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Hi everyone,
I chose a name that would be an insperation to me on my way to a slimmer & more energetic self, but one that would also reflect what I have been able to do once I reach GOAL: luv2Bthin, so, here goes:
I am SOOOOOOO in trouble, I can hardly believe it. I think I've been in denial for so long, it's really hard to look at yourself in a new way.
I KNOW i'm overweight, but it's like that part of me is seperate from the rest of me, you know? I can actually look at myself in the mirror, and think " wellll, I'm big, but not THAT big!" I look at The Biggest Loser on telly, see someone that's about the same weight I am, and STILL think, heck she looks bad, at least I look much better even though I weigh the same - odd, but good on me, must have really good genes or something!
Then I just continue the way I always do, KNOWING I'm FAT, but looking at it through rose-colored glasses.
THEN..... We were looking at some home-videos my DH shot over the Christmas period, where we were at a fair, with lost of other people around, children running, rides going around & around, and me walking into the shot and passing from left to right with my back to the camera, and then it hit me.
I've got an arse big enough to hide a barn behind! Isn't it funny how the first time you look at yourself from the same viewpoint as everyone else would - in context - among all the other normal weighted, some skinny and some heavy people, you suddenly realize how enormous you are compared to the rest of them.
No kidding, but I must have been one of the three biggest people there!
So, now I know that I am HUGE, no way of getting around that any more, and I KNOW I need to make a change, the problem is just this: I have been looking at myself through the same rosecoloured glassess for so long, it is hard to do a 180 in my mindset.
I have been this weight for close on 4 years, and even though I wear a size 20 pants, I still FEEL like I did when I wore a size 14.
I am SOOOOO scared that I will not be able to do this, I know I need to lose the weight on a logical basis - I DO weigh twice what I am supposed to, so logically I need to lose the weight, right?
It's just that it still doesn't quite FEEL real - as I said denial!
I HAVE TO DO THIS, I am terrible at going alone, so I hope you guys will be able to drag me along & give me a nice little kick in the behind when I need it, and ALL the advice in the world will help.
STATS:
I am 33 years old, 5'2 and weigh 254.6 pounds and according to my length, 130 pounds would do nicely on my frame - so I literally would have to get rid of half of myself.
Thanks & see you on the forums!
I chose a name that would be an insperation to me on my way to a slimmer & more energetic self, but one that would also reflect what I have been able to do once I reach GOAL: luv2Bthin, so, here goes:
I am SOOOOOOO in trouble, I can hardly believe it. I think I've been in denial for so long, it's really hard to look at yourself in a new way.
I KNOW i'm overweight, but it's like that part of me is seperate from the rest of me, you know? I can actually look at myself in the mirror, and think " wellll, I'm big, but not THAT big!" I look at The Biggest Loser on telly, see someone that's about the same weight I am, and STILL think, heck she looks bad, at least I look much better even though I weigh the same - odd, but good on me, must have really good genes or something!
Then I just continue the way I always do, KNOWING I'm FAT, but looking at it through rose-colored glasses.
THEN..... We were looking at some home-videos my DH shot over the Christmas period, where we were at a fair, with lost of other people around, children running, rides going around & around, and me walking into the shot and passing from left to right with my back to the camera, and then it hit me.
I've got an arse big enough to hide a barn behind! Isn't it funny how the first time you look at yourself from the same viewpoint as everyone else would - in context - among all the other normal weighted, some skinny and some heavy people, you suddenly realize how enormous you are compared to the rest of them.
No kidding, but I must have been one of the three biggest people there!So, now I know that I am HUGE, no way of getting around that any more, and I KNOW I need to make a change, the problem is just this: I have been looking at myself through the same rosecoloured glassess for so long, it is hard to do a 180 in my mindset.
I have been this weight for close on 4 years, and even though I wear a size 20 pants, I still FEEL like I did when I wore a size 14.
I am SOOOOO scared that I will not be able to do this, I know I need to lose the weight on a logical basis - I DO weigh twice what I am supposed to, so logically I need to lose the weight, right?
It's just that it still doesn't quite FEEL real - as I said denial!
I HAVE TO DO THIS, I am terrible at going alone, so I hope you guys will be able to drag me along & give me a nice little kick in the behind when I need it, and ALL the advice in the world will help.
STATS:
I am 33 years old, 5'2 and weigh 254.6 pounds and according to my length, 130 pounds would do nicely on my frame - so I literally would have to get rid of half of myself.
Thanks & see you on the forums!
!!!!
- I thought at least one of these would occur if I should go a day without bread or pasta or at least one tiny cookie...
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