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Hi, I've been lurking here for a while. First I wasnt to say hello to all the new people like myself. Good luck to us all.
Next I want to thank all the regulars here for the support and information. This is a wonderful place.
I'm 46 years old, 5'3" tall, and weigh 218. I had been slim all my life, going back to my pre-pregnancy weights after each child, but after 9/11 I started emotional eating and became addicted to carbs. I live in NYC and it has taken me all these years to come to grips with the events of 9/11. I lived in fear, especially for my children, and somehow shoving food in my mouth and feeling full made me feel better, especially at night when I couldn't sleep. It made me feel like I was being hugged.
Anyway I ballooned to 218 lbs, my weight as of today, and I'm sick of it. I'm extremely self-conscious and physically unconfortable, as I carry so much weight in my abdominal area. I've developed high blood pressure and sleep apnea, both weight-related, according to my doctor. She recommended Atkin, and here I am.
Also, a motivator for me is that my sister will be undergoing gastric bypass next month, and I don't ever want to become desperate like her and have that kind of drastic surgery if I can do it naturally.
One other thing...I've been taking Cymbalta for a few years, as I truly need it, and also Ambien as needed. I'm worried that maybe these meds will make it impossible/difficult to lose weight, as I've read many people have weight issues attributed to anti-depressants. My doctor says it can be done, with just a bit more effort.
So here I am, sad and fat, and wanting to break my addiction to carbs. Cakes, breads, and all starches have been my comforter for these past years, but I want to be free of them.
Sorry for such a long post, but I just want to get everything out on the table.
Now I'm going to attempt to post my current photos. I was thinking of blocking out my face in case anyone I know in real life sees me, but then I thought I don't want to be ashamed of myself...I just want to move forward. I'll continue to post photos of myself in the same bathing suit as I proceed with the program, and hopefully I won't be so big as time goes on.
Thanks for reading.
I'm crying as I post these photos. What happened to me???
Next I want to thank all the regulars here for the support and information. This is a wonderful place.
I'm 46 years old, 5'3" tall, and weigh 218. I had been slim all my life, going back to my pre-pregnancy weights after each child, but after 9/11 I started emotional eating and became addicted to carbs. I live in NYC and it has taken me all these years to come to grips with the events of 9/11. I lived in fear, especially for my children, and somehow shoving food in my mouth and feeling full made me feel better, especially at night when I couldn't sleep. It made me feel like I was being hugged.
Anyway I ballooned to 218 lbs, my weight as of today, and I'm sick of it. I'm extremely self-conscious and physically unconfortable, as I carry so much weight in my abdominal area. I've developed high blood pressure and sleep apnea, both weight-related, according to my doctor. She recommended Atkin, and here I am.
Also, a motivator for me is that my sister will be undergoing gastric bypass next month, and I don't ever want to become desperate like her and have that kind of drastic surgery if I can do it naturally.
One other thing...I've been taking Cymbalta for a few years, as I truly need it, and also Ambien as needed. I'm worried that maybe these meds will make it impossible/difficult to lose weight, as I've read many people have weight issues attributed to anti-depressants. My doctor says it can be done, with just a bit more effort.
So here I am, sad and fat, and wanting to break my addiction to carbs. Cakes, breads, and all starches have been my comforter for these past years, but I want to be free of them.
Sorry for such a long post, but I just want to get everything out on the table.
Now I'm going to attempt to post my current photos. I was thinking of blocking out my face in case anyone I know in real life sees me, but then I thought I don't want to be ashamed of myself...I just want to move forward. I'll continue to post photos of myself in the same bathing suit as I proceed with the program, and hopefully I won't be so big as time goes on.
Thanks for reading.
I'm crying as I post these photos. What happened to me???
It's terrific that you decided to take control of your life before reaching the stage where you have to resort to a gastric bypass. 
HW-188 
/GW225!!!
It's really awesome here. I haven't been here to long myself I think maybe the end of Jan.but I have to say you'll always feel welcome and if theres anything you need advice or just an ear....you'll find it here I'm sure.We're all here for a reason.I believe in what they say about meeting people for a reason and in here it's to give each other strength,courage, motivation and maybe the little extra push we need when we've had a long day and don't want to do our abs or squats for the day..lol
..you'll find yourself concerned for someone...joking around and even laughing out loud..
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