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hello! obviously, i'm new here. so let me tell you a bit about myself.
i've been heavy for almost as long as i can remember. there was a time in my early teens when i actually went down to 110lbs and a size 5...but i did it the wrong way. i had an eating disorder and you can only imagine how long a person could sustain a starving, binging, and purging lifestyle. in other words, i didn't stay a size 5 for long.
when i moved to california, the depression and stress really got to me. i just kept on eating and eating to make myself feel better. like i wasn't already feeling good with an eating disorder to begin with. predictably, i balloned up to 190lbs within a year. right back to where i started before i lost all the weight. i decided that...maybe being overweight isn't so bad. we take things for granted sometimes...at least i was still alive and i have people who love me. i decided to think possitively.
one day, my superficial, narcissistic, 98lb "friend" started complaining about how "fat" she was. she kept on going on and on about how depressed and ugly she was. suddenly, she made a comment that totally caught me off guard. "gosh, angelica, you're so lucky that you're still happy even if you're SO FAT!"
at first i thought..."JEEZ! I FEEL LIKE AN EXTRA LARGE WOOLLY MAMMOTH NEAR HER SIZE O BODY!" but then i thought...rather than getting annoyed at the depressed anorexic girl for calling me "SO FAT"...i started thinking...HEY! i AM happy. i have good self esteem now compared to how i was in my early teens. maybe i can start loosing weight again..THE HEALTHY WAY. i've been hearing about the atkins diet...and i've seen the success so many people have had with it. why not me? just because i'm overweight, doesn't mean i have to be a victim of circumstance. i REFUSE to be a victim of circumstance.
i'm 5'0 and i'm (gulps) 190lbs. my goal is to feel healthy...but if i was to put a number pounds wise...i'd want to become at least 130 or 120 in a year...or three. lol. i really just want to feel healthy when i run up and down our two story house...or when i go hiking in the california hills. i just want to enjoy life...physically.
anyway...i better end my "war and peace" biography. i don't really want to bore anyone here. lol. now that you guys know stuff about me, i hope that i'll learn who you are eventually...and learn some healthy weight loss techniques. everything is so much easier when you can talk/write about things...especially if you know that someone out there is also in the same boat. lol..
i've been heavy for almost as long as i can remember. there was a time in my early teens when i actually went down to 110lbs and a size 5...but i did it the wrong way. i had an eating disorder and you can only imagine how long a person could sustain a starving, binging, and purging lifestyle. in other words, i didn't stay a size 5 for long.
when i moved to california, the depression and stress really got to me. i just kept on eating and eating to make myself feel better. like i wasn't already feeling good with an eating disorder to begin with. predictably, i balloned up to 190lbs within a year. right back to where i started before i lost all the weight. i decided that...maybe being overweight isn't so bad. we take things for granted sometimes...at least i was still alive and i have people who love me. i decided to think possitively.
one day, my superficial, narcissistic, 98lb "friend" started complaining about how "fat" she was. she kept on going on and on about how depressed and ugly she was. suddenly, she made a comment that totally caught me off guard. "gosh, angelica, you're so lucky that you're still happy even if you're SO FAT!"
at first i thought..."JEEZ! I FEEL LIKE AN EXTRA LARGE WOOLLY MAMMOTH NEAR HER SIZE O BODY!" but then i thought...rather than getting annoyed at the depressed anorexic girl for calling me "SO FAT"...i started thinking...HEY! i AM happy. i have good self esteem now compared to how i was in my early teens. maybe i can start loosing weight again..THE HEALTHY WAY. i've been hearing about the atkins diet...and i've seen the success so many people have had with it. why not me? just because i'm overweight, doesn't mean i have to be a victim of circumstance. i REFUSE to be a victim of circumstance.
i'm 5'0 and i'm (gulps) 190lbs. my goal is to feel healthy...but if i was to put a number pounds wise...i'd want to become at least 130 or 120 in a year...or three. lol. i really just want to feel healthy when i run up and down our two story house...or when i go hiking in the california hills. i just want to enjoy life...physically.
anyway...i better end my "war and peace" biography. i don't really want to bore anyone here. lol. now that you guys know stuff about me, i hope that i'll learn who you are eventually...and learn some healthy weight loss techniques. everything is so much easier when you can talk/write about things...especially if you know that someone out there is also in the same boat. lol..
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