So I am 37, 5'11" and about 280lbs or 127kgs or 20 stone!
Enough is enough.
Here is some serious honesty.. Because I think I need to be honest in public to own up to my history and all the reasons I need to make this work this time.
All my life I have been yoyo dieting..
When I was 12 I was overweight, as I was my whole life really.. Back then the doctor put me under a diet specialist..
Around then they tried putting me on a liquid diet... Soups... mostly dried just add water ones.... I dont remember it working, I just remember not eating for about 2 months.. They also gave me something which looked like red plastic granuals to eat... seriously.. a spoon full of plastic chippings 3 times a day and soup!
Ever since then I have hated how I look.
I grew up hating sports... mostly because of the changing rooms..
I did not enjoy swimming as a kid because of people seeing me half naked..
I have never sunbathed without a top on.. in fact, I have not ever been without a top in public..
Although currently seperated, I never intentionally allowed my wife to see me without my top on, and no partner, girlfriend or anything has ever seen me without my top.
Now I have 3 kids... They have never seen me without a top on..
About 2 years ago I decided to get serious..
I signed up with a personal trainer... not the type you get cheap or free as part of a membership at a gym, nooo... this was a one to one personal trainer with a private gym where its just the two of us in there... It wasnt cheap, which I was happy with because it made it more important not to fail..
For a year, I was with the personal trainer for two sessions a week, each one for an hour... He was damn hard on me... I was also going to the gym 3 nights a week... it improved my fitness no end.. I went from being unfit and in poor physical condition, to being above average fitness, cardio, blood pressure, etc... But after 1 year and loosing about a stone, I came to the conclusion that it had all stalled... I was going through some serious pain the weight and fat loss had stopped... I was really quite fit, but still with a high body mass index, high fat content, I could not keep it up anymore and gave up!
That was a year ago.. I have now put back all the weight I lost, probably lost most of the fitness improvements I made.
So.. here I am.. a failure.. I now need to make this work.
for the last few weeks I have been looking into atkins.. I have seen some of you guys "before and after pictures" and guys.. you all rock!!! You have all inspired me to give this my best shot.
I have recently bought the following books..
Atkins new diet revolution
Atkins new carbohydrate counter
Atkins made easy - the first two weeks
Atkins new diet cook book
I am giving myself until the end of the month to read these books, become involved asking questions in here and do all the groundwork i need to do to prepare for the 1st of august, when I am planning on begining the new me.
I have also lined up a gym buddy who also wants to loose weight..
Lastly, I will be getting in touch with my old personal trainer to get him on board too.. I failed with him last time.. but last time (and I think I knew it) my diet wasnt working.. it was healthy.. but I am now convinced that carbs may be my evil undoing last time.
I have also bought just about every brand of sweatener going.. the reason being that some sweeteners make me sick... so I will be trying them all out over the next week or so, and then comparing the brands with what ones are atkins friendly..
Well.. here goes nothing.. wish me luck!
Enough is enough.
Here is some serious honesty.. Because I think I need to be honest in public to own up to my history and all the reasons I need to make this work this time.
All my life I have been yoyo dieting..
When I was 12 I was overweight, as I was my whole life really.. Back then the doctor put me under a diet specialist..
Around then they tried putting me on a liquid diet... Soups... mostly dried just add water ones.... I dont remember it working, I just remember not eating for about 2 months.. They also gave me something which looked like red plastic granuals to eat... seriously.. a spoon full of plastic chippings 3 times a day and soup!
Ever since then I have hated how I look.
I grew up hating sports... mostly because of the changing rooms..
I did not enjoy swimming as a kid because of people seeing me half naked..
I have never sunbathed without a top on.. in fact, I have not ever been without a top in public..
Although currently seperated, I never intentionally allowed my wife to see me without my top on, and no partner, girlfriend or anything has ever seen me without my top.
Now I have 3 kids... They have never seen me without a top on..
About 2 years ago I decided to get serious..
I signed up with a personal trainer... not the type you get cheap or free as part of a membership at a gym, nooo... this was a one to one personal trainer with a private gym where its just the two of us in there... It wasnt cheap, which I was happy with because it made it more important not to fail..
For a year, I was with the personal trainer for two sessions a week, each one for an hour... He was damn hard on me... I was also going to the gym 3 nights a week... it improved my fitness no end.. I went from being unfit and in poor physical condition, to being above average fitness, cardio, blood pressure, etc... But after 1 year and loosing about a stone, I came to the conclusion that it had all stalled... I was going through some serious pain the weight and fat loss had stopped... I was really quite fit, but still with a high body mass index, high fat content, I could not keep it up anymore and gave up!
That was a year ago.. I have now put back all the weight I lost, probably lost most of the fitness improvements I made.
So.. here I am.. a failure.. I now need to make this work.
for the last few weeks I have been looking into atkins.. I have seen some of you guys "before and after pictures" and guys.. you all rock!!! You have all inspired me to give this my best shot.
I have recently bought the following books..
Atkins new diet revolution
Atkins new carbohydrate counter
Atkins made easy - the first two weeks
Atkins new diet cook book
I am giving myself until the end of the month to read these books, become involved asking questions in here and do all the groundwork i need to do to prepare for the 1st of august, when I am planning on begining the new me.
I have also lined up a gym buddy who also wants to loose weight..
Lastly, I will be getting in touch with my old personal trainer to get him on board too.. I failed with him last time.. but last time (and I think I knew it) my diet wasnt working.. it was healthy.. but I am now convinced that carbs may be my evil undoing last time.
I have also bought just about every brand of sweatener going.. the reason being that some sweeteners make me sick... so I will be trying them all out over the next week or so, and then comparing the brands with what ones are atkins friendly..
Well.. here goes nothing.. wish me luck!







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