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I am coming back on here again to re-introduce myself. But first I will give a little background.
I have tried to do Atkins over the years, and each time I failed. I tried again on January 1 of this year. I have lost 24 lbs since then, but since I didn’t follow Atkins more than two days in a row, I didn’t do it from Atkins. I can’t describe how sick and tired and demoralized I have been feeling. I try to start Atkins and then something always pushes me back, mostly my own lack of willpower.
Last night I started to think real hard about how I am killing myself by eating this way. I was thinking how I always feel lousy. I started to think how lucky I have been when I felt I had real health problems because of my weight and was worried and scared and how relieved I felt when I found it everything was OK. I remember vowing all those times to change my ways and then I didn’t.
Then I thought about all the things I have put off in my life because of my weight, all the lost opportunities. When I was younger I always thought I had plenty of time. Then 20 came, then 25, 29, 30, 32 and in six months I will 35. I started to feel horrible thinking that 35 was so close and I had only gotten fatter. Life is passing me by. And now I will find out this week if I am going to be laid-off. How am I going to find a job at 321lbs in this job market?
So last night I decided to look at it with a fresh set of eyes. Forget the past; forget the failures and disappointment, start anew. Since 2001 I have worn a beard to cover my double chins and try to look thinner. I really just look like a fat guy with a beard and messed-up thick long hair. So I shaved the beard off and cut my hair. I am going back to the gym and getting started working out again. I also reread “The Book.”
So here I go. I do not consider this a re-start since I never really did Atkins right in the first place. So tommorrow is my start date. I will be back on here two weeks from tommorrow, on August 26 to post my induction results.
Thanks
I have tried to do Atkins over the years, and each time I failed. I tried again on January 1 of this year. I have lost 24 lbs since then, but since I didn’t follow Atkins more than two days in a row, I didn’t do it from Atkins. I can’t describe how sick and tired and demoralized I have been feeling. I try to start Atkins and then something always pushes me back, mostly my own lack of willpower.
Last night I started to think real hard about how I am killing myself by eating this way. I was thinking how I always feel lousy. I started to think how lucky I have been when I felt I had real health problems because of my weight and was worried and scared and how relieved I felt when I found it everything was OK. I remember vowing all those times to change my ways and then I didn’t.
Then I thought about all the things I have put off in my life because of my weight, all the lost opportunities. When I was younger I always thought I had plenty of time. Then 20 came, then 25, 29, 30, 32 and in six months I will 35. I started to feel horrible thinking that 35 was so close and I had only gotten fatter. Life is passing me by. And now I will find out this week if I am going to be laid-off. How am I going to find a job at 321lbs in this job market?
So last night I decided to look at it with a fresh set of eyes. Forget the past; forget the failures and disappointment, start anew. Since 2001 I have worn a beard to cover my double chins and try to look thinner. I really just look like a fat guy with a beard and messed-up thick long hair. So I shaved the beard off and cut my hair. I am going back to the gym and getting started working out again. I also reread “The Book.”
So here I go. I do not consider this a re-start since I never really did Atkins right in the first place. So tommorrow is my start date. I will be back on here two weeks from tommorrow, on August 26 to post my induction results.
Thanks
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