Life is just not working out right now. After all the problems I had 2 weeks ago, my fiance broke up with me last night. This happened 3 years ago, we got back together after a while and things were going to well, but he just says he doesn't want this relationship anymore, doesn't want me, doesn't want to think about settling down, getting married or having kids until much later in life.

I feel so beat up over it. I've forgiven him for so much over the years, and while I respect the fact that he wants something different to me, I'm so hurt over it because he's everything I want, and I've proved that time and time again.

I've tried to keep on track, but my eating pattern has been non-existent, so I've lost a few pounds through lack of eating. Now is the time to get back on track for me, start thinking about myself.

I hate uncertainty, and my future looks so empty right now without him.