Eating Disorders..anyone..?

[ztachick]

HI, I haven't been around the boards much for a couple of months, but plan to visit more..
I was just wondering if anyone here has now or in the past ever been diagnosed (either self or by a doc) as having an ed..? thanks

[Desertthorn]

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Well I am an emotional eater, and will eat until my tummy hurts whe I am stressed, mad, sad, happy, depressed and lately, unfortunately I have been all of the above. Its been difficult to focus on a diet when your brain is on an emotional rollercoaster, if you know what I mean.
We have missed you. Glad your back.

[cranberry]

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I had a spell of bulemia during my later high school years

[lola101]

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I'm actually trying to recover from bulimia-anorexia... it's hard to classify it b/c I go through stages. Atkins has helped me stick to a meal plan and be more healthy and not feel the need to fall back into my eating disordered ways..it's hard tho!

Cranberry.. you give me hope of recovery!

[ztachick]

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DESERTHORN--emotional rollercoasters are hard to overcome sometimes..
CRANBERRY--how long did the spell last, were you self or clinically diagnosed....
LOLA--are u self diagnosed or clinically diagnosed.. you can recover... it just takes time and want and patience
IF ANY ONE WANTS TO PM ME FEEL FREE TO....

[lola101]

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I'm too afraid to go to the doctor about it (altho last time my dentist gave me weird looks and was questioning me a lot). I wouldn't want my family/friends or anyone to find out about it. It's only been for the last 2 years.. so I hope things get better, altho I read somewhere that it always stays with you and right now it seems like that is my reality. The bulimia has gotten a lot better since last year.. but I go through phases that last a few months and then it's back to restricting. I've never spoken to anyone about this.. so it feels kind of weird typing it out.
I would never ever wish an eating disorder on anyone.. I've been on message boards and there are girls even younger than me (I'm 19) that are struggling with this everyday.. it's truly horrible b/c it's always in the back of your mind.
thanks for your support tho!

PS. Have you had (or do you have) an eating disorder? you don't have to answer if you don't feel comfortable

[ztachick]

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Hi lola, yea actually i always had a strange occupation with food even when i was thin(since like 7th grade).. but then i got into a binge cycle..well i got to be about 262 and a tight size 24 last Aug, so i decided that on Sept 1st of o4 that i was going to do something about it, so i started atkins and was very strict about it, i was lsoing weight pretty steadily and then i'm not sure what happened.. about 4 months ago or so i got real stresed with my job i changed bf's(my choice) and i just felt very stressed so i started binging and taking lax's and diuetics(i had done this in HS too) well it got to where the past 3-4 months ive gained and lost the same 13 or so lbs..i had never been able to purge before but i finally found a way that worked for me so ive done that a few times but never get it all up so i dont really do that often..but since about March i cant seem to get off that binge restrict cycle it got so bad that i couldnt concentrate at work so i went online and found a counseler that specialized in ed's and so i went a couple of times to her she is really nice but i havent been to see her for a couple of weeks cuz of my work schedule, but i have another appt on thurs..she did diagnose me with bulimia but i thought it was gonna be ed nos(not otherwise specified) cuz at that point i hadnt thrown up yet but the laxs and diuretics are enough to diagnose you...anyways sorry my story got so long.. but yea so lateley uve been binging everything with carbs and i dont really bother to purge since i never can get it all up so ive again lost and gained the ave of 13 lbs but im gonna try to go back to low carb and restricting a lil too cuz i really do know that works...
pm me if you want my email or wanna chat
but.. a warning to you, if your dentist is already noticing that your teeth are getting bad cuz of the acid then IMHO you really should go to a speciized ed counselier they wont judge you thats what they do for a living and many of them have had ed's themsleves...

[Brook]

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I still go through phases with bullemia. This WOE has helped me all but conquer it for the last 3+ years. I'm healthier now -both mentally and physically than I've ever been.

For me, personally - it's a control issue. (Giant Surprise) When life seems way out of control, this is one area I feel like I can put on lock-down and feel like the master of my universe. Unfortunately - that's what it feels like while I'm in there praying to the porceline god for redemption - and once I'm done, the reality of how out of control I am sets in.

It's a vicious cycle - and one I have sought help for. I know what the deal is. I know how to be in control. But it *is* something I will likely deal with for the rest of my life - and for me, knowing that is more than half the battle. It doesn't make me feel hopeless or like I'll never get over it all. It's yet another challenge I'm faced with, and I deal with head on.

We all know these are unhealthy tendencies. We know that others see it and that we're not fooling anyone -especially our health care providers. The only thing I'd like to pass on is that the resources are out there for each and every one of us and they're there to be used when we need them. Embarrassment about this subject isn't necessary, although God knows I understand the thought processes behind it. I really do. Do not let shame or guilt stop you from doing what you need to do to make sure you're here tomorrow to make a difference for someone else - and every day you let this take you over is another day you lose.

It's not something most of us like to talk about a whole lot. It's a pretty icky subject to deal with overall. But I'm here. You're here. I think that says something pretty fantastic about the inner strength and power each of us has already.

Love & Light.
~Brook

[erica16]

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I was anorexic....it got so bad that my parents had to place me a hospital for almost a month...it was the worst experience ever. In the hospital they didn't teach me how to eat...they just force fed us to get our weight up...just made my problems worse...feel free to mesage me about this. take care

[bugout429]

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I've tried in the past to make myself throw up, but lack the gag reflex for it. I envy, but lack, the willpower that it takes to be anorexic. I am a former diet pill junkie - former only because ephedra is hard to come by nowadays. I abuse laxatives, and even have been known to abuse cocaine as a means to dull my frighteningly hearty appetite. Not only do I have this appetite, but I'm also a total emotional eater. Sometimes I think I'll never be thin naturally. Even on the ANA I'm still taking "power cleansers" and laxatives to empty myself out.

Nice to meet you all.

[Red Ann]

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ive had bulimia for 17 years

since doing the atkins ..........its stopped

[kbuchs]

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I've never been diagnosed with an eating disorder but I binge alot. For the last two months almost I have been going up and down between 167 and 160. Once I got to 158. It is embarrasing but maybe if I write it out, it will help me. I live above my grandparents and they always keep donuts, eclairs, candy, oreo's, and icecream in the house. Well, I'll have one of those in front of my grandmother and then I'll steal like 2 more donuts or 10 oreo's and eat them in the bathroom. I think I ate like this even when I was younger and thin but it never affected me until I got into my 20's. I have been overweight for 8 years now and I have felt uncomfortable in my own body since then. I keep trying to control my sugar monster by avoiding those foods and then by allowing myself legal treats. But neither way works for me. I am reading a book about addicitons now and even though it's mainly discussing drugs, I keep looking at it through the lens of food. I don't know what to do and have been feeling lost for a long time now. On top of this, like most addicitons, I have underlying emotional issues. I have major depression and the doc's I've seen for this have ignored my weight issue and just focused on my depression. Okay so that is me. Thanks for listening and I hope we can all beat our monsters together!

[ztachick]

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It's good to know that we are not alone...
((hugs))

[Red Ann]

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theres to many people out there hideing eating disorders .....nobody should feel alone

over the years i was in and out of clinics .hospitals on so many medications they did nothing to help me
i was normally told stop dieting and your illness will stop
thats like telling a fish to stop swimming .........
food equalled getting fat /food was my stress reliver /my comfort my way of copeing

tried every diet on the planet
starvation just made me binge worse ........nasty cycle
and in the process went from one weight to another .....lowest 6 stone highest 24 stone

then i read the atkins book it was left lieing about by my daughter
and gave it a go
with in days my binge/purge cycle stopped
had 2 episodes i guess old habits die hard
and im feeling positive i wont be tempted to binge again

bingeing /purgeing make you hungry all the time
and it makes you fat
hounest ..dont do it
you may lose weight to start with but the body soon learns .........to hold on to what ever it gets .......

ive kept a dairy over the last 17 years and i read it now with horror ........
what a waste of my life

[wonderwoman]

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I tend to eat a lot at nite from around 7 to 830. I try to keep that stuff "legal", but i find that i'm tasting a few bites of this, and a few of that, and then a cookie here, and maybe one more. I have never thrown up intentionally nor have I ever starved myself, but I feel like I can't seem to lose my last 7lbs or so, and my life revolves around trying to lose those lbs, and exercising/gym. I go back and forth b/t atkins and weight watchers, and I feel like neither of them are getting me any closer to my goal. I've been "stuck" for about 1.5 years now at this weight! I'm 5 feet 8inches tall, and I weigh 133, but my goal is really to be at 126-127 and stay there. It just seems like I can never go below 133. Makes me feel like a failure, and I wish I didn't have to obsess about the last few lbs. I consider that an eating disorder/obsessed or whatever, because I tend to let it run my days. Any advice is greatly appreciated.