new and inspired

[reborn with hope]

i've been thick or heavy or whatever all my life and was always insecure about it until i lost weight a few years ago. it made me healthy, in shape, confident, and i looked like a new person. then my dad died and i put on 60 lbs in a year. been getting worse ever since. my self esteem became so bad my husband couldn't stand it. he loves my body and doesn't understand my insecurity. he ended up having an affair and i ended up with a new motivation to finally change the things in my life i'm unhappy about. i'm a new person inside and want to show it on the outside. i don't hate the way i look anymore, now i just want to be proud of myself, be healthy and happy. been on the diet for a month or so and lost 15 pounds so far. my goal is to get my face back to what i remember looking like. if that makes sense. so thats my story for now.
thanks.