fiance cheated on me. found out through friends he wasnt even going to tell me. i never realized how controlling he was. he was blaming me for everything. he was abusive as well. boy im out now thank god. all i have is time on my hands.
im not emotionally eating so that is great.
ive lost a total of 95 lbs now. through the stress i lost some weight. however, i am getting myself back on track. i got an apartment and there is a gym. all im going to do is work out.
i didnt know what was going on i just thought men were being weird when talking to me until someone said, SARAH THEY ARE HITTING ON YOU!!
lol i never knew!!!
so this guy i've known for 8 years wants to see me. he says he's been in love with me for a long while now. were going to breakfast and i hope we have fun. i just want to have fun. no relationships. just dating, going out, working out and working. thats for me!! <3 im going to love myself again without men. im not ugly and i have learned a tremendous amount of things by losing weight that i can apply to my life.
patience, gratitude, acceptance, and health
much more but those are a few.
im not fat any more, and i have confidence now. he used to tell me things like basically, you should be grateful that your with me because im handsome. it made me feel so bad.
if im at 185 that means only 32 more pounds left. so now i will be working hard on toning my body and doing cardio for my half marathon. thirty pounds to go. so hopefully by end of may i will have lost 20 that would be radical!!
im going to enjoy this summer!!! i will be sexy and hott for summer you all wait!!! ill show myself that everything he ever said that was nasty to me is not true. (&^%* him!!!