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Hi Everyone
I'm a serial dieter. I've struggled with my weight all my adult life although, I realise looking back I really never had that bad a problem when I younger - I just thought I did. Not sure if dieting when I really didn't need to got me into this spiral, or whether having my gall bladder removed at age 16 has pre-disposed me to weight gain. Anyway, whatever the reasons, I have struggled from the age of around 30+ to keep my weight under control.
At my heaviest, I was 229lbs - but managed to lose 70lbs on a meal replacement low carb diet. I kept that off for a shortish amount of time, but I regained 55lbs of it. I then re-did the diet, and managed to most of the weight again. Neither time I got anywhere near my ultimate goal of around 130-140lbs.
Last year, everything seemed under control. I was around 165lbs, but exercising 5 times a week, and despite my weight looked slim (UK size 12). Then, I lost my Mum
and I stopped going to the gym. For 8 months I never exercised once. I drank loads of wine and was generally in the worst emotional state I'd ever been in. The weight just rocketed and I find myself back at 204lb. I did managed to lose some before Christmas, but it's all back.
I am scared I am going to get back to 229lb and even heavier, and I've got to take control.
I hate being fat. It totally ruins and dominates my life.
Right now, I feel a total failure that I am unable to control that one aspect of my life.
I am deperate to get myself under 160lbs.
I find it hard to diet alone, finding groups work for me - but, right now I don't want to go to one and I am determined to battle this alone - hopefully with the help/support of other people (you guys) going through this at the same time.
Thanks.
Beverley
I'm a serial dieter. I've struggled with my weight all my adult life although, I realise looking back I really never had that bad a problem when I younger - I just thought I did. Not sure if dieting when I really didn't need to got me into this spiral, or whether having my gall bladder removed at age 16 has pre-disposed me to weight gain. Anyway, whatever the reasons, I have struggled from the age of around 30+ to keep my weight under control.
At my heaviest, I was 229lbs - but managed to lose 70lbs on a meal replacement low carb diet. I kept that off for a shortish amount of time, but I regained 55lbs of it. I then re-did the diet, and managed to most of the weight again. Neither time I got anywhere near my ultimate goal of around 130-140lbs.
Last year, everything seemed under control. I was around 165lbs, but exercising 5 times a week, and despite my weight looked slim (UK size 12). Then, I lost my Mum
and I stopped going to the gym. For 8 months I never exercised once. I drank loads of wine and was generally in the worst emotional state I'd ever been in. The weight just rocketed and I find myself back at 204lb. I did managed to lose some before Christmas, but it's all back.I am scared I am going to get back to 229lb and even heavier, and I've got to take control.
I hate being fat. It totally ruins and dominates my life.
Right now, I feel a total failure that I am unable to control that one aspect of my life.
I am deperate to get myself under 160lbs.
I find it hard to diet alone, finding groups work for me - but, right now I don't want to go to one and I am determined to battle this alone - hopefully with the help/support of other people (you guys) going through this at the same time.
Thanks.
Beverley
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