I Am So Upset With Myself!

[mwalsh95]

I had a fight with my husband and went hog wild. I ate a piece of cheesecake, cheetos, an icecream drumstick and some cookies. I feel like CRAP !!! I have been so strong and now so weak. I know I'll dust myself off and get back on the wagon, but what makes us do this? My head is killing me, I am sooo tired and my stomach is really upset. I guess if anything I REALLY know what carbs do to me. I DON"T LIKE THE CARB COMA!!!! Thanks for listening to me rant!

[brabea22]

Re: I Am So Upset With Myself!

I am sorry you had such a stressful time. Eating when emotions are running wild is very commonplace here, but you have a valuable piece of information before you now. You know now that even when you are feeling at your strongest, you have to plan for the emotional rollercoasters that will surely come in your future. I am very much like you in that I am very strong when I am on plan, but during emotional times, my strength sort of vanishes.
The key is PLANNING. Sit down right now and make a plan of action for the next time this happens. If you plan ahead, then you save yourself the guilt and leave this with a feeling of accomplishment!
Some things that I have done during stressful situations are going to the park for a stroll, heading to the mall to walk off the stress, or going swimming. I have even prepared myself on days that I felt like I was more likely to get in an argument. On my daughter's report card day, I always have the fridge stocked with plenty of veggies and legal foods. If I couldn't control myself and decided to medicate with food, I picked up the mixed green salad instead of the carb-laden garbage. Sure, I had more veggies on that day than I was supposed to have, but six cups of veggies didn't set me back nearly as badly as the slice of pie would have.
Hope the flu passes quickly! Keep working; you can do this!

[dreamof145]

Re: I Am So Upset With Myself!

Don't beat yourself up over it. Its history. But, what I'd hightly recommend that you do is prepared for the next time that your day isn't going so good. Make a plan. Write down what you will do when you are unhappy, depressed, angry or just not feeling like you are worth the effort to stay on this WOE. Write it out, post it in your journal or on your closet door. IF and when the time comes, instead of reaching for food....reach for your plan.

Mine lists things to do when I am not happy. For instance, take a 15 minute walk and think over the problem. Write out my feelings and thoughts. drink water. Meditate. Exercise. call a friend. Go into ADBB and talk with people in chat or post my frustrations to get positive support. If you have a written plan, it is easier to get through the hard times.

My plan has always been my salvation as far as staying on my WOE. My plan includes all of you and the support that has helped me not give up. We all have times when we feel tempted -- the secret is the action we take at that time. Having a plan makes all the difference. You are worth it, make an emergency plan.

[mwalsh95]

Re: I Am So Upset With Myself!

Thank you so much!! I never thought of setting a plan of action when something like this happens. You learn something new everyday. My biggest challenge will be to get my hot-headness under control because that doesn't make the situation any better. Now that the weather is getting better the idea of a walk will be great. Thanks again. I'm not going to beat myself up anymore!!!