So this is my first blog here. I’m not much of a blogger, but we’ll see how this goes =).

I’ve tried so many diets, pills, prayers, and sins to lose weight. I know that because of my past eating (or lack of) habits when I was much much younger probably has something to do with why my body is so attached to this weight that I carry. I don’t know, just a guess there.

I eat healthier than my husband, who is at a constant perfect weight regardless of his eating. I mean this man can eat four biscuits with sausage gravy smothering them and not gain an ounce. I even look at it too long and I have a new roll of back fat, okay?!?! I’ve taken nutrition classes, I’ve joined every thing that would take my money (and then run, like LA Weight Loss did). And everything for the most part would work a bit for a bit.

So the least I’ve weighed in 3 years is 275ish, and the least I’ve weighed in 5 years is 260 pounds. How horrible is that?!?!

My mother died at the young age of 46 on November 9th last year. We’re almost at her year mark. And do you know what her dieing wish was for me? The wish she had for her oldest baby of five was to, “Get healthy baby, because you have a lot to live for.” Wow, as if that wasn’t a motivator. And it was, but of course the only thing that made me feel better then was a pint of Rocky Road AND Mint and Chip Ice cream… it helped freeze my feelings for a moment I guess. I didn’t gain any weight from the ice cream thankfully, because I was also eating like a freakin ‘rabbit’ (as my husband put it). I counted calories, I worked out on my elliptical, walked up and down my stairs, played out side with my kids….and then I just stopped losing the weight again (even after I put down the ice cream covered spoon)…at that horrible 275 pound mark. Then the weight was coming back on! Oh My Stars! What to do….

Well I went to my doctor. And I find out that my thyroid is all messed up again…. Because I have PCOS…because my ovaries are over exposed to insulin, because my thyroid is messed up…see the circle. So you would think we could fix this right?!?! Nope, because 3 years ago a tumor was found in the layers of my left lung, in the back behind a rib. The tumor is benign, thank goodness. But because of the location they don’t want to remove the tumor until they absolutely have to due to them having to completely and forever remove one of my ribs. So I have to be very careful of my sugar intake, hormones, certain medications, typical things that can cause tumor growth because I DON’T want a missing rib. Right?!?!? (Or anybody cutting on my lung for that matter, lol)

So what made me look at the Atkins way for help? I don’t know really. I just woke up one morning and thought that I would go to the Atkins web site, so I could get more info. The site made it sound too easy AND when I researched it I found that there where more people saying bad things about the diet than there where people saying good things….BUT the bad things where mostly in-part from people who NEVER did the diet themselves, who only read little things and therefore making Atkins wrong and them right. The other little percent of people that had negative things to say about the diet only had negative things to say about some side effects (constipation, bad breath, thirsty all the time), but they all agreed that Atkins worked.

Well, there it is. Atkins works, no one could say it didn’t work. I’ve proven that I can do any diet that doesn’t work, or work for long…Why am I not doing a diet, or life style change, that DOES work?!?!? Hello! So I’m now an Atkinight!

Because of yet another medical condition I am unable to really work out too much. Ever since around the age of 10 my right knee would dislocate while I was walking or running or something. It would dislocated 1-4 or 5 times a year or so. It would always pop out, but then go right back in…and there where at least a dozen times a year where it would start to come out, but then change it’s mind and not come out completely. Well in the middle of this August I was walking down my stairs and POP, out it comes. But this time it didn’t go back in! Oh my stars, gross! My 4 year old daughter was next to me, and she looked up at me with saucer large eyes and said, “Oh mommy, I’m taking you to the hospital right now!” I sat on the stairs and asked her to go play in her room, and then I called down for my son to bring me up a package of frozen whatevers from the freezer.

Well he did, and I placed my left hand at the bottom of my calf, my right hand with the bag of frozen vegetables in it on my knee cap and forced it back in place. HOLLY HECKLES! That hurt so bad, a lot worse than any other time. And I couldn’t walk right at all. I knew I needed to go to the doctors because I could tell that something was wrong by the way it felt and by the lack of healing. But my husband and I had an 8 day camping trip coming up in a couple of weeks, and I didn’t want ANYTHING to get in the way of our trip. Just he and I (my kids stayed with my dad), a tent and fresh air! But two days before we where suppose to leave my knee came out again and stayed out…again. And this time when I tried to put it back into place I didn’t use enough force (because I knew how bad it was going to hurt, so I hesitated)…I ended up in urgent care that night. Messed my knee up good I did.

So now I have to have this major surgery on November 6th. They have to break bone, remove cartilage, screw things, tighten things, untangle things….I’ll be in the hospital for a few days after. I’m happy about it because this means no more popped out knee…I’m not happy because, well, it’s a painful surgery with a long painful recovery. ***Sigh*** But I’m a tough cookie.

So this is all…why Atkins.

And just before I put a close to this very long blog, I wanted to mention this. My mother was diagnosed with colon cancer at the age of 42. She was thin, healthy, ate lots of fish and veggies…but she loved her sugar. She loved her Mountain Dew, and she liked the taste of beer (ugg, grosss – I know, lol). Point is. She looked good, she loved life but ate sugar like her life depended on it…when all actuality it is what took her life. So this even further makes me feel that Atkins is best, no sugar (or very very little), good carbs, and healthy fats. What’s wrong with it? Really?...

Thanks for your time, and I will post as often as I can because I think I need this.

I can’t share much with my husband, he’s a good man…but I’ve let him down way too many times because of my weight loss, or lack of it really. So it’s just me and you for my support. No one in my family or in my group of friends know of my new journey…not until I show up in skinny jeans to what ever, I don’t care what it is…..as long as I’m in my skinny jeans =) lol

Hugs ~ Take care ~ Liss