boger. i keep getting these mood swings. not as bad as before though. however i am noticing them now. before i didn't think i had mood swings but now since i feel as if they are not as bad i notice them. i feel jealous with my mood swings. just these outrageous jealous feelings. like im never going to be good enough for anyone or anything. my mood swings suck. but to stay on the positive side, they are not as bad as they used to be and i can keep them better under control. today is my last day off and my fiance is at work. he tells me he needs to go in a half hour early to load his truck so he's not stressed, then he calls me today and tells me that he's going to be home in 2 hours!! im just mad that he doesnt make time for me even a small text to say hi. it makes me mad. i used to work for the same company and i know this is how it works, but i feel like he could work a little harder to make me feel good. like texting me or something. i work damn hard for everything. i cook i clean i workout and work and watch what i eat, lose weight still and try to be someone he deserves and wants to be with.
maybe i feel like he's taking me for granted. i hate these feelings. now that i no longer look to food to fuel my emotions i feel great about that.
im watching true blood right now. sitting at home. i got dressed up. and i was making my fiance a nice dinner. 2 hours. wow.