Here I am, a year and 4 months into my Atkins living and I am once again fighting demons of my past. I noticed this morning that I have gained 15 pounds in the past 5 months. My divorce in April was traumatic, my move stressful, and now my single-parent status is getting to me. I am feeling really low, really frustrated, and really angry with myself. I cannot believe I let myself slide so much. Take it from me, folks. That "one bite" thing is so true! Especially for me. I am just a big time food-aholic. Sugar is like a drug - and I can't stop once I start. I don't know why I keep doing this to myself, though. I get to a certain point and start to sabotage all my efforts. I start to sneak-snack, I begin eating more carbs than I should, I stop working out, or I just go into a hole and pretend like I didn't just shove a piece of cake into my face.



Let's face it - I need another rude awakening as I did when I first started Atkins. It was April 2007 and I saw a picture of myself (which has since been destroyed). It was a pretty low point for me. I was unhappily married, feeling horrible, and had pain in my back and knees from my weight. When I look back, it came off so easy in the beginning. Then, I hit some plateaus. Then the holidays came, then the divorce. Although I had lost 58.5 pounds in 12 months, I stopped paying attention to what I ate.

When I stepped onto the scale this morning I cried. Literally cried. I had done this to myself, there is no denying that. The big question on Action News is why? What purpose would I have to eat more than my share and put on weight and feel really badly about myself? Doesn't seem to make sense to me. Still, here I am.

Need a big kick in the pants to re-motivate myself to lose again. Where is that drive I had a year ago? Don't know. I just know I feel lousy right now...

On a brighter note, to start to increase my exercise routine (um, I mean, START my exercise routine again) I bought an elliptical trainer. Whoo hoo! And, my son and I are getting our dog tomorrow so walking will definitely be in my future!

Ok, body, let's go. Get moving. Ok, mind, get things in perspective. You can do this! We've done it before. Now play nice or one of you is getting a time out!