Roll Call 2/12/09

[tfek70]

Re: Roll Call 2/12/09

Sis, you are right where I was about 4 days ago. I dropped out of ketosis by adding new foods and hitting restaurants. We seem to be on the same schedule. I went back to induction and tightened my stuff up and am losing again. Sounds like we might actually be related.

[EverLosing]

Re: Roll Call 2/12/09

Well, I sent the wife off yesterday to attend the 101st Airborne's 1st/502nd Brigade memorial dedication for those who were KIA in the last deployment. This will happen at 1330 this afternoon. My son was the only loss from B Company. We are thankful that no one else from the company had to get that visit and walk the path that we are forever stuck on. One of the bad aspects of this is they are dedicating the memorial today.. which is my wife's birthday. The other horrible anniversary is coming on the 24th of the month. These are the days that try our souls.

Oh, Fozzy...

I've been tempted to let you know how sorry I am about the loss of your son. I'm in Tennessee...an hour and a half away from Ft. Campbell. I feel connected to you somehow...I remember your son's name. I don't know that they released it on February 24th of last year...thought it was days later that his actual name was released but I want you to know that I care and I remember. My young son remembers the news reports. Of course, it hits the news a little harder here because of our proximity to Ft. Campbell. Please know I respect and honor the ultimate sacrifice of your family. I too have lived through some unspeakable losses and have always been quite an "anniversary" girl. It's the most difficult thing to deal with in this world, on this side but as time goes on...it never becomes "acceptable" but our views change somewhat. I used to have a terrible fear of death. Not anymore. Each day I get one day closer to crossing over. There are souls there that will celebrate when I finally get there. I can't wait!

When you mentioned the path you're forever stuck on...I just wanted to tell you, it's not that hopeless. Fact is, Micheal is waiting for you although he isn't stuck in our concept of time. He watches over you. He is the breeze you feel whiz past you. He's there in your most quiet private moments when you think you're alone but deep down, you know you're not. He is the inspiration and motivation inside you that come from your heart. Most importantly, he's there watching and hoping and praying that his dad can find peace...that you can change your health and live a long healthy life. He wouldn't want anything less for you. I know KIA has special meaning...but I really dislike the word killed. Nothing can kill the part of us that matters most, the soul. He wasn't killed, he's more alive than ever. It's just extremely painful for those of us left here that he's not alive inside his body and sitting next to us right now. We always want it our way, don't we? The most valuable lesson in this life I have learned is...only love survives this universe. There is no other emotion, nothing else in this world that survives...except our love for another soul. We truly are not parted by death of the human body.

I write these words not to bring you more pain, but I write them out of love for you, the loss you feel inside and appreciation for your sacrifice. He has a high reward where he is now. Higher than most of us will ever know. The day will come when the struggles of this life are over for you and Micheal will be there to greet you, with his arms wide open. Thank you and love to you and yours.

[carlae]

Re: Roll Call 2/12/09

Another day, no cheating, only loving the way I eat. Fozzy, I am so sorry for you pain. I have a son that wants to join the marines, and it scares me so bad. He says he wants to do it for his country. I only hope that I have the strength that you do! I will pray for you and your wife.

Everlosing, I think those were the most beautiful words I have ever heard. They express exactly what I feel.

carlae
SW/206
CW/197
GW/145