I have been worrying over everything lately. I have been having panic attacks, extreme anxiety and depression for over a month now. I wasn't experiencing this for the longest time, but now it's back and worse then ever.
I use to get them a few years back. I had reason to be stressed back then, my weight problem, grades weren't too good, I dressed very dark and I felt that way too. I was having horrible nightmares and getting episodes of Sleep Paralysis that scared the life out of me and were the start of the anxiety.
I have been on Lexapro and Zoloft. Neither seemed to help me out. I just felt tired and completely numb constantly. Those, ontop of taking Ambien, did help me stop the sleep disorder, but not much else in my waking life.
This was all before I had lost weight. I was 195 lbs and so miserable.
I feel like this again, two years later and at my goal weight. My heart pounds, I feel doomed, I feel like my life is going no where. Between the hours of about 4-10pm, I am in a complete panic. I tried to get over it on my own, because it's not something new. It's something I've dealt with over and over again. The panic attacks have been so bad that I almost feel like it's an 'out of body experience.'
The only thing that has been keeping me calm is food. I have been binging on the most pointless things lately. Somehow I still manage to maintain my weight, but I'll find myself completely stuffing my face to focus my mind on something else instead of all of the thoughts that are in my head. I HATE THIS. I don't want to be this person again.
I broke down in front of my mother, confessing that I can't handle this on my own anymore.
I'm going to my doctor this week to talk about anti-depressents. Thinking about all of this is even making me feel dizzy, spacey and anxious beyond belief at this VERY moment. I need to get a handle on this.
Please, please please...if you have any successful prescriptions that you are taking for anxiety/depression or OCD, share them if you can.
Any recommendations? 

& Maintained.





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