Oh how I absolutely adore hummus... And I can binge on it like chips and dip. I knew this when I bought the chickpeas. I bought them anyways. It's healthy I said.

And not legal on rung one...

So I ate so much of the stuff yesterday I wound up staying home from school today with intestinal woes. Funny how I was so pleased to have avoided the cravings for bad carbs like sugars and white flour then BAM I go and pull a stunt like this which resulted in a day of hummus and celery, then hummus and pork rinds, then falafel with tahini sauce, then more hummus and pork rinds. Drank my water. Exercised. Big deal. And avoided my responsiblities with a binge that'll produce more gas than Conoco Phillips.

I just feel disappointed in myself mostly.

I think I keep looking for all-you-can-eat diets. Thing is with Atkins we do get to a point where we don't want to eat all we can because we're finally sated and full, free from sugar highs and crashes and free of the cravings that go along with it. My eating patterns are so much like that of an alcoholic. I look at a chocolate cake and think.... there's just not enough there to fill the void I want to fill.

So I brushed my teeth and refilled my water glass. Cried. Talked about it with my husband. I kinda just want today to be over.