Weight this morning is at 265. Blood sugar at 233. I take 2 akabar in the morning and 2 at noon. These really help me. I am also going to start walking to help with my stress level.

I am going to boil me some eggs to take to work. That away when I want to cheat I can reach for an egg and then Today I will pick up celerey, which also is a good cheat food cause it is crunchy, and salads for my daily lettuce intake.
The water part isn't an issue as I drink 6 1quart jars a day at least. (we drink out of mason quart jars hubby loves them, I don't care as long as he is happy and we keep regular glasses incase guest dont feel same sentiment).

It is frustrating to start over but at least it is with knowledge. I think I will make reading the book a daily duty.

I am really down a bout my life right now. I don't have control of what is going on but I do have control on I deal with it. I just pray that God is with me and has his hands on me and leads the way for me to do the best I can with my inlaws. I am really scared of walking in and finding one or both of them gone to heaven.

I think bloggin my feelings also helps cause there is no one to talk to and tell how I really feel. And maybe if I get it out in the open I will feel better and maybe just maybe work my way through all this stuff.