Giving 100% Reaping 100%

[Debismyname]

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Hi Outback Jess

WOW....what you write here is so inspiring. It brought tears to my eyes....

I am very emotional lately....I cry so easily because i feel so helpless at the moment. I had huge success with Atkins the last time I did it but because I did it so strictly and over exercised (3 hours a day) it slowly but surely came on while I was on holiday overseas.

I am now trying to pick things up again.....I have been trying the past 7 weeks but am not succeeding. I set a 'date' to start time and time again, i might even do exercise, I might even manage to start the day OK but....I allow myself one bite of something or a day off exercise the next day or just a taste of something or just a larger dinner etc....and then all controls are lost and it becomes a big binge feast. The flood gates open and no food is forbidden.

Of course guilt follows, anxiety, anger at myself and then terror overtakes me....I have 4 months until I am meant to get married.....4 months to lose the weight (40 lbs). I promised myself I wouldn't carry my eating obsession into my married life. I promised I would fit into the dress i have already purchased.....but day after day i don't start. Day after day i have non-atkins foods and day after day.....i am going in the wrong direction.

I am sorry if all this sounds negativebut....thats where i am right now....i am so negative...totallly negative.

Maybe tahts why i am emotional, teary and why i shed several tears when i read your posting. I so much want to do what you are doing and think the way you write.....but i just can't (can't seems to be in my vocabulary a lot lately/ since i gained the weight back). I am so stuck and depressed.....

I'm sorry but I am reaching out if anyone else has any suggestions....i am desperate to start on track....i'm sorry if what i say here is inappropriate or not the correct thread....i just had to get all this out.....

Thank you everyone for listening and for just being here....

God bless you all....

[Debismyname]

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I am sorry i just wrote 'hi outback jess'. what i meant was hi to everyone....i wasn't thinking staright....

[huggija]

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Hi Debismyname!

I totally understand where you're at. I, too, have struggled so much with my food 'demons'. For the last 4 months, I've done the same. Started, cheated, stopped, felt guilty, ate more, etc etc. My advice is to keep reading this forum, keep posting and try to draw inspiration from it. I certainly have! This is day 5 for me and I'm still a little discouraged, but am commited to keep doing the right thing. It WILL happen...YOU CAN DO IT and more importantly, we can do it together through support.

We all have our weak moments. In my opinion, the first thing you need to do is stop beating yourself up. It only perpetuates the problem. While you may not be able to meet your overall goal in the timeframe that you'd like, you can start down the road and feel GOOD about being healthier and making the effort to succeed.

Best of luck to you. We're all in this boat together!

[Debismyname]

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Hi huggija


Thank you so much for your reply....your a real sweetheart

I am grateful for you sharing your story and everything you say makes 100% sense. Beating myself up over 'failures' and binges is a habit but it doesn't help. I know i have to fight it because only then will i trully be free.

I think in my case and maybe yours....eating is just part of the problem. my self talk is equally a problem....it can destroy me if i let it. I need to forgive myself and let go of the past in order to move on and whilst that is often easier said than done, i know thats what i need to do....

Anyway....thank you and all the best to you too....i sincerely wish you success and thank you again for your encouragement....i hope to chat to you and more of the wonderful people i see on this bulletin board....its a blessing to have you all here....

xo

[Nick9973]

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<There is no way around, planning, working out routines, preparing baggies of snack foods or emergency foods, there is no way around, good shopping and setting yourself up for success. There is no way around daily discipline and focus. There is no way around the focus and committment required. There is no way around reading, studying and using that knowledge to empower you. There is no way around the water, you need. There is no way around the exercise you need, daily or at least 4-6 days a week...>


This is so inspirational! You really have worked hard at it! I am pretty motivated now, but I hope it will last for a long time to come. Thanks for such an awesome post!

[Outback Jess]

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Nick, man where did you find this post! I bout fell down when I saw it, I wondered, "did I just write this????" I knew I could not have done that.
Way to go, for digging it up and taking heed....Find your way with all the little ideas you can dream up that work for your world! You can do it!

[2findme08]

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Outback Jess~
I don't know how I stumbling onto your post, I've only logged into this board 2-3 times since my initial sign up. I feel lucky? no, destined to have found this and you have really spoke the word to me. I'm trying to find my way "back" from getting lost in sad and dark place this past year... resulting in letting myself, my goals, and the worst of it: All my previous achievements on Atkins... just let it slip away.
Thank you for your post. Perfect timing. I'll keep reading.
j

[Outback Jess]

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Wow, I bout choked when I found this one right smack in the middle of STAC...
I am actually going to go read it again....

[Aussieinaz]

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Lovve it another amazing post Jess.. So true and I could of writen this about myself..