just sitting here wondering how i got like this. just wish it would go away. im really scared about wieghing in on monday. i cant seem to get under 150 and im scared that i cant . i see all those perfectly in shape girls and wonder how do they do it. why is it soooo hard. feeling down today. just want to look sexy. well i cant give up. but really dont think the scale is going to favor me. just feel like its not going to happen. i've been this big for over 2 years now. i guess we will see