I'm so disgusted with myself.

[FishiesAreCute]

I had a lot of success with the Atkins WOL in May/June of 2004. I went from a 20 to a 12 and I looked great and felt great. Well, I went to college, stayed the same weight -- I was so proud -- but then I got engaged and got pregnant. Nothing has been the same since. I was 215 at the time before I got pregnant. By the end of my pregnancy I had skyrocketed to 294 pounds and barely could move. I was put on bedrest. It wasn't because of overeating, but it was because I was pre-eclampsic, I had gestational diabetes and water retention up the YOU KNOW WHAT!! My blood pressure was sky freakin high. After pregnancy I just never was the same and it's depressing me. I look TERRIBLE. I'm 244 right now and I just want to be thin again. My daughter is 3 months old today, and I want to be fit and thin by the time she's old enough to want me to play with her. I want to have fun with her, run around, do fun stuff, but I'm afraid if I don't do something about my weight, I won't get to. It's already effecting me negatively. I went to the doctor with severe foot/ankle pain recently, and he said the weight is putting stress on my ankles. I'm developing severe arthritis and collapsing arches because of my weight. If I don't do something about it soon I'll be in severe pain and I won't be able to do the things I want to do with my daughter. My weight is endangering me!! That's my motivation. My baby.

Heres some pictures.

Before I started on the Atkins WOL the first time

Dec 2003. A few months before I started the WOL the first time.




May (ish) before I started.


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(more pix in the post belw)

[FishiesAreCute]

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During WOL (Still on induction) right before college.








still more below

[FishiesAreCute]

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Right before I got pregnant. (Im in the pink)


WHILE PREGNANT

this is a good one to show how i was





Just a few more below

[FishiesAreCute]

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After Pregnancy

[Kent]

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Welcome back. It's always good when past members show up -- no matter what the circumstances. Life has a way of throwing curveballs. You're back and taking control of the situation that is all that matters not what might have occured in the meantime. We all face setbacks, but the successful ones are the ones not satisfied with status quo but want to make it better. I am glad you made that decision as well.

[Sheshy]

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Hi Fishies and welcome back to and Atkins!

Well, you had some fantastic success in 2004, that's great! I love the pic's of you and your DD, she's adorable (and so are you!)!!

Did you start Induction this last week?

If you're interested in journaling, check out the Journal Chat and Journal Stats in the Miscellaneous Forum...

[FishiesAreCute]

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I started this past week, yes. Though, I did have one set back when some family members surprised us with fried chicken the other day. I tried not to, but I had to. lol That's exactly what I CANNOT do. I cannot get tempted like that. But now that I know my weight is endangering my future with my daughter, I will behave and not venture off. I think I needed that reality kick in the butt.