I have tried to get rid of my other entries on my blog. Looking at them doesn't make me feel so good. I would rater just live for today then think about the past.

I am at my highest weight ever now. 246 lbs. and it makes me sick to think about it. Actually I am SICK... I have been suffering with edema since July 18th. Well that is the day that I first noticed my feet turning into troll feet.

My legs and feet are so huge...my toes look so funny -because they are not as big as the rest of me.

I went to a couple of Dr.'s both of them put me on water pills. They have checked my blood and listened to my heart, but cant find anything wrong. The water pills help somewhat, but not really.

My mom and I have been reading and reading up on the situation and we have come to the conclusion that I need to be on Atkins. It is a way to fight the water retention-without pills.

Yesterday was my first day back and I am feeling pretty confident. I cant stay this way... I have been going for walks trying to get the circulation going and took in about 16 carbs yesterday according to spark people.

Water, water, water... how can someone drink so much and not have any release?