Help me stay on.....

[ammethystt]

So, here I am-- 185 lbs. Five years ago I was up to 214, and then I discovered Atkins. The weight literally fell off-- so much so that I didn't even realize how quickly or how much I was losing. Within 6 months, I was at my lowest weight ever-- 134 lbs. I stayed at that weight for about 5-6 months and then slowly climbed to the 150's ( I still looked good). Had a baby in 2005 and yo-yo'd between 160 and 170. I was never able to get lower than 160. Three years later, after suffering a back injury and consequently being on unemployment, I slowly noticed my jeans getting tighter and tighter. Now, the jeans that were "big" for me don't even fit! I just wanna cry! After that huge wieghtloss, I didn't really "follow" the Atins induction program-- I more or less lived on the maintenance phase and though I didn't really lose, I never really gained. Until now. I've gained about 20-25 lbs since November of 2008. I am completely out of control, lack willpower and the Atkins mentality and focus. I just don't get it. How does soemone lose themsleves like this? More importantly, how does someone lose so much weight without a problem, and this time around I can't even get the "mentality" to begin?? I need to know that I can do this AGAIN! I have some of your profile and picture-- your before and afters and it is AMAZING that transformations-- the biggest loser, eat your heart out!
I know I have it in me-- if i've done it before I can do it again!
Anyone got any comfroting words??? or, a shoulder to cry on (LOL)?
If I can just focus... it seems that I cant get any further than day 7 or so: exactl;y when I hop on the scale and find that I have only lost 3 lbs!! I want it to fall off now !! All of it!! But I know better..it happens quickly but not that quickly...
I am on this time.....

[kgirl]

Re: Help me stay on.....

Hi there...

You kinda remind me of myself..and it is so easy to beat ourselves up for "what was" ...

Try to think of it as one day at a time..literally..or..if you need at the first few days..one meal at a time...
This is what I have been doing as I am finding it hard to stay focused..So..I go into the "one day at time"phase..If I can get thru this day..without grabbing for that cake etc..I will be ok..

Easier said then done tho..you can do this..if you fall back..well..so be it..just continue on..making yourself feel bad for getting caught up in life and forgetting about eating differntly..is not worth the effects it has!..Forgive yourself..react how you would to a friend who is having a hard time..be a Friend to yourself..

It is so hard to try to maintain all the time..You can do this!

[determined1017]

Re: Help me stay on.....

Hi Ammethystt,

I know it's tough getting into the swing of things, but it seems to me you have already taken the first step by posting here. Have you ever been on the boards before? They are a great form of encouragement when you need it the most. I see that you have looked around at the before and afters. That keeps me motivated when I need it. All you can do is take it one day at a time. I have been there. It seems really tough for me to get past the 3 month mark. No matter what diet I have been on I can never do it. If you're ready try signing up for a challenge. It seems a little easier when you have to be held accountable. I know you can do this. As a matter of fact you did so well before that I should be turning to you for some words of wisdom!! hehe

Stay Strong!!

[Sunny_0ne]

Re: Help me stay on.....

ammethystt, I don't know how to tell you to get your motivation back, but you are doing the right thing by posting about it.

For me, it was seeing an AWFUL photo taken of me in December and being stunned by the realization that that ugly woman was me.

All of the sudden, losing the weight became the most important thing to me... more important than anything I might miss eating.

Keep reading the board and posting. You CAN do this... one day at a time.

Welcome, and the very best of luck you you.

[ammethystt]

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Thank you all for your kind words of wisdom!!
I feel like I came to the right place for the support that I need...
Something that I don't get at home because I am the only "believer" in the Atkins WOE..not only that but my hubby states he loves me the way that I am and reminds me of how he didn't like the "bony" me!! Not what I need to hear...
Thanks again to you all... and good luck to all of us! We can and will do this together!!

[mitzimarie]

Re: Help me stay on.....

Hi, ammethystt

Welcome to ADBB!

You've been given some excellent advice. I am so proud of the members of this board! We really are like a family here, and you're right - it really does help to have a support system on this journey. We'll be here for you!

Hey, I know that this is MUCH easier said, than done, but here goes: Try to stay off of the scale for a while. The scale really does not tell the whole story when it comes to fat loss. My favorite way to judge fat loss is to keep a pair of jeans that are too tight, and try them on every 10 days or so. It is such great motivation to watch a pair of jeans that you couldn't button become so big that you have to put them in the giveaway box!

Try to relax... again, easier said, than done. But I've found that doing Atkins is a mental thing, as well as the food you eat and the exercise you do. I do better when I view it as "just the way that I eat now", versus a "means to lose weight." Stick close to the board, and read as much as you can. Join some challenges, and post often.

Good luck to you!

[blueberrylady]

Re: Help me stay on.....

Welcome to the board, Ammethystt! I know that feeling of trying to get to that place where my mind is focusing on what I want instead of being split and seeming to fight me all the time.

The thing that helps me the most is to always remind myself that that 'out of control' feeling is caused by white sugar and flour messing with my blood sugar levels. Those foods are not my friends, no matter how good they seem to taste. And once you stop eating them for awhile, they will lose that taste you thought you couldn't live without. So just hang in there and know that the focus will come once you start seeing food as nourishment instead of a reward or pleasant pasttime.

You can do it!!!

[Desertthorn]

Re: Help me stay on.....

Hi Ammethystt, welcome to our home. Glad you joined and I know that you will get the motivation. It took me a few stutters before I really got with the program, so just keep trying and it will happen.