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Okay, well I used to post on this board all the time in 2003. I was on with my gaming handle but because I used that name so often in the gaming community I did a search once on my name and it came up to here. (I was on as k*h*i*l*i*a*h. (I don't think the search engines can pick up that!)
I'm an anonymous person on gaming so I just didn't want anyone doing a search for me looking for game stats and seeing my stuff. I'm not sure if anyone here would even remember me, it was 5 years ago. So anyway, I'm back on the saddle again so to speak.
I should probably update things quick. In 2003, I was living in Iowa, things were not that great financially or with stability and we lost everything. I moved to Arizona with my husband 2 years ago and things are so different now, it's amazing.
Weight wise, ugh, not so much. Over the years up down, up down. I went off of Atkins in 2003 because I wasn't willing to give up my soda, never drank water and wasn't fond of the soda with splenda.
When I started on the boards I was at 255, dropped to 240. I had started at 290 though the loss of the first 35 was more from starving myself than atkins.
Sat there watching my husband keep shredding off pounds and I was going nowhere and I blame that on two things, myself, and my soda.
I went off thinking I would go on low cal/low fat starve myself... I couldn't do it anymore, broke down and gave up. I was eating very poorly, pizza constantly, eating fast food breakfasts everyday followed by candy bars before lunch, fast food for lunch, something in the afternoon and pig out on more pizza at night. That was 2003-2005.
I moved to Arizona in January of 2006, 2 months later I bought a scale and big shocker for me, I was at 307 pounds.
I starved myself and dropped to 225 in 6 months. I fell flat on my ***, shot back up to 265 which is my current weight. For the last 5 months, I've continued to keep telling myself "All I have to do is eat low cal/low fat and keep it around 1200 calories and I'll be thin by summer..." I'd make it on the extreme for 3 days and then crash and I'm the same weight as I was 5 months ago.
Last night, I had a thought. I can either keep falling to pieces, or I can give up my diet mountain dew, dedicate myself to drinking water with a little pepsi one with splenda in it if I need it (that hasn't changed has it? is splenda still okay?) and go back to being able to eat 3 times a day without yelling at myself and beating myself up internally for being a failure and still lose weight. If I stick to it and average the healthy weight loss drop, I'll be to a manageable weight in a year, if I just stick with it and don't cheat.
I informed my husband that I'm ready to go back to it and he was so happy it's not even funny. First thing he said? "You need to go find that bulletin board with those people who were really helpful..." Yup, that would be you guys. So here I am.
As for goals besides weight loss, I'm back in school, and I fell in love with Geology and re-started my major.
In April, we have a trip to the Grand Canyon for one of my geology classes. One of the professors who is leading this one knows me from the geo-trip we took to Trona and knows I am very over weight. He said it politely but his words were:
"This trip is much more physical than most of our other field classes. The class is essentially taught on the trail, so students need to be aware of the physical requirements involved so they can participate. For Spring 2008, we are hiking the Grandview trail out to the end of Horseshoe Mesa, a highly strenuous day-hike (6-7 miles, 2,600 feet vertical)."...
I knew what he was saying..... "Are you sure you can handle this?"...
Yes, I think I can.
I have a set of goals I want to accomplish:
So, that's it in a nutshell!
Okay, well I used to post on this board all the time in 2003. I was on with my gaming handle but because I used that name so often in the gaming community I did a search once on my name and it came up to here. (I was on as k*h*i*l*i*a*h. (I don't think the search engines can pick up that!)
I'm an anonymous person on gaming so I just didn't want anyone doing a search for me looking for game stats and seeing my stuff. I'm not sure if anyone here would even remember me, it was 5 years ago. So anyway, I'm back on the saddle again so to speak.
I should probably update things quick. In 2003, I was living in Iowa, things were not that great financially or with stability and we lost everything. I moved to Arizona with my husband 2 years ago and things are so different now, it's amazing.
Weight wise, ugh, not so much. Over the years up down, up down. I went off of Atkins in 2003 because I wasn't willing to give up my soda, never drank water and wasn't fond of the soda with splenda.
When I started on the boards I was at 255, dropped to 240. I had started at 290 though the loss of the first 35 was more from starving myself than atkins.
Sat there watching my husband keep shredding off pounds and I was going nowhere and I blame that on two things, myself, and my soda.
I went off thinking I would go on low cal/low fat starve myself... I couldn't do it anymore, broke down and gave up. I was eating very poorly, pizza constantly, eating fast food breakfasts everyday followed by candy bars before lunch, fast food for lunch, something in the afternoon and pig out on more pizza at night. That was 2003-2005.
I moved to Arizona in January of 2006, 2 months later I bought a scale and big shocker for me, I was at 307 pounds.
I starved myself and dropped to 225 in 6 months. I fell flat on my ***, shot back up to 265 which is my current weight. For the last 5 months, I've continued to keep telling myself "All I have to do is eat low cal/low fat and keep it around 1200 calories and I'll be thin by summer..." I'd make it on the extreme for 3 days and then crash and I'm the same weight as I was 5 months ago.
Last night, I had a thought. I can either keep falling to pieces, or I can give up my diet mountain dew, dedicate myself to drinking water with a little pepsi one with splenda in it if I need it (that hasn't changed has it? is splenda still okay?) and go back to being able to eat 3 times a day without yelling at myself and beating myself up internally for being a failure and still lose weight. If I stick to it and average the healthy weight loss drop, I'll be to a manageable weight in a year, if I just stick with it and don't cheat.
I informed my husband that I'm ready to go back to it and he was so happy it's not even funny. First thing he said? "You need to go find that bulletin board with those people who were really helpful..." Yup, that would be you guys. So here I am.
As for goals besides weight loss, I'm back in school, and I fell in love with Geology and re-started my major.
In April, we have a trip to the Grand Canyon for one of my geology classes. One of the professors who is leading this one knows me from the geo-trip we took to Trona and knows I am very over weight. He said it politely but his words were:
"This trip is much more physical than most of our other field classes. The class is essentially taught on the trail, so students need to be aware of the physical requirements involved so they can participate. For Spring 2008, we are hiking the Grandview trail out to the end of Horseshoe Mesa, a highly strenuous day-hike (6-7 miles, 2,600 feet vertical)."...
I knew what he was saying..... "Are you sure you can handle this?"...
Yes, I think I can.
I have a set of goals I want to accomplish:
- No Cheating
- Daily water intake will be met
- Decrease in caffeine signifigantly
- work out on my bow flex 3 times a week on the days I don't have classes (Mon-Wed-Fri I can work out on it) walk on off-days.
- lose as much as I can without starving
- required to eat 3 times a day. No Skipping Meals anymore.
- Be able to handle this Grand Canyon Trip without killing myself.
So, that's it in a nutshell!
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