like this? I don’t know …. Maybe, like I said before … I just want to feel sorry for myself for a few seconds and then I might feel better. OK, so I am doing something about it, but it just feel as if this is going to take forever!

Hey, I am actually doing very good – normally when I felt like this, I would grab a bag of potato chips and a chocolate to sooth the down side of life. And look at me now, I’ve chosen ADBB for support, and not food!!

But, I’ve worked hard to stay on the diet and the 6-weeks exercise challenge. I will make it, and I will give hubby something to look at …. In a few months time. He promised me a boob-job (reduction) once I’ve reached my goal weight, so, I have something to work towards (ok, and my health, and all the other things too), but sometimes one just needs that little extra motivation from outside.

Hope I haven’t bored anyone, but I just needed to tell somebody. Thanks for listening.

Going to grab my last glass of water, and go to bed.

Hope you all had a wonderful Thanksgiving!

[Brook]

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(((((Tania))))))

[Ninane]

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Tania, ek hoop jy voel beter teen die tyd wat jy hierdie lees, ek is jammer jy voel sleg. Jy gaan in elk geval gat skop as jy hier klaar is, dan is sy die jaloerse een, want jy het die lyf en die man!! Sterkte, en good for you dat jy net vir die choc kyk!! Trots op jou. Hoe gaan dit sover met die loss? Hoop goed, ek het 5 verloor sover maar is stuck vir die laaste week. Lekker slaap, ek gaan ook nou, dis al amper 12 uur..

[Piasabird]

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Happy Thanksgiving, Tania!

[cleochatra]

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{{{Tania}}} You know, the drudgery really sets in once the Atkins induction honeymoon is over. It does. The weight isn't like DROPPING off at every juncture, and dangit, there are some days you just don't want to exercise anymore. What's the point? Who cares?

Well, we care. We're here pulling for you every step of the way!

You can do this! Even on the days that seem incredibly pointless, try to imagine that you're in the last week of that exercise challenge and you really want to turn in some outstanding results! Push a little harder! Play those little mind games with yourself, and use that power for good when you feel like everything else is going bad.

I know you are going through so much, and that even while thin you'll have trials to face. Facing them now ensures that you'll never go back to food for comfort. You are becoming stronger everyday that you don't cave in, and I promise you that it will become easier with everyday you remain true to yourself and to this way of eating.

You can do it. You're worth it. We know it.

{{{Tania}}}

[cleochatra]

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So how you doing sweetie pea?

[2big4mysize]

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Did you guard the candy well?

[Tania]

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Hi everyone,

Thank you all for listening to my blabbering and for the support. I’m doing much better today – had my 30-minute walk this morning and actually jogged a short distance. SO, I’m getting there … slowly!!

I did not touch the candy! Oh, I am so proud. Woke up this morning and put what was left right back into the cupboard.

ADBB is the best thing that happened to me. Previously I would have given in to the urge to grab that chocolate bar and scuff it down my throat, but reading the posts and seeing how well everyone else is doing, kept me from my usual depression binging. In the first place I did not want to disappoint any of the ADBB readers – ok, so I could have lied, or not have said a word, but whom will I be lying too …. Only myself!! And then I will be back at square 1 and all my hard work and determination would have been for nothing.

OK, so there are thin people all around us, we cannot do anything about that, but we can do something about ourselves, to feel better about the way we feel and look.

I am going to put an extra effort in these last few weeks before Christmas. I will make this work, and the kg (or pounds) will start to go down.

Just want to know, are these depression-sessions a regular thing on Atkins? Cannot remember from the 1st time I’ve been on Atkins (this long) if I’ve had these down times and depressions?

Brook - thanks for the hug. Just for info ... I've ordered 3 exercise DVD's and got them yesterday. So my sister and I will probably start doing them next week. Reading your posts inspired us to do this.

Ninane - Sjoe, jy is ook maar lekker laat wakker. Dankie dat jy ook na my gebabbel geluister het. Goed om te weet dat daar mense is wat deur dieselfde gaan as ons. Lekker dag!


Cleo – thank you for your support. You know just what to say to lift a person up from that down, dark feelings. I love all your inspirational posts.

2big - as you can see - I overcame the urge of the chocolate

[Tania]

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Oh my, I forgot to say thank you to Piasabird
We don't celebrate Thanksgiving in SA, but I hope you've had a wonderful and blessed Thanksgiving too.

[KarinP]

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Aaaw, if I knew you felt this way this morning when we went for our jog I would have given you a great big hug … o no, you still have those chickenpox germs hanging around you , so I will just hug you here …

((((((((((Tania))))))))))

[Jasmain]

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Ohhhhh Tania, believe me, I understand completely, and just know, you are doing everything you can to get to where you need to be. I've seen thin women and just wanted to strangle them and even the odds a bit! We are SO proud of you for not grabbing that candy! Just think, in a few months, YOU could be the one someone wants to strangle! Well, that doesn't exactly sound appealing, but I hope you get my point! If you ever need to talk some more, I think you can see this is the place to be! The people here are wonderful, even my little Kricket is impressed with your willpower (see siggy). One day at a time, and if need be, one moment at a time.

[Moochiecat]

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Well, I can't speak for others, but I don't think it's at all uncommon to have a bit of 'depression' during the journey.
In the beginning, I wasn't so much depressed as I was in mourning for the loss of all my old sweet treat friends. I still miss them in some ways, but mostly I think I just miss the wanton gluttony where I would allow myself to eat whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted and pretend like it never happened. I can clearly see now that those 'friends' of mine were not good for me so that makes it easier, but I still can get nostalgic when I walk through the grocery store..lol.

And it can be easy to get down on yourself when you are on a plateau, so prepare yourself for that. It's like watching paint dry, and you just have to be patient. One way to combat this is to focus on how far you've come and think about where you are headed. You'll get there!

[2big4mysize]

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woo hoo for you. Glad you didn't eat that candy.

So what exercise challenges are y'all joining with those new videos? all the challenges are open enrollment so jump right in and make yourselves known.

One thing you need to remember about your new way of eating. Just because you are doing Atkins doesn't mean verything happening to you is because of the Atkins just as everything that happened to you before you started Atkins wan'rt caused by your eatting. SOme folk mistakenly think the neirotransmitters serotonin is made from carbs and when you low carb your levels go kaput. it is actually produced from an animo acid forumd in milk cheese some nuts and poultry known as tritophan ( everybody who had turkey yesterday got a big dose of it.) if you know you need more serotonin because of past depression issues then eat more of those protein foods and your production should be fine. Exercise will produce some lovely bran chemicals to lift your mood too.

CHICKENPOX GERMS???? I hope that was somebody in your household and not you. illness can trigger changews in other body systems and effect mood.

Happy low carbing

[Tania]

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Hi 2big,

I know that Low Carb is not to blame for the moods, but usually (an bare with me here) when the big D struck, things like bread, potatoes, chocolates, etc. kind of calmed and soothed. Now, I don’t have those things to fall back on, and I have to face the music. But this too will get better (I hope).

Not sure what other exercise challenges are available that will fall into these categories. We’ve bought a callanetics video, a Gym Ball Inch Loss video and an Isoflex video. All of them are low impact exercises. I cannot do high impact at the moment (too fat and the knees and lower back are giving problems because of the weight), but once the weight is off, high impact it will be!!!

I am really serious this time, and I will get thin and sexy again – I will walk into that store and buy the normal sizes off the shelve and I will never go back to the Donna Claire section (this is our size 40+ range in SA). And yes, I was tempted to take a bite from that chocolate, but today, I am glad that I did not.

Thank you again for being there …. I don’t thing you know how much I appreciate you all!!!

Chickenpox, my baby (15 months) has chickenpox, but luckily not to bad. A spot here and there, he is quite miserable because of the itching. But I have ointment for the itching which seems to help.

[2big4mysize]

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oh I hope the little one is feeling better soon.

Want me to explain why those starch foods made you feel better in easy to understand words? it is part of ther setting the stage for the tryptophan to get to the reaction sites for making the serotonin. insulin pulls not only sugars from the blood stream, but many amino acids as well. tryptophan isn't one of them so it stays there and can react with the making sites all by iself. less competiton for the sites more gets made sooner. Your Dr Brain knows your body can do this so when you are depressed it wants to make you feel better so it prescribs those foods and poof you get a rush of feeling good neurotransmitters. What it doesn't tell you is this is a temporary effect adn in an hour or 2 you will again need a carby fix to clear the system again.

If you are really feeling depression talk with your doctor and rule out all the medical conditions like amenia and hypothyroid that can cause depression like symptoms and then get treated cause carb eating is a quick temp fix and you will be jonesing for a hit again just like a drug addict does.

Now about that exercise who said you had to do high impack. you do what ever exercise level you need to do and as you get in better shape you do more. I've got bad knees and have been low impact from day one but as I got in better shape and goot smaller my time and speed picked up yours will to. Exercise balls are great and even Brook has callanetics videos so just as the NIKE commercial said DO it sign up tell them Hey I'm joining and this is what I'm doing. come sign up for the ADBB PRES CHALLENGE the 6WEC the walnut cracking one and any other one you can find. they might even let you in the house of pain SI6 with your callanetics video what have you got to lose but some of yourself so come on.