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I am on the edge here. My appearance and weight are now dominating my life and i feel ashamed to go outside incase a friend from my old high school will see me looking like this or people are repulsed by the way that i look.
Here is where the story begins (stop reading here if you don't want your mood ruined). I left school almost 2 years ago and have been home studying. I didn't exercise as much as i should have and ate for fun and comfort. I went from an acceptable 14st 12lbs to an UNACCEPTABLE 17st 4lbs. My self esteem and confidence went out of the window so i thought i would give atkins a try.
To my delight after 3 weeks on atkins i had gone down to 15,6 and i started to feel like myself again. I could wear nicer clothes and i felt like i could walk down the street without disgusting people with the way i looked and i felt like i fitted in again... So i let loose and fell back in to old habbits.
Over the following months i put almost all the weight back on and didn't really care. I do not have a girlfriend because i know that nobody in their right mind would go for the 5'7 fat guy with self esteem issues so that doesn't bother me. But what does bother me is that i am not enjoying my late teen years like all my friends are. I do not feel like i am living, instead i am just plodding along watching everyone around me enjoy life and being young and relatively care free. The biggest problem is my weight. It quite literally is mental as well as physical baggage that i need to rid myself of before it does any more harm. I need a change before this completely consumes my life. That is why i have come here.
It is great reading some of the success stories around and this time i feel different about loosing weight. I do not just want to loose weight just for the clothes, girls or image. I want to do it because i want my life to be different. I want to walk in to a room of complete strangers with my head held high. I want to remove all this jealousy and frustration inside me which makes me so underconfident and sad all the time. It twigged in my head that i am only 18 once and my time should be spent actually LIVING IT instead of sitting at my tv/computer playing games or shovelling that 12th slice of Dominos pizza in to my mouth.
So here i am writing up some meal plans for the following 2 weeks. This time i will pack much more fiber in to my meals and get more active. My starting weight is 16st 8lbs. I will post here every 5 days with my new weight and thoughts. This is it. There is no room for failure.
Before i end this LONG post i wanted to ask whether anyone has experience balancing their immune systems on the atkins induction and Stage 2 plans? I have been diagnosed with mild Hypogammaglobulinemia and i feel that i need to take special considoration while on Atkins. Last time after 3 weeks of induction i was getting sick quite a bit which is one of tht reasons i gave it a rest. While it may have just been coincidence i would rather not take the risk. Would extra doses of vitamins do the trick?
It is 04:08 in the morning on June 5th.
Weight: 233lbs
Thanks for reading.
Tim
Here is where the story begins (stop reading here if you don't want your mood ruined). I left school almost 2 years ago and have been home studying. I didn't exercise as much as i should have and ate for fun and comfort. I went from an acceptable 14st 12lbs to an UNACCEPTABLE 17st 4lbs. My self esteem and confidence went out of the window so i thought i would give atkins a try.
To my delight after 3 weeks on atkins i had gone down to 15,6 and i started to feel like myself again. I could wear nicer clothes and i felt like i could walk down the street without disgusting people with the way i looked and i felt like i fitted in again... So i let loose and fell back in to old habbits.
Over the following months i put almost all the weight back on and didn't really care. I do not have a girlfriend because i know that nobody in their right mind would go for the 5'7 fat guy with self esteem issues so that doesn't bother me. But what does bother me is that i am not enjoying my late teen years like all my friends are. I do not feel like i am living, instead i am just plodding along watching everyone around me enjoy life and being young and relatively care free. The biggest problem is my weight. It quite literally is mental as well as physical baggage that i need to rid myself of before it does any more harm. I need a change before this completely consumes my life. That is why i have come here.
It is great reading some of the success stories around and this time i feel different about loosing weight. I do not just want to loose weight just for the clothes, girls or image. I want to do it because i want my life to be different. I want to walk in to a room of complete strangers with my head held high. I want to remove all this jealousy and frustration inside me which makes me so underconfident and sad all the time. It twigged in my head that i am only 18 once and my time should be spent actually LIVING IT instead of sitting at my tv/computer playing games or shovelling that 12th slice of Dominos pizza in to my mouth.
So here i am writing up some meal plans for the following 2 weeks. This time i will pack much more fiber in to my meals and get more active. My starting weight is 16st 8lbs. I will post here every 5 days with my new weight and thoughts. This is it. There is no room for failure.
Before i end this LONG post i wanted to ask whether anyone has experience balancing their immune systems on the atkins induction and Stage 2 plans? I have been diagnosed with mild Hypogammaglobulinemia and i feel that i need to take special considoration while on Atkins. Last time after 3 weeks of induction i was getting sick quite a bit which is one of tht reasons i gave it a rest. While it may have just been coincidence i would rather not take the risk. Would extra doses of vitamins do the trick?
It is 04:08 in the morning on June 5th.
Weight: 233lbs
Thanks for reading.
Tim
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